Friday, 22 May 2015

PART 5 A :Teri Meri Yeh Love Story

My Angel's Eyes

Dancing aglow
With love and wonder
Sparkles and flashes
Of lightning and thunder
Dreamlike states
They cast me headlong
Piercing with brilliance
Weaken, yet strong
Smiling and dazzling
Hypnotic and warm
They hold my gaze
With their grace and charm
Caressing and comforting
As warm blue skies
I'm hopelessly lost
In my Angel's brown eyes!

- Joe Roach -



Tears made their way out of my eyes as i realized what I was doing..One more step and Its over...But he never let me to take that one step...I looked at him and instantly hugged him tightly...and sobbed when I felt his hands circling around my waist and holding me close to him...That time I felt something different...It was not only comforting hug...but something more to it...As if..this hug was more out of fear...I couldn't exactly make out of it as that time I was busy in searching for my solace... As i realized the situation I took a step back and stared into his eyes...

His eyes were saying volumes...were showing the traces of fears of losing someone...someone... Is that me...It is the feeling of losing me...I don't know to what extent it was true...but mere thought of going away from him will surely take my life...So not thinking about anything...I hugged him Again...this time even more tighter...



PRESENT

"Ishu...Ishu...Wake up...Hum late ho jayenge..." Amma shouted at me while snatching away my blanket.

Listening to Amma's continuous rant I gave up and lazily opened my eyes and asked "Kya hai Amma...Please sone do na thodi der..."
"Ishu..no more sleep...jaldi se ready ho...Cab will be here in no time..." As soon as Amma left the room...I opened my eyes and muttered "Aiyoo...Mai kaise bhul sakti hu...Nahi...mai uss ladke se nahi milungi...Ishita...kuch soch..."

She racked her brain but to no avail. She was deep in her thoughts when Mihika barged in her room while shouting "Akka...yeh kya hai...aap ready nahi huye...jaldi karo...Mihir ki family toh nikal bhi gayi hai..aur hum yahi par hai..."

I sighed and said "Mikuu...Please...Mujhe nahi jana...mera mann nahi hai..."

"Akka..please...don't be a spoilsport...Please chalo na mere liye...and I promise...i'll be there for you...no matter what...!"
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Ishita, being all helpless agreed. She packed her stuff and they all were sitting in a cab enjoying the drive. Only if they knew...That she was not mentally present there. She kept her eyes outside the window not wanting to spoil the happy-go-lucky mood of the family. She closed her eyes and again walked down the memory lane...as if it was the only place where she can find her solace.

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FLASHBACK
[Ishita's POV]

I hugged him Again...this time even more tighter...Being in his arms gave me my long lost solace...That time I understood...I need him now...He was my solace...No other feeling or person can give this much needed warmth...warmth of love...warmth of being secure...I know...I trust him with my life...I can't let him go...I don't know about future...but I can't let him go...I will do whatever it takes...

I was busy in my thoughts when I realised his grip on my waist grew more tighter... But something was changed surely...Not that I am close to him for the first time...But this time his body is reacting in a different way...As if his life depended on this hug...As if he would loosened the grip...and I will disappear...Is this true...Should I trust my instincts..? Suddenly I felt the urge to look in his eyes again for an answer...to my question...This time I will not let go of my instincts so easily...

Though reluctantly, I stepped back and stare into his eyes...I found something...something like which defined his state...enormous of emotions flowing through his eyes...First It was a confusion...but soon it changed to fear...and within seconds it changed to no emotions...What this man is made up of...? My Mystery Guy...!

I saw his eyes turning darker as he grabbed me more into him. Both of his hands rested on my waist...and his eyes never left mine...Slowly he took his one hand and caressed my cheek with his knuckles...His mere touch on my body erupted all my hidden desires...and passion for him...He drew his face near to mine gazing at my lips and then once he looked back in my eyes..I knew what he wanted to ask...I closed my eyes in anticipation...Nothing could be better than this...It was the moment I have least expected but always wished...But whatever it is...It was a fantasy come true...I wish to just drown into this moment...

It's been awhile I had kept my eyes closed but his lips never touched mine...I got my senses back as I heard him saying in his husky voice "Ishita..." he stopped for a minute, giving me my time to stable my running breath...As i opened my eyes...I found a guilty look on his face when he continued "Ishita...I am sorry...!"

I stood there all freezed...I felt a pain in my heart hearing him asking for an apology...Did he really regretted the closeness we shared moments back...I felt his hands loosening the hold and with that he stepped back and turned around. I could not believe what happened...If he had to regret...then why at first place he chose to come near. As his back was facing me...and after the several minutes he hadn't dared to turn around, feeling all drained I took some steps back and started moving in opposite direction...Suddenly I felt a tug on my hand. I don't need a help of a genius to guess who it was..as my brain and my heart are quite well-trained in recognizing his touch.  I turned around to see his face but this time with calm expressions. He gestured me to follow him which I did quietly not wanting to show my state to him. I don't know what he was thinking... But I surely need to control my emotions...and remind my heart...I am no one...!! It's not necessary... That what you feel for the person...will Have to feel the same for you too...

We walked back to the place where we were standing before. He looked at me and said "I am Sorry..Ishita...I know..  I should have controlled myself..Trust me..It was out of blue...and was not intentionally...But I guess...I just lost my senses seeing you doing that dumb act...Wait...Wait a minute.."

As he said that I looked in his eyes which showed an angry glare. I smiled sheepishly at my instincts who said that it's time for one more match...RKB v/s JKR. I know...after this there is no need of his apologies...And for a change I don't need them...as those moments were a bliss for me...and I just hope for that day...when he will close that distance too...and will never regret that...!

I snapped back from my thoughts listening to him "Ishita...Are you out of your mind...Aisa kya soch rahi thi...Abhi agar mai nahi aata toh..toh..."

I saw him shrugging away his shoulders when I stopped him and muttered "Please...Mihika ko mat btana...wo sabko bta degi...and everyone will get panic..."

He passed me an angry glare but still nodded and said "Nahi btaunga...But don't ever repeat this dumb act..."

"Ab chalo...itna achha sunset toh dekh hee liya hai...ab raat bhar yahi rehna hai kya..."

With that we started our another fighting round of silly one liners.
We sat in car and drove off. Though I felt little bad when he asked for that apology...and also when I knew that i am no one to him. But These things are not affecting me anymore...I still believe the emotions I felt when he hugged me...was not out of the situation demands...but more out of fears...

The way he touched me...was not a simple touch...and i believe my senses...Still...Now I have more memories with him...I just wish they never lasts.

"Waise Ishita...Can I ask You something.." He said making me chuckle.

"Oh...Toh Raavan Kumar mein itni courtesy hai...Ki itna lecture dene ke baad...Wo kuch puchne ke liye permission maang rahe hai.."

"Yaar tum..koi jawaab sidhe se nahi de sakti ho...taunt add karna jaruri hai.." He sighed and looked away.

I smiled and said "Pucho..."

He looked at me and said "Are you Okay now..?"

I was confused that what he is talking about. As if reading my thoughts he cleared "means...aj tum restaurant mein..wo ro rahi thi...so..I thought to ask you...I hope you don't mind..."

I looked at him blankly. I was not wrong in guessing that he knew I lied. But now what...what to say...what if he asked me the reason...I controlled myself and replied "It's nothing Raman...I told you na...It was all because of..."

Even before I can say he muttered "because of that spicy food...yeah yeah...I know..I know I am no one to you...and may be you don't feel like sharing anything about your life to me...But I thought You considered me as your Best friend Ishita..."

He stopped and then again continued "You know...why I brought you here...?"

I innocently shook my head in negative to which he chuckled and said "All because I thought you need some time alone..and a peaceful place to calm your wandering mind...!"

"And with that i thought...that you trust me enough to share your sorrows with...But I guess I was wrong...I thought in these days...we atleast share a bond...But now I know...I am probably no one to you..."

As soon he completed...I stared at him for a minute or two. Though I was little sad when he had mentioned about being a best friend...But I couldn't have wished for more today...Some time back...I was in a grief that I am no one to him...But really...he considers me his best friend...well something is better than nothing...hey wait what...Probably...before he took my silence in a wrong way i should speak to him rather my thoughts...

"Waise...Mujhe nahi pta tha...ki Raavan bhi senti baatein kar sakta hai..." I said making him stifle a laugh. And seeing him laughing I choose to join him.

"I thought..I was making some sense to you...But I guess...tumhe toh Raavan kumar hee pasand hai...so okay...deal with him...!! " He winked at me and continued driving.

I smiled at our silly and half conversation,...Though there were many things...many thoughts I really wanted to voice out..But well...it's not the right time.

By the time we reached farm house almost everyone was in their rooms and well it was quite late too. I bid goodnight to him but even before I can take a step he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. With the sudden pull I land up colliding with him. I stared at him while he very calmly drew us apart.

He smiled at me and said "Ishita...I consider you as my good friend...and isliye sirf itna kehna chahta hu...ki kabhi bhi...you need me..all you have to do is look at me once...I promise..will never leave your side no matter what..."

With that he took a step forward but again stopped and turned around. He walked to me and naughtily uttered "waise bhi...jhasi ki rani ...apni talwar ke saath ladte ve aur lecture dete ve achhi lagti hai...na ki normal ladkiyo ki tarah rote ve...samjhi."

With that he winked at me and moved out of the sight even before I can reply...

All the time I was just ogling at him...and honestly I was trying to differentiate between reality and my dreams...Well I must Thank him...spending some time and talking to him made my heart lighter than before..!! Something unusual happened that day...He never left my side even for a second...But why...is he bothered so much...Is it  a friend...or something more to it...

Well there are loads of questions running in my mind...and no answer seems to calm them down...With that I walked in my room and after changing into a comfortable nightdress..I sat near the window and stared at the shining moon...

Since I started believing in Love...the day when I came to know what this word exactly means...Since the day I understood what this mere word can make us feel...From that day...I understood one thing...staring at this shining object gives me peace...and talking to him every night became my routine rather a habit...As if it gives some solace to my wandering mind...And even sometimes it feels i am talking to him...my Raavan Kumar...And Now...even i use to see his face in this moon...I don't know what all this actually mean...But what I know is...I am head over heels in love with him...All I wanted is him...All i desire is to be in his arms...All I wish that every morning I wake up in his arms...

And Undoubtedly he is the knight in shining armour for me... i don't know where I was lost...that I didn't even realize what I was up to...If I had taken that step...then  what would probably have happened ...

Suddenly I felt a little depressed thinking about the day's not so good events...All I need was a refreshing taste of my Hot Chocolate...which always help me to calm me down everytime I feel low...I walked out of my room and was quite surprised seeing the darkness Everywhere... It seemed to be a power cut...but hey..wait..
My room's lights are still on..
Then what is all about...with small and scary steps I reached near hall with help of little moon light...And within in a micro second lights came back and I heard "Surprise"...



Nikki

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