Friday, 25 September 2015

part 29 : DMG 3

 Part 29

Armaan looked at himself in the mirror of his bathroom taking in his red rimmed eyes but the wporst part was the clamoring that was going on in his head. Armaan closed his eyes and prayed for the drums in his head to quiet down and promised himself that he would never drink again. He quikly downed two aspirins with water to help his head and quickly went in for a shower. He came out in a little while and quickly got dressed and went downstairs.

One look at the clock told him that he was late than usual, meaning shilpa would be already at the hospital. Armaan needed to talk to her as the hangover had not erased the memory of his argument with shilpa. He could not believe the vile and stupid things that had come out of his mouth. Armaan drove all the way to sanjeevani thinking of what to say to shilpa, he knew shilpa was not going to make it easy for him. He entered sanjeevani on a look out ofshilpa. When he reached the nurse station he immediately asked for shilpa and was told that she was in OT. Armaan knew that he had no other option but to bide his time but throughout his rounds he kept an eye out for shilpa. Two hours later armaan had completed his round he decided to ask around for shilpa.
Armaan approached a wardboy: have you seen dr. shilpa any where?
Wardboy: I saw her at the nurse's station.(armaan immediately made a run for the nurse's station)
Armaan: nurse! Aap ne dr. shilpa ko dekha
Nurse: she just left for home.
Armaan: home?(he looked at his watch, this was not a regular time when her shift ended)are you sure?(nurse nodded in assent. Armaan thought of his schedule and decided to make a run to shilpa's place and quickly ran out of the hospital)
He made it to shilpa's place in 20 minutes and quickly rang the bell. As he stood outside the door and waited for someone to open the door he could not hear any sound coming from inside. He decided to check the back door, as he made his way to the back, the door was locked the curtains were drawn across the windows and no sound was coming from the inside. Armaan banged on the door and tried to call shilpa on her cell but was unreachable. In frustration he banged on the door again with the same result making him get back in the car and head back to the hospital. Through out the day armaan was distracted he could not understand where she was. As his shift was ending he tried calling her again on her cell but it was still unavailable. He decided to go to her place again as if not her then maan aur sujal might be available but he was wrong, the house was empty.
Dejected he started back to his house, during the drive he went over everything that had happened and he started feeling angry over the way shilpa was behaving now. Armaan was feeling like a injured party as he was ready to do the right thing by apologizing but shilpa was purposely avoiding him and those brothers of hers who as a rule are always camped out at her place were also absent from the scene. He reache home obviously in a bad mood, padma had gone out for the day with her friends so it was going to be just shashank and armaan.
Shashank and armaan were sitting in the lounge when shashank: so armaan! Its been quite some time since we had any heart to heart. So tell me what are you upto nowadays.
Arman glumily: oh! Nothing really!
Shashank: but you have started to socialize more, especially with shilpa and her friends, I hope you are having a good time.
Shilpa's name gave him the excuse to blow of some steam: papa, its better you don't talk about shilpa with me. this girl is beyond my understanding
Shashank looked surprised: why? What happened? I thought you both understood each other very well.
Armaan: that's the problem. We think we know someone so well but that person is least of all interested in you and hardly care that one might worry about them as they have left without telling someone where they are.
Shashank: am I to understand that you and shilpa have had a fight.(armaan continued to sulk)atleast tell me what the fight was about.
Armaan: papa that's not important. The point is I'm calling her and she is not taking my call and I don't know where she is. I know she is doing all this to spite me.
Shashank smiling: armaan relax! Shilpa has gone to the panchgani orphanage, dr. keerti has sent her there. She told me before leaving so there is no need to go off the handle like this.
Armaan instead of feeling relieved was feeling peeved again: exactly, she behaves in whatever way she feels is right and the other person is just suppose to wait for her. just look at the way she behaved towards mayank yesterday. Not only that but the way she called of the wedding(shaking his head in disgust)
Shashank seriously: do you know why shilpa called off the wedding
Armaan: no! but…
Shashank: you just made some heavy accusations without actually bothering to find out the reason behind her actions.(pausing) she called off the wedding b'coz of ridhima, b'coz of us. (armaan looked up shocked, shashank quickly told him the reason making armaan feel like snake for saying all those things)
Shashank: beta! Shilpa is very simple to understand for her her loved one's come first. She has done a lot for all of us and especially for you and ridhima.
Armaan: papa! I feel like a heel. I don't know why I said all these stupid vile things, when I know they are untrue. I can't believe I said all these things to shilpa(armaan dropped his head in his hands remorsefully)
Shashank: you were trying to get a response from shilpa but I'm sure this was not what you were expecting. Armaan! Shilpa is not ridhima. Stop mixing the two. The relationship you had with ridhima is completely different to what you have with shilpa. don't try and use the same tactics with shilpa you are just going to mess up things.
Armaan: papa I'm already messed up. I don't know why for the last couple of weeks I feel as if things between me and shilpa are changing. I feel like any second everything  is going to blow up in my face.(armaan raking a hand through his hair)
Shashank: if you haven't understood it yet I think its about time you spend some time alone and try and figure out what's happening. Shilpa's gone for 4 days I think it gives you enough time to sort through your feelings. (shashank got up to leave and before leaving he passed a hand over armaan's head)  
Armaan sat there alone in the lounge feeling more lonely than he had felt in a long time.
Lost and lonely coz you're the only one
That knows me and I can't be without you
Lost and lonely coz you're the only one
That knows me and I can't be without you
Hai kya yeh jo tere mere darmiyaan hai
Andekhi ansuni koi dastaan hai (armaan sat alone in his room looking at a picture of himself and shilpa together smiling at the camera)
Hai kya yeh jo tere mere darmiyaan hai
Andekhi ansuni koi dastaan hai
Lagne lagi, ab zindagi khaali
Hai meri
Lagne lagi har saans bhi khaali (lost and lonely)
Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere (lost and lonely)
Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere (lost and lonely)
Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere (lost and lonely)(he sat looking into distance)
Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere (lost and lonely)
Ajnabi se huye kyun pal saare (the next morning at breakfast table as he sat down to eat he remembered when shilpa had forcefully fed him breakfast)
Yeh nazar se nazar yeh milaate hi nahin
Ik gani dehaayi cha gayi hai
Manzilein raaston mein hi gum hone lagi
Ho gayi ansuni har dua ab meri
Reh gayi ankahi bin tere (lost and lonely)
Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere (lost and lonely)
Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere (lost and lonely)
Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere (lost and lonely)
Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere (lost and lonely)
Raah mein roshni ni hai kyun haath choda (the following day he kept thinking of all the harsh words that had been said between them)
Iss taraf shaam ne kyun hai apna muh moda
Yun ke har subah ik bereham si baat ban gayi
Hai kya yeh jo tere mere darmiyaan hai
Andekhi ansuni koi dastaan hai
Lagne lagi, ab zindagi khaali khaali
Lagne lagi har saans bhi khaali (lost and lonely)
Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere (lost and lonely Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere (lost and lonely))(shashank came over to armaan and told him that all of them would be leaving for panchgani the next day so get ready)
As armaan sat alone in his room at night waiting for the sun to rise so that they could be on their way he felt ridhima's presence.
Ridz: so you ready for the trip tomorrow
Armaan: I don't know. All I know that I need to talk to shilpa. I can't go on like this.
Ridz: what are you going to say?(armaan looked at ridhima and then way)you still haven't figured it out yet.
Armaan: ridhima if you are not going to be any help then go.
Ridz: armaan for a astute guy why have you turned so oblivious to what is happening to you.(armaan looked at her confused) my god you have actually gone stupid. You idiot, you feel lost without her, she is the first person you think of tell when you have a good news. When you are down and depressed she is the only one you want to talk to. Her smile is the only thing which can light up any dark hour for you. When she is sad you feel the need to make things right for her. Her one smile makes you feel like a king, and her one look makes you feel as weak as a baby. Sometimes when she looks at you feel that you alone have the power to heal all the hurts of her life.
Armaan looked at ridhima: no! it can't be. Its not possible.
Ridz: why not? What are you scared of armaan. Admit it.
Armaan: what if she leaves me, what if she doesn't feel the same way.
Ridz: armaan all this time she has supported you, heard you bitch about things, tolerated your bad behavior it was not b'coz she was being the good smaritan.
Armaan: you know she gave it back to me. it wasn't as if she was passively taking my bad behavior.(he added with a smile)
Ridz smiled: say it!
Armaan looked up at ridhima: I love her. I'm in love with shilpa!
Ridz smiled tremulously: yes you do
Armaan: but its not the same feeling when I fell in love with you.(looking as if someone had hit him on the head)
Ridz: why should it be same. Armaan! Woh shilpa hai ridhima nahin. Now don't mess it up. Ok
Armaan: I love you too.
Ridz: and I love you both.

Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere (lost and lonely)(next morning all the way to panchgani he kept thinking of shilpa and his feelings for her.)
Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere (lost and lonely)
Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere (lost and lonely)(as they reached panchgani and stepped out of the card armaan could see shilpa in the garden surrounded by children, as they approached them the children came towards them making shilpa turn around to see what was happening)
Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere .. lost and lonely ..(as she turned she saw armaan coming towards her and their gazes met and held)
lost and lonely…lost and lonely


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