Sunday, 27 September 2015

Part-5 :~Just A Bend Not The End ~


After some time when Armaan was assured that Ridhima  was in deep sleep he gently scooped her up in his arms and walked towards their bedroom. Once that they reached their room he very carefully laid her down on the bed making sure not to disturb her at all. After he made her lie down, he went to the kitchen to make himself a cup of coffee as he was in no mood to sleep and plus he really wanted

to have a cup of coffee.....he was just mixing the ingredients and was about to pour the coffee when he heard a slight noise coming from the kitchen entrance and as he turned to have a look he was shocked beyond words seeing Ridhima  standing there nervously playing with the end of her top...Worried he walked towards her and asked her with pure love and concern in his voice "Ridhima , what happened baby?? What are you doing here? And more importantly why did you wake up??" Ridhima slowly looked up towards him and then with a chocked voice said "uhm...I..I woke up but you were not there...I..I called you bu..but you did not reply...so I..I thought...."  Unknowingly a lone tear slipped off her eyes. Armaan's heart pained to see her so vulnerable, he now understood the depth of her insecurities. She thought Armaan  too would leave her like her granny and baby. He took her in his arms and for a change she did not protest rather she willingly accepted the warmth. He rubbed her back and spoke in a soothing voice "Shh sweetheart! I am right here with you...nor have I gone anywhere and now will I ever do..." He parted from the hug and looking directly in her eyes he held her hand and placed it on his chest right above his heart "can you feel this?? This heart of mine beats only for you and only because of you... Staying with you, being with you is not only my choice baby its my need...I need you to stay alive, to live cuz my princess my existence is marked by your presence. I am never gonna leave you baby, even if you tell me to do so I wont...I love you baby, I love you very much...always! Always remember that.." He said pouring his heart out in front of her and hoping against hope that he would be able to at least ease her insecurities a bit. Ridhima  looked directly into his eyes and saw nothing but honesty and love...she was touched with every word that he said and though her heart believed him yet in the very same heart there was still a corner that was scared, that was insecure and vulnerable. She wanted to break down in his arms, and tell him that she too loves him, loves with all her heart however something stopped her to do and she just gave him a slight nod. Armaan  on the other side knew what she wanted to say, he had read her eyes like an open book and thus without words he understood what she wanted to say and he also knew that it was just that nagging fear of loosing him that did not let her speak but he was sure that very soon she will speak....He looked at her one more time and then led her towards their room....Once they both were in bed all tucked in, he glanced at her and saw that she was still very restless so he gingerly took her in his arms and placed her head on his chest snaking his arms around her Petite waist...she looked up at him with shock written all over her face which he clearly saw so he very calmly said "I like it this way..." And thus placing a loving kiss on her forehead he patted her head to make her sleep....after a while he could see her eyelids ready to drop but it was as if she was on war with her sleep, Armaan  was worried seeing her state because he knew that her medication was very strong and it made her very drowsy but that whole day she hardly had a good sleep of 1 hour at a stretch...she seemed so scared to sleep as if she would sleep and he would run away...Armaan  sighed deeply and then gently whisper in her ear "sleep baby! I promise when you open your eyes you will find me right here! Beside you, with you..." Saying so he covered her eyes with his palms and call it the magic of love or the soothing words of assurance she was soon drowned in deep slumber...giving her one last glance And whispering a small In Love you in her ears Armaan  too fell asleep content with the fact that she at least started to talk to him, be it a few words yet he was now confident that he will defiantly succeed in bringing her out of her shell...........
Next Morning Armaan's sleep was disturbed as the run rays peeped in through their window, just as he opened his eyes his eyes he got a million dollar smile as he saw his angel, his princess, his Ridhima  cutely snuggling into him. For a change her forehead had no creases on it and that very fact made his flutter, he also noticed that she had gripped his hand very tightly...He decided to let her sleep for some more time as she had not slept  properly the previous night and also because he knew that she was both physically and mentally drained...Thus, after checking on her one last time he closed his eyes and decided to catch up on some sleep himself..............After another 2hrs Armaan  woke up when he felt Ridhima  moving a little against his chest...as he opened his eyes he saw Ridhima  awake already trying to detangle her bracelet from his T-shirt. He smiled at the little pout that has formed on her lips on being able to detangle the bracelet. Chucking at her futile attempts he took over her hands and did the needful. Once that he was done he looked towards her face and placing a light kiss on her cheek he wished her "Good morning my Princess!! Did you sleep well?". She gave him a slight nod and just as he was going to get up she spoke in a very small, inaudible voice "Thank you!" He definitely  heard that and also knew why she was saying it so he gently kisses her forehead letting his lips linger for a little longer and said with all the love "You need not thank me sweetheart! I love you!..." As she stared back at him unable to express what her heart wanted he spoke up "okay now! Freshen up and come down" she nodded and did so while he went to use the other washroom to freshen up....Once that she was fresh and ready she came downstairs and saw him doing something in the kitchen. Just as he saw her he smiled brightly and walked towards her "hello my princess!! Hmm somebody looks nice and fresh..." She just gave him a small smile but that one smile made his heart flutter with joy for he had seen it after such a long time...not wanting to loose the moments in his thoughts he continued talking while walking back towards the counter "Since it's a Sunday I will be making breakfast for my princess....hmm what will she eat??? Hmm how about pancakes with maple syrup and vanilla ice cream??" He asked her with twinkling eyes hoping to get her all excited as that was usually her favourite breakfast!!! She looked up at him and very meekly said "I am not hungry..." Armaan  sighed deeply, this was nothing new from the past few days she would hardly eat anything..."Pls Ridhima , I really feel like having pancakes and moreover I am so hungry and who better than you would know that I do not like eating alone so just to give me company, have a little.I promise I will make it very tasty" he said looking at her with a very cute expression and though she really was not hungry she agreed. Soon breakfast was ready and though a little but Ridhima  too had it and liked it as well.......................
It was almost evening when Armaan  walked in their room to see Ridhima  agin gazing into space blankly he gently tapped her shoulder to bring her out of her thoughts "hey!! I was thinking since it's a Sunday why don't we both go out for a while?" He asked her hoping that she would agree.."I don't feel like going out" she replied with a chocked voice, she was once gain lost in her thought of her granny and baby...Armaan  sighed and sitting beside her said in the most gently way possible "Ridhima!! I know you are hurt baby! I know it's not easy to forget what has happened, but sweetheart you can't stay locked up all your life can you? I know it's easier said than done but sweetheart think about it if you have lost your child then so have I...if your dreams have shattered then so have mine but I am not locking myself up like you are! You know why because for me all that matters is you, is us. Ridhima  it's high time you come out of this room, of this house you need a breather baby! You need to get over your insecurities, your pain, I love you sweetheart and I don't know how to make you believe me but trust me I will never, I repeat never leave you. I will not force you to come out, but I will be waiting for you because I know that my Princess is a fighter, after every low she will bounce back to life" saying so he left the room leaving behind a very deep in thought Ridhima .....
~Living Room~
Once Armaan  left their room he came to the living room and sitting on the sofa recalled whatever he told Ridhima . He knew he over did it but it was needed. Rahul had clearly told him that the anti depressants won't work unless and until Ridhima  began to changer her lifestyle. She would had to accept reality. She had to go out, be herself and most importantly talk. Armaan  was busy thinking about how could he get his Ridhima's smile and happiness  back when he heard some noise coming from the staircase. Just as he turned to have a look he was shocked to see.......

NOTE: Hello my dear readers! I am sorry for being late again.. I know, I know you guys must be thinking how bad I am to keep u all waiting but
I am very sorry but I could not help it as I was really busy...I also know that after reading the end of this part many of you really want to kill me...but again all I can say is I am cho chorry...I promise I will try to update soon...however as usual I can't promise when that "soon" will be....Pls do read the part and as said earlier feedback both good and bad are accepted but pls do leave comments and let me know what you guys think about the part!!!

Tani

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