Saturday, 20 May 2017

part 2 : 10 spines had made their way through his body,



WE BOTH FELL ON THE BED TOGETHER FACING EACH OTHER......and don't worry hu!!! we never did anything...!!lolzzzzz.......and yah he was looking very sexy and hawt and his eyes which spoke each and every thing even before he says....


AFTER SOME TIME:-
armaan was staring continously in my hazel eyes....damnit I just wanted to go and kiss him tight but damn it would look awkward wouldn't it????

ANYWAYS....his head was on my laps and I was caressing his hairs...it was if we are spending THE LAST DAY OF OUR LIVES BUT DID WE EVER KNEW WHAT FUTURE KEPT FOR US......living wothout each other is equal to dying...!!!WE just wanted this moment to stop forever.we never wanted to loose each other...BUT now he had to go.....it was 7 in the morning and our flight to INDIA was at 10.....I really didn't knew that WILL WE EVEN SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN???....this line came into my mind again and again and it literally felt like hitting my head on the wall of iron...!!!
"EITHER WE HAVE TO LIVE TOGETHER OR WE HAVE TO DIE".....he said not knowing what he's saying....."WILL YOU BE MY SIDE IN BOTH THE WAYS"......truthness and LOVE was completely visible in his eyes.......it touched my heart IT FELT as if even we''ll not be together we will still be together...!!!BUT at that even i had to respond back...i kissed on his NOSE and then on his ears which he took as a +ive signal...and these words automatically came out from my mouth....
"YES I AM WITH YOU ARMAAN"....................
~~~~~~~~~~~FLASHBACK OVER~~~~~~~~~~~~
"so(sigh) this is it..."said I......with tears clearly visible in my eyes....you know remebering that night it feels neutral.......it feels great as well as bad.....!!!
"oh....i am sorry"....said ATUL...the basterd,arsehole who destroyed my life....but these words of him touched my heart.........that time I could see some pain in his eyes......."i understand"..........said he.........but trust me even though he is thinking that he "U-N-D-E-R-S-T-A-N-D-S"...he still does not know what pain me and armaan hod to go through...!!!
i left FROM the room and entered my GOING-TO-BE room in just 2 days....YES i was in punjab with my parents and going to be in laws whcih i wanted to kill right now....but these things never mattered to  me..what mattered to me the MOST was that i haven't met armaan from the last 2 months......uhhh.....I WAS LIVING THESE TWO MONTHS BY KILLING MYSELF....it had been 2 whole months since i have kissed his lips,hugged him hard,kick his ass,bited his ear,heard to his dreamy and seducive voice.......uhh..........do maheene nahi hote hai DO MAHEENE HONA HAI!!!!!!!...............
anyways,i entered the room and saw a wedding dress on my bed....it was red like rose and beautiful like rose.but for me it looked like red as blood and bloody as blood......I cried and cried but that was nothing new from the last 2 months it has been my daily task.....I WAS GETTING MARRIED TO ATUL...OMG EVEN THAT SOUNDS DISGUISTING.....DOESN'T IT!!!!........
IN THE NIGHT:-
" such a beautiful kudi isn't she".......said an old fat ugly woth not white teeth with no teeth and with hardly 5 hairs on her head!!!.......she was atul's mom.......i was sitting on something..CHARPAI kinda thing....with many ladies around me songing songs JO MERE SAR KE OOPAR SE CHALE GAE.....
I KEPT ON BLABBARING WITH MYSELF"KAISE GAANE HAI SAARE MERE TOH SAR KE OOPAR SE CHALE JAATE HAI".........AND suddenly 1 scene flashed in my mind...........

~~~::::ARMAAN-oh god ridima(english accent)tum koi cheez kyun nai samajh sakta....is physics that difficult....
ridzzz-oh god amy....stop all this and trust me....mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa rahe....it's like......physics mere sar ke oopar se hoke nikal jaatee hai......::::~~~
i had few tears when i remembered that scene but a smile appeared on my face remebering that how armaan used to mimic that line in front ov me to tease me whenever i failed at physic........ON THAT ALL........my mom was sitting beside me......i have seen her lost...she was deeply lost in some thoughts from the last few days......WHY...???trust me even i wanted to know the reason so damn deperately...!!!
I CAME INSIDE MY ROOM......I WAS TAKING OFF My accesorries when suddenly my mom came inside my room and locked the door...OMG I WAS SCARED MAN!!!!!
she came in and sat beside me...caressed my cheeks and looked at me with teary eyes........she took out some letter.......which seemed quite normal but when she opened its cover it felt as if SOMETHING'S COMING UP.......she placed that letter against my face.....IT completely shocked me....
IT SANK MY HEART AND PIERCED IT...I FELT MY LOVABLE RED HEART TURNING BLACK.....MY EYES COULD NOT BELEIVE THIS....IT WAS AS IF SOMEONE HAD SNATCHED NOW MY ACTUAL LIFE FROM ME...IT FELT TERRIBLE...HORRIBLE....AND LITERALLY AT THAT TIME I WAS THINKING..........
DID I JUST LOST MY HEART.....!?!?!......
I FOUND THAT.................................

samica

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