Sunday, 23 July 2017

EPILOGUE: Beetein_Lamhe



20 YEARS LATER...

"My dear armu..
Bachcha, I don't know joh main likh rahi hoon wohh aap samjhoge bhi ya nahi.. samjhoge bhi toh believe karoge ya nahi.. lekin pata nahi kyun par mera dil keh raha hain ki chahey jitni bhi impossible sound kyun na karey, mera armu apni naani ki baat zaroor believe karega, karega na baby??

Baby aap humesha mujhsey poochtey the na ki apkey naanu kaisey the? Kyun mainey apkey naam apkey naanu pe rakkha hain?? toh baby agar mein yeh kahoon ki jab pehli baar apney ankhein khola nd mujhey dekha toh bas ek hi insaan ka khayal aya tha mujhey.. uss insaan ka joh uss waqt iss duniya mein na hoke bhi iss duniya mein tha sirf apkey aur arrii ke liye.. haan bachcha.. apkey naanu humesha merey sath the.. in fact mein toh mar hi jati uss din agar apkey naanu ne mujhey wapas na laya hota toh.. I knw baby aaj ke din mein yeh batein believe karna bahot mushkil hain ya fir yeh kahoon ki bilkul impossible hain.. par fir bhi I want u to believe me.. trust me beta yeh mera imagination nahi hain.. haqeeqat hain.. ussdin jab apkey naanu ka accident hua toh mera severe nervous breakdown hua tha par ussey bhi badi baat yeh thi ki apkey mom mujhey hospital le jatey waqt stairs se slip ho gayee the.. arrii ki halat bahot nazook thi, armu.. upar se apkey jaan ka bhi sawal tha aur samrat se contact bhi nhi ho pa raha tha.. sivaye merey koi nhi tha yaha arrii ke pass aur meri aisi halat thi ke mein hokey bhi nahi thi yahan pe.. par armaan... I mean apkey naanu ne, ya fir yun kahoon ki unkey rooh(soul) ne mujhey samjhaya aur mujhey wapas bheja.. par mainey toh kabhi jeena sikha hi nhi tha unkey bina.. choti umar mein shadi karkey aayi thi unkey pas tabsey har ek pal har ek saans har ek soch bas unhi se suru hoti hai aur unhi pe khatam.. main aana chahti thi wapas arrii ke liye, apkey liye par chah kar bhi aa nhi sakti thi unkey bina.. par unhoney nature ki niyam (rules) ko hi badal diya aap dono ke liye.. bahot pyar kartey hain wohh aap dono se.. haan kabhi choo (touch) nhi paye aapko ya fir apsey baat nhi kar paye par trust me wohh bahot proud hain appko lekar.. aur kyun na ho bhala, mera beta toh sabsey best hain, hain na bachcha??
Pata hain betu.. mujhey humesha dar lagta tha ki ekdin jab main nhi rahungi toh arrii ko kaun sambhalega.. bahot close thi wohh apney dada se nd ussdin ke baad jeena hi bhool gayee thi meri bachchi but thnx to u, our angel, u brought back ur real mother.. aaj jab ussey pehley jaisa dil se mushkuratey huye dekha toh.. toh.. I cnt explain how I felt.. thnk u baby.. thnk u for coming into our lives.. thnk u for everything.. u r d best grand son one can ever have.. nd ur naani loves u a lot.. u hve no idea wat u mean to me..u are my reason dat i'm still bearing this pain of staying close yet away from ur naanu.. trust me although it sounds overwhelming but it's heart wrenching too.. unhey dekh pana.. choo pana par fir bhi pehley jaisa kuch nhi hona.. unki aankho mein aap dono ko choo ne ki khwaish par uss khwaish ka kabhi poora na hona.. trust me bachcha.. bahot painful hain.. but i'm hppy dat finally it's over.. finally no more pain for us.. finally i cn tke care of ur naanu properly.. finally his sufferings will end..
Baby, I know mujhey aisey nhi jana chahiye tha.. at least not on ur birthday.. but promise me betu, u won't stop celebrating ur birthday for this.. becoz u gve ur naani the best gift on ur birthday.. now ds day is double precious to me..
Bachcha.. I've waited for this day so long.. main bhi aur apkey naanu ne bhi.. jaisey aaj arri ko uska ghar mil gaya samrat mein finally, mujhey bhi toh mukti milni chahiye,na.. mera ghar bhi toh kabsey mera wait kar raha hain.. aab aap badey ho gaye ho, samrat bhi wapas aa gaya hain toh apki naani ko bhi unkey hissey ki zindegi milni chahiye,na.. aur meri zindegi toh humesha se apkey naanu mein hi hain.. baby.. count it my last wish or a return gift or whatever but u've to celebrate ur birthday not for u only but for ur naani too.. becoz u made ur naani happiest today.. thank uu armu.. thank u soo much...
Abhi aur zyada nhi likhungi.. warna emotional ho jayungi aur mainey apkey naanu se promise kiya hain ke no more tears for today.. nd same rule goes for u too bachcha.. dont cry.. juz remember ur smile means world to me..
waisey ek secret batayun.. yahan yeh joh main itni der se apsey batein kar rahi hoon na apkey naanu pakka mujhey ghoor(stare) rahey hongey.. i'm pretty sure.. mana main unki taraf dekh nahi rahi but i know him too well.. bas mauka chahiye unhey stare karne ke liye.. u see betu.. aapkey dad ke tarah apkey naanu bhi apney wifey ke liye pagal hain.. well.. hona bhi chahiye after all ur naani is d best, nahi??
Finally it's time swthrt.. it's time for d final good-bye.. don't know wat u r thinking after reading d letter but I hope u'll believe my wrds nd understand my feelings like alwaz.. take care baby nd take care of ur mom nd dad.. specially arrii.. firsey jeena mat chodne dena usko.. I know u cn handle her far better dan myself.. nd dats d biggest relief.. now I cn go in peace.. love u bachcha.. love u a lot.. nd luv u too arrii nd samrat, I know tum dono bhi yeh letter padh rahey ho.. plz humesha khush rehna aur kabhi bhi iss din pe udas mat hona.. it's ur mumma's last wish..
God bless u all..
with lots n lots of love,
Ur naani.."

And the letter ended.. armu closed his eyes tight nd sighed before whispering as alwaz.. "I belive u naani.. I alwaz believed u.. chahey usdin naanu atey ya nhi atey par apki blve me' hi enough tha merey belief ke liye..."


~ FLASHBACK~

The letter ended nd got slipped from arima's hands.. she fell on the ground wth a loud thud.. samrat who himself was crying, knelt down quickly embracing her tight but arima didn't reciprocate.. her eyes fixed on riddhima's serene, calm nd satisfying face.. head whining mking her dizy every now n then.. heart burning wth extreme pain nd regret.. pain of losing her 2nd wall nd regret of not getting a single chnce to meet the person she loves most.. papa' unable to control anymore she whispered the word slowly.. papa..' she again whispered but this time pain nd hurt numbed her nerves so much dat unable to control anymore she collapsed in samrat's arms...

papa..' arima whispered as soon as she opened her eyes.. there he is.. the idol of her life.. her best man, her pride, her inspiration, her strength, her father, armaan.. she blinked twice to confirm if she is seeing him in reality or it's her mere hallucination.. papa...' she whispered in between her tear n smile when she felt her father caressing her forehead gently.. sshh princess.. it's okk.. don't cry plz..' he wiped the flowing stream off her eyes tenderly nd then kissed her forehead affectionately after ages.. oh papa..' she cried nd hugged him tight pouring her heart out through her nvr ending tears.. y didn't u meet me papa? Kyun bas mumma ke pas reh gayey aap? Apki princess ki dard kyun nhi dikha aapko papa? kyun papa.. kyun..' her tone was accusatory but her grip was iron tight.. no matter wat hppens she won't allow him to leave her again! No.. he can't go.. neither he nor her mumma.. she'll kp them both wth her.. if her dada cn stay wth her mumma for years why cnt they stay wth her for rest of her life.. ofcourse they cn nd they will..
"princess.. bachcha rotey nhi.. u knw na ur dada cnt see his angel in tears.." he kpt on caressing her hair while talking to her like he did wen she was 5 or 6 years old.. "toh aap rulatey kyun ho?" she complained again still not breaking the contact.. "bachchaa.. princess.. look at me.." armaan tried to break the contact but she whined.. naah.. main apko chodungi toh aap firsey chaley jaogey mujhey chod kar..' nd this time armaan's eyes got moistened itself.. bachcha.. plz na.. u r making it difficult for me..' he pleaded but no use.. plz angel.. ur mumma is alone now.. I've to go.. main chala hi jata but ekbar tumsey milna chahta tha..' nd this tym it wrked.. arima moved back nd looked at him painfully.. bachcha I knw mainey tumsey nhi milkey tumhey takleef di par angel.. mujhey sirf ek insaan se hi contact rakhne ki permission mila tha.. aur aap aur armu dono ke liye riddhima ka wapas ana zaroori tha joh ki aap bhi jantey ho aur main bhi ki apkey mumma ko zinda rakhna possible nhi tha agr main wapas nai ata toh.. aur isiliye chahey kitni baar mainey aapko aur armu ko kareeb se kyun na dekha ho kabhi choo nhi paya nahi baat kar paya.. par aaj.. aaj janey se pehley I got the permission nd main ekbar meri beti se milna chahta tha.. uss beti se jisney apkey dada ke liye jeena hi chod diya tha par uskey dada ne kuch nhi kiya uski hansi ko wapas lane ke liye.." armaan paused chocking himself nd thn cupping her face continued.. "I'm sorry beta.. I'm sorry for all this pain.. par sach mein apkey dada ke hath mein kuch nhi tha.. apkey dada apkey liye superhero ho saktey hain par asal mein toh I'm a normal human being only,na.. mein chah kar bhi kuch nhi kar paya.." but this tym before armaan cn apologize more or can blame him more, arima hugged him tight nd protested.. no papa.. u did every thing to kp me alive.. to kp armu alive.. u're d best dad one can hve nd I'm fortunate dat I'm ur daughter.. i love u papa.. I love u so much.." armaan hugged her bck but continued finally.. "bachcha...I've to go but before leaving I need a promise.. aap apney papa ki ek baat manoge,na?" arima looked at him nd nodded in yes.. "toh promise me dat u won't stop living.. chahey kitni bhi mushkil kyun na aye, u'll alwaz stay hppy from ur heart.. mujhey meri choti si angel wapas chahiye, yeh badi wali rondu arima nahi.." arima laughed in between her tears.. "dat's like my princess.. alwaz stay hppy swthrt.. juz remember only ur smile cn kp us hppy.. so kp smiling.." arima nodded swallowing the lump formed in her throat nd smiled as much she can force on herself.. armaan sighed.. thn kissing her head, he got up from her bed... "papa??" and at once she asked in panic.. "it's time princess.. I've to go.. ur mumma is alone there.. i know u want us to stay but we can't.. it's better to bid us good-bye wth a smile.. it'll lessen our pain too.." arima's eyes welled up again but she nodded anyhow.. armaan smiled nd then turned behind to meet two most imp mans of her daughter's life.. "samrat.. plz take care of my angel.." samrat nodded nd touched his feet quickly.. "aur aap merey mumma ka dhyaan rakhna, papa.." nd wth this both the males smiled their known understanding smile.. nd then armaan's vision met wth his replication, his grand-son, their junior.. "hey.." he smiled at the crying junior.. who although was standing straight but his eyes were completely watery.. "hi.. nanu.." nd nxt moment he threw himself upon armaan nd hugged him tight.. "I'll miss naani so much naanu.. plz aap unka khayal rakhna.." nd this time armu cried.. he cried loudly causing every pair of eyes present in d room wet wth tears.. "I'll baby.. I'll.." armaan promised nd then disentangling junior he said blessing his head.. "t.c. armu.. nd stay hppy.. u knw na ur happiness is ur naani's strength..." armu nodded still crying.. "say her I love her very much wen u meet.. nd nd.." armu choked.. armaan hugged him tight nd whispered.. "it's ok dear.. it's good for all of us.. u juz stay hppy nd t.c of ur parents, ur naani has deep faith on her big boy.." armu moved bck hearing the last phrase nd laughed finally then wiping his eyes he said.. "yup..i'm 12 today.." armaan chuckled nd thn continued.. "oh yes.. how cn I forget that.. so, happy birthday big boy.. nd now I've to go but u do stay hppy alwaz.." he ruffled armu's hair nd then giving arima a final teary smile, he vanished leaving three souls nd one satisfied soulless body behind...


~PRESENT~

"happy birthday dada.." a lill angel of age 5 opened the door ajar nd jumped on the bed throwing herself completely upon her papa... armaan (junior) quickly shifted the letter under his pillow like he does on his each birthday nd hugged his angel tightly.. thank u princess..' he said smiling sweetly wrapping her protectedly in his arms..
"aa gayyee shaitan.." a young beautiful lady came out of the washroom after having an early shower today, she was still busy in drying her hair when her eyes met with her husband who muttered a soundless 'I love u' making her cheeks pink like freshly blossomed rose-petals...nd this did exactly wat it does alwaz.. her husband's dimple deepened widening his smile as well as making his eyes twinkle in satisfaction..
While both her parents were busy in communicating through eyes enjoying every bit of their morning romance, the lill angel whined nd complained cutely.. "papa kaho na mumma se ki pari shaitan nahi balki good gal hain.." armaan laughed hearing his baby doll nd kissing her cheek soundly, he said.. "yes jaan.. meri beti is world ki best daughter hain.. tum shaitan mat kaha karo meri angel ko.." pari smiled widely exposing her toothless gum merrily to her dada.. shilpasmiled seeing the duo.. how much she loves the bond they share.. nodding her head sideways still smiling in satisfaction she said.. "baby.. main mumma ke sath mandir ja rahi hoon.. tumharey naam ki pooja deney.. fir atey waqt cake nd all le ayungi.. filhal u get fresh nd mke ur shaitan oppss angel ready too.. aur haan no more masti.. juz get fresh quick kyunki breakfast dining table pe rakh diya hain.. jaldi nhi kiya toh thanda ho jayega nd then firsey u've to operate microwave nd plz at least aaj mujhsey koi syapa nhi chahiye toh juz hurry up u two.. nd haan mujhey sarey food finished chahiye.. thik hain?? aabhi ghoor kya rahey ho tum dono.. get up guys.." she said all in a go nd then took a deep breathe to compose herself.. "aye aye captain.." armaan said dramatically while tickled his angel in her tummy making pari squeal in joy.. shilpa smacked her husband's head playfully then ruffling pari's hair lovingly she moved towards the dressing table to get ready..



"papaa.. meko doodoo nhi peena.." pari whined as usual making a yucky face..
"arrey kyun nai peena baby.. u wanna be intelligent like ur dada,na.. aur apkey papa toh alwaz doodh petey the jab wohh chotey the.." he said smiling sweetly at her..
"aww papa.. aap bhi chotey the??" pari asked in awe still not believing the fact that her superman could be like her years ago too..
Armaan laughed nd then taking her in his arms he wandered along the room wth milk glass in one hand nd pari in other.. "of course sweetheart.."
"wow.. toh fir mujhey bhi batao na papa.. kaisey the aap bachpan mein?? Aur kya daadi daanti thi apko jaisey mumma meko daant ti hain.."  pari pouted nd armaan quickly kissed her pouted lips making her giggle cutely..
"ok.. toh ek kaam karte hain.. u finish ur milk first.. then main apko merey bachpan ki kahani sonata hoon.. wat say??" pari beamed in happiness at once nd taking d glass she emptied it completely in one go.. "finnishhh..." she wiped off her milk moustache nd again smiled her cute toothless gummed smile..
"hmm.. jab main chota tha tab..." nd wth this another journey of recalling nd reliving past started... the past which can bring happy smile at any moment.. the past which was d witness of his most precious tym dat he shared wth his beloved naani.. the past where nature broke her rules to give them a long happy life.. the past which contains the unforgettable lovestory of Armaan & Riddhima!

"dard mein bhi yeh lab mushkura jatey hain..
Beetein lamhey humey jab bhi yaad atey hain.."






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