Monday, 28 August 2017

part 3 : Trace Your Dreams


i donno how long i could have stared into those soulful eyes if muskaan's words hadnt brought my senses back..."sorry guys, i m being a spoilsport today" ..."ha?!! ya..err..i mean, no muskaan, i should be the one saying that..i asked u guys to tell wat happpened and brought all those things back...i m sorry"..."hey riddhima, we never forgot them for u to remind...its alright" rahul comforted...they took a hasty decision and are regretting now...



"we decided on an impulse riddhima..now, if we look back, we feel bad for hurting them...this could have been done in a much better way...but, damage is already done" rahul sighed... "ridz, plz tell me na, r they ok? did didi tell u anything?" muskaan asked..i think she forgot that i am not that close to her family...well, she is quite disturbed now...

i looked at her silently..."i promise i wont cry" she smiled..."i was there for 2mins or so muski...as far as i could see, ur dad was angry n ur mom was sad...i think rahul is right, u should go n meet them...its just my opinion ok"..."and didi?"..."i met her on the way yaar, she said she came to meet u, but the house was locked"..."really??!!" muskaan was excited..."she was also angry that day, i thought she wouldnt come to meet me, but she came!!" she said looking at all of us with wide eyes... now i realise that i am being a messenger today...hmm, unexpected benefits of M3..."thanks ridz, i wouldnt have known if u dint tell me...i missed her so much,will call her today...i wish i was at home when she came, she could have left a message with the neighbours na"..."or atleast peeped through the window n shouted ur name" armaan said looking at muskaan...i stopped chewing..."window?!!" rahul asked obviously confused.."arre yaar, our bell is not working na, people wouldnt know even if we are in" he said shooting a side glance at me... arghhhh!! i feel like pulling his hair out, how many times will he ridicule me for that..."anyone can get confused right?" he said n turned towards me with an innocent face...ya ya only i know how innocent u are... he raised his eyebrows questioningly....i want to beat him, kick him, scratch him, bite him and and....then he suddenly gave a sarcastic villianous smile...THATS IT!!...i pinched his leg under the table..."aahhhh!!" he cried out..."kya hua?" muskaan was worried.."nothing,nothing..i bit my tongue instead of food" he covered up...but looked at me with so much warmth in his eyes...my anger evaporated into thin air...i smiled...i am amazed at the mix of these contrasting feelings this man is stirring in me so fast...

i looked away...and asked rahul "so, will you be staying in India or going back to US?"..."have to go back, just waiting for our marriage registration and visa formalities for muskaan..should be done in another 2-3 weeks"...oh thats y they r staying with armaan, finally got my answer.."oh ok, so u got married in a temple"..."yeah, even my parents were angry for few days, but now they r fine"..."her parents will also be fine, u first make an attempt to pacify them" armaan said..."u know na my dad is very strict i am afraid he will lash out" muskaan said with a worried face..."its their right muskaan... when u know u r at fault, get ready to face them" armaan said..."anyway u r leaving soon na, i dont think they will be angry after knowing that" i said..."hmmm" rahul n muskaan said thinking... the rest of the lunch went in general talks...muskaan was pleasantly surprised to hear abt anji n atul...i came to know few things about these three...armaan and rahul are very close friends and were muskaan's seniors...armaan played a big role in getting rahul n muskaan together...muskaan considers him her best friend...rahul's family is in punjab and armaan's in Delhi...after graduation, rahul went to US for masters and armaan did MBA here in IIM...that explains becoming a manager at such a young age... hmm, impressive!!

We finished our lunch...i was busy catching glimpses of armaan while driving back to his house...and also thinking about the quickly growing comfort between us... his presence has introduced me to some feelings i never experienced before...like something bustling in my heart, some consciousness, some awareness of being a girl!! i've had a few crushes in school and college but this one is still different!! very different!!

we went back to his house...my phone buzzed interrupting my thoughts...home calling...mom said "ridhi, when r u coming?"...."why?" i asked with a tint of irritation, i dont want to go home, i want to be with them, especially him..."i knew u'll forget it, my appointment with doctor" mom said...oh ya, i had to take her to hospital for check-up..."when is it?"..."4.30".."ok, will reach in 1/2 hr"...pchch, have to leave now..."i need to go yaar".."stay till evening na" muskaan said...ahh!! i wish i could stay..."no yaar, have to take mom to hospital"..."why?!!" armaan asked immediately..i m surprised at the concern in his voice..."just routine check-up, nothing serious" i smiled... i am liking this guy...

i took muskaan's number, gave her mine promising that i will meet her again before they leave India...i bid bye to them taking a long look at armaan, when will i see him again?... going by the way he is reverting my look, i feel he is also thinking the same...shall i ask for his number? what will he think if do so? i mean, he is just my friend's friend...and i met him just today...wont that be too desperate to ask for his number without a reason?...i racked my brain for a plausible reason..wat can i say? come on, think think...ahh!! no idea is popping...wats wrong with my brain today?...i wish i was a very social person, i never tried to make friends, boys or girls.. they just became...and this is no professional meeting...i m not used to this situation...wats worse, if he asks me y do i want his number? oh no!! i'll end up making a fool out of myself...ok, i cant stand like this here after saying bye...looks really silly...move move...anyway i have muskaan's number, i can call her n ask later when i come across some reason worth saying...i gave a smile and left...

i entered lift and pressed 1...wat a strange day!! started with a dream and a habit of mine... tracking muskaan and then meeting armaan...armaan!! his eyes, his gaze, his smile, his riddles, his laughter, his taunt abt the window...haha, i pinched him...i still donno wat gave me that sudden confidence to do so, but then he dint say anything, just smiled at me...i wonder wat he thinks abt me... if he wants to meet me again, y dint he ask for my number?...M3 left me with very strange feelings, i sighed deeply...
i reached the parking lot and just before i started my bike, i heard a shout "riddhima!!"..its armaan coming out of the lift...his voice makes my name sound beautiful...i smiled inwards...he probably wants to take my contact details...i knew it!!

"dont u think u r forgetting something?" he said...now, thats definitely not wat i expected to hear ...but, wat did i forget in his house..i checked my belongings..nope, i havent left anything behind....i looked at him confusedly...."u forgot to take my number, you will need it tomorrow morning"...huh?!! tomorrow morning?!!.."why?!!" i asked..."bcoz you are going to dream about me tonight!!" he said with a smug smile...how overconfident!! he could be right about the dream thing going by the impact he has on me till now but y should i accept it...and if he wants to meet me again cant he give his number directly...riddles again!! ughh!!.. "i am just trying to help you" he said shrugging...oh really?!! trying to make his interest sound as mine... implementing his MBA techniques on me, make the customer think that 'he' needs us rather than we need him...nonsense!! "i dont need ur help!!" i said angrily...he smiled...i hate it when someone smiles at my angry face..i know i dont look fierce but he doesnt have to make it explicit by taking it so lightly..."i know u r going to call up muskaan and ask"..."no, i wont ask her" i said immediately...this is one more crazy habit of mine, if someone predicts my actions, i wont do them even if i had wanted to do...if someone says i will say yes, i have to say no...if they say i will say no, i just have to say yes...i m weird, i know...i already told u in the beginning that very few things i do r not weird... "hmm, then you'll probably come here directly"...arghh!! before he eliminates the chances leftover for our second meeting, i need to go...i said "bye"...he gave a longing look and smiled "bye"..i couldnt resist that gorgeous smile and smiled back...

the rest of the day went normally with meeting mom's doctor, dinner, talking to anji n atul...i told anji abt my sudden meeting with muskaan...we spoke abt our school days for a while...she asked about nikita...i said i'll ask muskaan when i meet next time...obviously, i cant call up muskaan just to ask about nikita...if it was about armaan, thats a different thing....armaan, a smile forms on my lips whenever i remember him...i wonder if his prediction about my dream will come true...experts say that we dream about things that are in our subconscious mind...i donno about subconsious but my conscious mind is definitely filled with him right now!!

i am going on my bike...driving on some unknown road...the road is actually quite strange, there are lots of turns and i can see only the road...i mean, if i turn to the sides its blank...like i am in a video game, road comes up only as i keep driving...i m not wearing my helmet...cool breeze is flowing through my hair...i just kept driving for a long time until i suddenly reached a crossroad..."take left" a voice came from the back...i turned to see armaan sitting in the back seat and smiling ...i thought i was driving alone..."you?!!"..."yeah me, now take left... i know u want to do the same"..."no i wont" i said and turned my bike towards right..."wat r doing here on my bike?"...."just following you"..."why?"..."u know the reason"..."i know?!!"...."yup"...a wall sprang up suddenly on the way..i stopped the bike with a screecihng sound...we reached a dead end ..."i told you to take left" he whispered huskily in my right ear..

I shuddered and opened my eyes...its still night...i probed for my mobile and looked at the time, 3am...my right hand felt prickly...i touched it in the dark and felt the goosebumps...he spoke in my right ear, thats why...O My God!! if a dream can have this effect on me, wat will i do if it happens really...i drank some water calming myself and closed my eyes...rolled on the bed for a long time trying to go back to sleep and finally dozed off..

I got up in the morning...i remember the dream clearly...i saw this coming but thats not the main point...the biggest question is my habit, should i meet him?!!


Harika

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