Thursday, 7 December 2017

PART 51:Ehsaas


As the effects of the anesthesia wore off, Riddhima woke up and looked around. She was startled and frightened to see herself entangled amongst tubes and catheters.

Her movements set the monitor alarms off.


"Oh…Oh…relax relax Ms Riddhima…..aapko hosh aa gaya……congratulations aap maa ban chuki hain!" Sister Molly turned the pause button on the monitor.



"Yeh sab kab hua? Abhi tho mujhey 2 mahine baaki hain." Riddhima asked worriedly.

"Ms Riddhima, aane waala Lord ki marzi se aata hai….uspar hamara koi control nahin hai!"


Riddhima remembered, "mujhey yaad aaya, main tho chai banaa rahi thi….aur phir Muskaan ko phone kiya tha……uske baad mujhey kuch yaad nahin…..kaun laaya mujhey yahan?"



"Bas yeh samajh lo ki ek farishta laaya tha tumhey…..tumhari aur tumharey nanhe munne se bete ko bachaane!" Muskaan said as she walked in.



"Muskaan? Thanks…..lekin yeh farishta kaun hai?" Riddhima turned her head and smiled at Muskaan.



"Someone is out there looking after you……ab zara baatein bandh karo…let me check you out!" Muskaan purposely shut Riddhima up.



"Kaisa hai mera beta? Kahan hai wo?" Riddhima asked with tears in her eyes.



"Abhi wo 2 mahine premature hai, iss liye NICU mein hai…..jaise hi tumhara BP kum ho jaayega, you can go and visit him there as he won't be able to come here.

"wo theek tho hai na?"


"He is perfect…..bahut cute hai, bikul tum par gaya hai, bas aankhein Armaa…..," Muskaan paused as she was about to say Armaan's name.



"Muskaan….chup kyon ho gayi? Aakhir sachchai se kab tak bhaagte rahenge…..wo hai tho Armaan ka hi khoon,"Riddhima said emotionally. Riddhima turned her head and saw the dozen roses at her bedside, "sister…yeh phool kahan se aaye?"



Sister Molly looked at Muskaan and then remembered Armaan's orders, "Ms Riddhima…..aaj yahan sab patients ko roses miley hain….hospital ki taraf se," she lowered her eyes as she lied to Riddhima.



Riddhima tried to reach the flower vase, "lagta hai hospital waalon ko meri pasand achchi tarah pataa hai."

Sister Molly's eyes became a little moist as she sensed the pain in this young couple's relationship.



Padma, Atul and Tamanna all came to visit Riddhima and congratulated her. Padma was one proud 'nani.' No one mentioned that Armaan had brought her to the hospital, or he was there the whole time she was delivering.



Riddhima felt much better by the evening, and was allowed to go and see her son. Tamanna wheeled her to the NICU in a wheel-chair.



Riddhima was shocked to see her little baby in an incubator. He had a tube in his nose and a little catheter in his tiny hand. She started sobbing silently. This was not the way she had envisioned her baby would look. The nurse helped her hold the baby in her arms. As soon as she held him, the initial shock and fear vanished away. Her maternal instincts poured out; she held him close to her, "Arnav….tum mere pyaar ki nishaani ho……tumhari mama tumhey kabhie chhod kar nahin jaayengi……I will always be there for you beta," she kissed his forehead and little hands. She realized, how vulnerable and fragile he was- she would protect him from the rest of the world; he was her goal in life now; she had left her past behind-there was no more room for tears or sad memories from Armaan's betrayal.



The nurse took him back from Riddhima's arms and placed him in the incubator, "Abhi tho baby ko tube feed hi de rahe hain, par 1-2 din mein aap feed kar sakti hain….jab tak yeh incubator mein hai, wo yahin rahega, tho aapko har 3 ghante mein aana padhega."



"Sister, main tho har waqt yahin rehna chaahti hoon."


"Aapko apni health ka bhi dhyaan rakhna hai madam…aapke husband bhi aa sakte hain." The nurse said.


"Nahin, Arnav ke koi papa nahin hai!" Riddhima said in a shaky voice.

"Oh…I am sorry Ms Riddhima." The nurse apologized.


Tamanna placed her hand on Riddhima's shoulder, "ab chalein di?"


Riddhima nodded. As she turned her face to leave, she saw the familiar statue of the Ganapati inside the incubator, "sister…yeh kahan se aaya?"


"Oh…yeh? Pataa nahin…main jab duty par aayi, tho mujhey yahin dikha tha yeh murti….aapke bete ki raksha karenge bhagwan….aap fikr mat keejiye." The nurse said.



As Tamanna wheeled Riddhima back to her room, "Di…Arnav naam kab socha aapne?"



Riddhima was lost in her thoughts, as she tried to put the pieces together….roses…..ganapati ki murti……farishta…….Armaan tum kitni bhi koshish kar lo, ab bahut der ho chuki hai….main tumhari baaton mein nahin aaoongi…..kyunki mera dil ab toot chuka hai….ab kabhie jud nahin sakta…...just leave us alone!



"Oh Arnav? Bas usey dekhkar aisa hi laga ki wo hi ab mere aur Armaan ke pyaar ki nishaani hai……wo pyaar jo kabhie tha aur bahut tha Tamanna….lekin ab sirf ek nishaani hai…….hakeeqat nahin!"


"Di….aap abhi bhi Armaan jiju ko nahin bhuli na? Tabhie tho naam bhi Arnav hi rakha hai," Tamanna commented.


"Mujhey Arnav naam achcha lagta hai Tamanna…aur koi baat nahin hai."



"Di…..aap ek baar jiju se mil lo….ho sakta hai aapke beech ki galat fehmi door ho jaaye," Tamanna hesitated.



"TAMANNA! Please aaj ke baad kabhie aisa mat kehna! Hamare beech ab koi galat fehmi nahin hai…… meri galat fehmi tho usi din door ho gayi thi jab Armaan ne mere pyaar par shaq kiya tha….galat fehmi pehle thi ki Armaan mujhsey sachcha pyaar karta hai….par ab sab kuch saaf saaf dikhta hai Tamanna." Riddhima said tearfully.



"sorry di….mera matlab aapko rulaana nahin tha….mujhey bas aisa lagta hai ki jiju ko apni galti ka ehsaas ho gaya hai." Tamanna defended Armaan.



"Tamanna…..main Armaan ko kabhie maaf nahin kar sakti! Please don't ever talk to me about him again! I just want to focus my energies on Arnav now…..leave the past alone!"



Later, Keerti and Shubhankar also flew in from Bangalore to see their nephew. Keerti was very happy for Riddhima, 'ab meri Sur ke liye ek chota bhai aa gaya hai khelne ke liye."

"Sur bhi tho ek saal ki ho gayi na? Kahan hai? Maine tho usey abhi tak dekha hi nahin." Riddhima smiled as she received a sisterly hug from Keerti.



Shubhankar walked in with his little daughter, "yeh rahi….wo bhi apni maami ko milna chaahti hai."



Riddhima held Sur in her arms, "bilkul Keerti di jaisi hai…..iski aankhein tho bilkul Arnav jaisi hai….both have blue eyes di," she exclaimed without realizing what she had just said.



"Kyon nahin hogi…..aakhir Armaan ki bhaanji jo hai!" Keerti laughed, but became quiet when she saw Riddhima's color fade from her face.



Keerti and Shubhankar exchanged glances and kept quiet.



"Hum NICU jaakar Arnav se miltey hain, tum Sur ko thodi der yahin rakho," Keerti got up and left with Shubhankar.



As they were about to take the elevator to the NICU, Keerti spotted Armaan waiting in the hallway.



Armaan ran towards Keerti and gave her a hug, "it's so nice to see you both!" He had tears in his eyes; his lonely heart had at least someone he could call his own.



"Mubarak ho bhai!" Keerti pulled away and cupped Armaan's face, "ab usey bhi manaa le…..I can't see you both suffer like this…..aakhir ek bachcha paalna itna aasan nahin hai…..Riddhima needs her companion and her love back."



Armaan nodded, "I will try my best di! I have decided to move back to Ramgarh. I have talked to several architects and a contractor…..main ek hospital banwaaoonga wahan…..a modern hospital with all facilities…..mere kuch doctor dost bhi invest karenge usmey, and will come and work there too….I am really excited di."



Shubhankar congratulated Armaan, "Armaan….that is great…I would like to help in anyway I can….I will talk to my company also, they like to contribute to charitable causes every year…you know for tax reasons…..this would be a great cause….I am proud of you!" he hugged Armaan too, "we are all with you Armaan….don't hesitate to ask for any help….Riddhima achchi ladki hai aur tumse bahut pyaar karti hai….trust me, she will be back with you soon!"




Armaan nodded and wiped his tears, "thanks jiju….main bhi issi umeed par jee raha hoon. By the way, where is Sur? Uski itni photos dekhi hain, but now I am dying to hold her."



"Wo Riddhima ke saath hai….hum abhi aate hain….don't go anywhere." Keerti followed Shubhankar to the elevator.




Armaan peeked into Riddhima's room. He was happy to see her awake and looking happy. She was playing with Sur. Her room was full of flowers, cards and balloons. She had received good wishes from a lot of her fans from all over the country. Armaan was pleased to see that his red roses still stood out amongst all the other gifts and were right next to Riddhima. He thought, "kaash main aaj ek gulaab hi hota…..kum se kum tumhare itne kareeb tho hota!"

Song to express Armaan's feelings:


"Tu jahan main wahan" from "salaam namaste"

tu jahaan main wahaan
sang sang yu chalu tere
jaise tera aasmaan

jo dhup nikli chaya ban jaaunga
jo ho tu akeli saaya ban jaaunga
jo uljhan mein ho mann main behlaaunga
tum aa gaye ho toh jeena aaya hain
khushiya ka tumne yeh jaal bichaya hain
khoya hain khudko yah sab kutch paaya hain
tu jahaan main wahaan
sang sang yu chalu tere
jaise tera aasmaan

ho gam ke badal mujhpe tham jaane de
bechainiyo ko mujhse takrane de
dukhti ho koi baat mujhpe aane de
dil sochta tha ke koi apna ho
koi raaz na ho jo uss se rakhna ho
aankhein na kholu main shayad sapna ho
tu jahaan main wahaan
sang sang yu chalu tere
jaise tera aasmaan

…to be contd….

 Sangeeta

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