Wednesday, 14 March 2018

Part 10: YOU INSIDE ME (AR)

       

RIDHIMA was working at the shopping mall…she was stationed at the man's department clothing…while busying arranging her clothes stock, she heard a footsteps approaching her…turning around, she saw Shan standing behind her…



"Oh, hello Shan…" she said to him happily…Shan smiled at her…





"Long time no see…I thought we haven't met for almost two weeks now," Shan said when Ridhima had turned to face him… Ridhima knew what was coming…Shan will asked her about her trip to her hometown…she had forgotten to call him while she was there…even when she had promised him…what the hell was she think about huh???



"Sorry…we both are kind of busy right now huh??? I had just been back from my hometown, Ridhima told him, careful with her words, in case it upset Shan…Shan looked at her as thought he has just seen her for the first time in his lifetime…



"About that, I remembered you promised to call me when you had arrived…why didn't you call???" Shan asked, controlling his temper…she had been acting really weird lately…not answering his phone, forgetting her promises and even not so keen on the idea of meeting him…why??? Why, Ridhima???



"Oh, sorry…I left my phone in my friend car…and I couldn't get it back while we were inside my house…you knew how my parents treated me while I'm home," Ridhima gave him a…well, not so relevant answer…again, Shan just stared at her… Ridhima turned her back at him, continued to arrange her stock of clothing…the truth was, her phone had always been with her but she had been busying crying on that day, thinking nonstop on her little fight with Armaan after she received call from Shan…she completely forget Shan at that time… Ridhima felt so guilty it was hard to look straight at Shan now…



"Okay…I forgive you…can we have a date tonight???" Shan asked her and he moved to help Ridhima with her stock… Ridhima considered it for a moments and she really had no excuses to say no and so she nodded…



"Good, I'll pick you up at your house at 8 pm ok???" Shan told her, looking happier… Ridhima nodded again, smiling…Shan gave her a kiss on her forehead and he headed back to his office… Ridhima sighed…did she really love Shan??? She doubt it now…but Armaan…will she love him??? Or the more right matter is, will he love her like Shan does???



"Ah, I feel much better now…after weeks busying myself with works, at last I'm free to be with you again," said Shan, feeling very happy, walking hand in hand with Ridhima along the road after they had dinner just now… Ridhima gave him a smile…she felt happy to see Shan too…after what she did to him, he deserved to feel happy tonight…however, Shan noticed that Ridhima had became very quiet from the moment they started go out till now…she will only talked when Shan asked her something or started a conversation first…other than that, she remained silent…



"Ridhima, do you have any problems???" Shan asked, no longer able to hide his worries… Ridhima looked at him but not into his eyes…she just stared at him for a while then shook her head slowly…Shan sighed… Ridhima had changed so much now he had barely seems to know her like he thought he knew he did…



"Why won't you talk to me??? I thought I'm your boyfriend," Shan said, looking sulky… Ridhima sighed too…how could she explain her thought to Shan now??? Now, her mind was so full with Jun and her dreams and her confusion about her feeling towards him and Armaan??? No, she just can't tell him all this misery…



"Nothing…I had been having some nightmares lately…it bothers me a bit, that's all," she lied…first, the dreams wasn't a nightmare at all…it was the reason why she met Armaan…and now, her feeling towards Armaan had became more and more confusing from days to days…second, she can't tell Shan she had being avoiding him because of another man…that is really mean for someone who is so gentle like Shan…



"Really??? Does it really that bad??? How can I help you???" asked Shan…he pulled Ridhima to face him and they stopped walking… Ridhima looked at him…why does you have to be so concern about me??? I don't deserve it…she thought painfully…



"No…it wasn't really bad…but since I can't get enough sleep because of it, I kind of disturbed by it," replied Ridhima, quoting words from Armaan…when they had agreed to investigate their dreams…now, Armaan again resurfacing on her thought… Ridhima shook her head…Shun stopped her and he looked into her eyes, forcing Ridhima to do so… Ridhima looked into his eyes reluctantly…



"You had been hiding something…I knew it…nightmares never bother you…you are a brave lady," Shan told her in a serious expression… Ridhima caught her breath…Shan realized she had been lying…of course, Shan knew her better than anyone else…they had been together for almost a year now…



"Nothing…I…well, I don't feel like talking about it now okay???" Ridhima tried to excuse herself, looking straight into Shan's eyes, trying to steady her breath again…Shan let go of her face and nodded a bit…he looked hurt so Ridhima didn't pressed on the matter more, she quickly changed the subject…



"So, where are we going to do after this??? I think tonight is our date, so you probably had something to do in your mind except than treating me to dinner," Ridhima said cheerfully, trying to direct Shan into another conversation…Shan laughed when he heard Ridhima … Ridhima laughed along with him…now, she felt a bit at home…just like the old she and him…



"Well, I do have some plan…I want to go and see…" Shan words had stopped when he saw some groups of people crowding the road on the opposite where they were standing… Ridhima turned to look at where Shan was looking…



"What are they looking at???" asked Ridhima …she turned back to look at Shan…Shan shook his head and he took Ridhima's hand to walk with him heading to the crowded place earlier…when they approached the place, they could hear the girls there yelling…Arashi!!! Arashi!!! Armaan!!! Atu!!! Ohno!!! Aiba!!! Rahul!!!... Ridhima gulped…no way!!!



"Oh, it seems like Arashi were there…lets go and see if we can see them upclose…I really wants to know if they are really good looking," said Shan, grinning like a small kid, feeling excited… Ridhima hesitated…what now??? But before she could stopped Shan, he had pulled him into the crowd and at last they managed to get a clear view of Arashi…automatically, Ridhima went searching for Armaan…there he was…at the last seat behind a long table, sat Armaan…he look handsome as usual… Ridhima's heart beat became more faster at the sight of him there…Shan squeezed her hands and her attention went back to him…



"Ah, not you too…crazy about them," teased Shan when he saw the look on Ridhima's face… Ridhima smiled a bit…then, she turned to look at Armaan again…this time, her heart stopped beating…for Armaan had saw her there holding hands with Shan…he was now staring at Ridhima, somehow losing attention to his fans who kept asking him to sign their papers…all the noises, talks around them died at once… Ridhima felt herself becoming cold under Armaan's sharp stare…



"Hey, Armaan??? Why did you stop giving out your autograph???" asked Ohno, who was sitting next to Armaan…Armaan broke his stare at Ridhima to look at his fans who was still waiting for him…he smiled at her and apologized…then, he started signing again…



"Nothing," he replied to Ohno…Ohno nodded a bit and continued signing too…Armaan glanced back at Ridhima …but she was gone…Armaan tried to look around, looking carefully among the crowded fans…but Ridhima was nowhere to be seen…Armaan groaned…he clamped his fists tightly…so that is her boyfriend…and she was happily dating him…with no idea at all on how Armaan been battling with himself to stop himself from falling into her…stupid girl!!! Armaan thought angrily…no longer able to control his anger, he got up from his chair and ignoring the stare from his fellow bandmates and his fans he walked straight to their waiting van…inside, he hit his fists on the chair and said,



"Ridhima Gupta…who the hell are you to mess up with me huh???"…



Shan sent Ridhima o home…she said goodbye to him when she got out from his car…Shan cheerfully teasing her by asking her to give him a goodbye kiss but she ignored him by telling him to go back and sleep early…tomorrow they still need to go to work…pouting his lips, Shan drove his car away… Ridhima smiled widely when she saw Shan's reaction…so, tomorrow she will have to buy him an ice-cream…to make up back for refusing to kiss him…what a childish boyfriend…



"Happy???" Ridhima heard someone saying to her and she jumped in surprise…turning around she saw Armaan Malik leaning against the wall of her apartment…he was still wearing the same outfit he wore when Ridhima saw him earlier… Ridhima felt herself blushing…not because of Armaan being there but because Armaan had saw her holding hands with Shan…



"Hmm…" Ridhima replied…she decided to ignore Armaan…why did she have to feel sorry for him??? Shan is her boyfriend…whatever Shan and her would like to do had nothing to do with Armaan…she didn't need his approval…but Ridhima before could walk passed him, Armaan had stood in front of her and looking again at her with those seductive eyes he owned… Ridhima lost her mind completely…



"I…I…well…it is quite late so…urgh, what am I talking about??? Never mind then…good night," o Ridhima stammered while saying those words…and she tried to walk passed  Armaan…but…



"Don't go…don't leave me…I can't accept it…you in another man's arms…" Armaan said… Ridhima froze…does it really happened then??? She thought dully…



There, in front of her apartment, just after she had her date with Shan Shah, Armaan Malik, the one who had been messing with her dreams, her heart, her mind and thought, suddenly hugged her tightly, asking her not to leave him…Armaan, who told her not to ever fall in love with him…so what…in the name of heaven was he doing now???



Heaven

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