Friday, 16 March 2018

Part 12: YOU INSIDE ME (AR)


Morning came…Ridhima had not slept at all…she had been thinking all night…and at last, she had came out with the best solution she could think off to solve her problems with Arashi, Armaan and her dreams…along with Shaan probably…she decided that she needed to put a stop sign to all of it…to break off with Shaan for she have a mental-note inside her mind telling her that their relationship is not going to work anymore now that she had been finally realized and 100% sure that she had indeed had fallen for Armaan Malik of Arashi...the last night event proved to her that she love Armaan…she didn't able to drive him out of mind…not even when she had been dating with Shaan, her mind was still full with the thought of Armaan…and when Armaan took her with him, she followed silently because that was what she wants…to be with him…just him…but…

Well, last night too told her that the encounter of her and Armaan was indeed a very wrong thing to be done too…if she didn't met Armaan, probably Armaan wouldn't have to feel the need to leave his works for her…to investigate their stupid dreams…who cares about that dreams??? That dreams were just dreams, illusions…that's it!!! There is no such thing as related to them…no…not at all…so, Ridhima decided not to go looking for an answer anymore on it…if she had to be dreaming about them for all of her lifetime then she will…as for Arashi, they are very caring on Armaan…protective of him and his career…their career…so Ridhima will leave them alone after this…Armaan and his fellow bandmates…even though Ridhima likes them all and Ridhiima knew they treated her as a friend rather than as fans but, she can't control her feelings towards Armaan now…so, it will be a burden to Armaan…so his group will be affected too…

As a conclusion, Ridhima decided to leave everything…she will go back to her hometown…she will stay a long distance from Armaan and Arashi…and she will say goodbye to Shaan…that's it!!!

"Ridhima, where have you been??? Did you stay at Shaan's house???" asked Muski when she had woke up and saw Ridhima sitting on the coach, still fully dress with her last night outfit…Ridhima looked at Muskaan…she decided to come clean with her…after all, Muski is her best friend…

"Muski…I'm going to tell you everything…if after that you want to yell at me…or…or…throw me with a...frying pan or anything…you can…I promise…" Ridhima said seriously…Muski quickly sat down on the coach next to Ridhima…she looked at her with a concern expression and waited for Ridhima to speak…

"Now, I have decided to break up with Shaan…and…I will quit my job and…go back to stay with my parents," Ridhima said in a small voice, clearly letting the words out from her mouth as thought it reminded her of what she had to do now…Muski stared with wide eyes at Ridhima…has she started to lose her marble???

"Em…I'm sorry…even though I really want to hit you with a frying pan right now…for wanting to leave me alone here…but…let's make it clear for me of something…does this…well, completely out of mind decision of yours got anything to do with my handsome boy Armaan Malik???" asked Muski…Ridhima nodded…she stared at Muski…Muski got up from the coach and walked to the kitchen…then, she went back holding a glass of water with her…Ridhima gulped…didn't she planned to hit her with a frying pan just now??? Why the hell was she holding a glass???

"Drink this first…you must be tired…and I bet you throat are too sore now, for trying to arrange the right words to tell me what is on your mind at last…" said Muski, rolling her eyes and shoving the glass into Ridhima's hands…Ridhima looked at her…Muski smiled down at her then she sat next to Ridhima, hugging her she said…

"I know…it is not your fault…people can be foolish sometimes when it comes to be dealing with all this love stuffs…look at me…I know that Rahul Grewal will never be mine still, I put him in the first place in my heart…I'm an idiot eh???"….Muski let out a nervous laugh…Ridhima hugged Muski back…this was why she loved Muski so much…she always understood Ridhima…she never judged her nor did blame her for anything she had done…

"You can cry if you want to…I swear I will not tease you after you had finish flooding up our living room," Muski said, rubbing Ridhima's back…Ridhima's tears came flowing down her tears as soon as Muskaan stopped talking…she cried her heart out…at the thought of Armaan, she felt really hurt inside her heart…like thousand of knives cutting through her, slashing her into thousand pieces of meat…urgh, how could Muski able to make a joke at this time huh???

Ridhima laughed a bit while still crying in Muski's arms…Muski smiled and said…

"One of the sign of becoming a nut girl…careful now…I might send you straight to see a psychologist…"…Ridhima hit Muski, and they both laughed…Ridhima then hugged Muski again and she hugged her back more tightly…

"Will you forgive me for deciding to abandon you alone here??? I am a very selfish girl right???" Ridhima said in a small voice…her tears came flowing down her cheeks…while playing with her hair, Muski nodded…

"I will…anyway, I know I will never win when it comes to compete with Armaan Malik…huh, loving someone is really a selfish thing from the very start of it," Muski said, laughing a bit…Ridhima nodded…then, Muski let go of her and stared at her…

"So…what is the first thing you want to do today???" Shaan, work, Jun???" asked Muski…Ridhima thought about it…then she sighed…

"I guess…work will come first…then Shaan…as for Armaan, I don't want to see him again…I will just leave…" she replied Muski…then, she drink the water Muski had handed her before…Muski rubbed her chin…

"Are you telling me you are leaving without telling Armaan about it??? Then how about you two dreams???" she asked, closely watching Ridhima's every reaction…Ridhima gulped…

"Yes, I'm leaving without telling him…I need to…as for our dreams, well…it was just a dream…I guess, I don't really have to waste my time investigating something that probably had nothing to do at all with me…" Ridhima answered her…she sighed again…Armaan…will she really able to forget him??? When he is everywhere…on the television, radio, poster, newspaper and magazine…and most important is…when he had became part of her…be in her heart, mind and soul…

"Yosh!!! Let get going then…" Muski said suddenly when she saw Ridhima's expressions turning into a sorrow expression…she does not want Ridhima to feel sad…so, she tried to distract her by reminding her to move on…Muskaan Got up from the coach and she pulled Ridhima to stand with her…Ridhima smiled…then, she nodded and walked into her room…Muski watched her go…she saw Ridhima's cellphone on the table…she picked up, searching for a number she hope will be able to cheer Ridhima up…

As Ridhima entered her bedroom, she closed the door behind her…being alone again, without Muskaan by her side, with so many emotions within her, was making Ridhima weak…sliding down into the floor, leaning against her bedroom, Ridhima sat there as tears came again…this time flowing furiously, ruining her cheeks, dropping into her lap…Ridhima cried with all of her heart but she close her mouth in case it will attracted Muski to come and check on her…she does not want to burden her…she is a good friend…but this choice Ridhima chose, was a journey she had to walk alone…and being alone was a sad thing…outside her door, Muski cried too…poor Ridhima…

Heaven

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