Sunday, 1 April 2018

Part 28: YOU INSIDE ME (AR)

Arashi walked weakly inside their house…none of them dare to speak especially to aRMAANn…Armaan walked straight to his room the moment he entered the house…leaving all of his friends to stare at his back…they exchanged looks…right after the moment when Armaan had announced his engagement with Ridhima, he got a suspended letter from their company stating that Armaan will be dismissed from any activities that related to him…no matter activities as Arashi or personal activities…Atul  sighed and walked to the kitchen…later, he came back into the living room with a few glasses and a bottle of water…Rahul, Aiba and Ohno had settled themselves on the coach there…Nino passed the water around then looked up at Ohno…Ohno stared back at him…he raised an eyebrow then to turn look at Aiba who shook his head and pointed to Rahul…rahul looked at them all…


"Spit it out…whatever you want to say, spit it out…" said Rahul, feeling irritated at the way they all acted…Atul opened his mouth…then he closed it…he opened it again and closed it…no words can't come out now…not in this kind of situation…

"What are we going to do now Armaan …will he be alright???" asked Aiba…sounded worried…all of them turned their eyes to look at Armaan's room…his door was opened but there was no sound came out from the room…

"He will…he has Ridhima isn't it???" said Ohno…he believed that in this kind of situation and time, Ridhima is the only person who can calm Armaan …rahul nodded…his expression was so serious…

"We promise to Armaan that no matter what happen, we will always support him right???" he asked…Atul nodded…Aiba looked at Ohno…seriously, now that Armaan was suspended from their activities, will it really mean that Armaan can be part of them again???

"Yes…and I will stick to that promise…Arashi will never be complete without him…Arashi is Arashi…and that is when me, Atul,, Rahul Aiba and Armaan are in it…" said Ohno firmly…Aiba smiled…

"Well said, leader!!!" he said…Atul and Rahul nodded too…

"All we need to do right now is to wait for the company's further action before we tell them our decision on Armaan …they need to respect our decision… Armaan is Arashi's member…and he will always be…" said Atul…Rahul nodded…so do the others…suddenly, Armaan came out from his room…

Ridhima left me a message on the phone…she said she wanted to meet me now…can any of you accompany me to meet her???" he asked them…they exchanged looks…why would Armaan needed a friend to accompany him seeing his fiance???

"Okay…I'll come with you," said Ohno… Armaan nodded…

"I'll be ready in 10 minutes…" he said…Ohno nooded…
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"What are you doing here??? If you only come here to break my son's heart again, you can leave right now!!!" said Mrs Shah… Ridhima stood looking at her straight in the eyes…

"I come to see Shaan…and I promise I am not here to break his heart again…in fact, I am about to go and fix it…fix every single mistakes that I had done…" Ridhima said in a small voice…the numbness and coldness of her voice and action was somehow scary to anyone who heard and saw it…it was like she is a walking corpse with no soul and heart in it…

"Are you sure??? How can I believe you???" asked Mrs shah, eyeing her with great dislike and hatred…Ridhima chose to ignore her…she pushed her way into Shaan's room…he was laying on the bed, looking so fragile and breakable…Ridhima's tears dropped down onto her cheeks the moment he saw Shaan's pale cheeks and weak body…she walked to him and sat down on the chair next to his bed…she took Shaan's hand and covered it with hers…his wrist where he had tried to cut and killed himself earlier was now covered with a bandage…but his other wrist, there was a scar on it…like what Muskaan had said before, Shaan really did tried to kill himself…and it seems like he had tried it too many time too…Ridhima called out his name…

"Shaan… Shaan…"…there was no response from Shaan…only the sound of his breathing can be heard…Ridhima squeezed his hand…she wanted Shaan to feel her presence…to wake up…to forgive her for all the wrong things she had done…she closed her eyes and Armaan's smiling face covered her vision…Ridhima's heart shattered into thousand pieces…there she was holding Shaan's hand, who was trying to kill himself for loving her and in her eyes, came vividly the image of Armaann, the man whom she love with all of her heart who had now lost his career, in the sake of loving her too…Ridhima felt herself was so sinful…she tried to clear her mind, reminding it to focus on Shaan…but her mind was so full of Armaan…her heart, body and soul was so full of him…Armaan who was smiling…Armaan who was laughing…who was standing like a male God in ancient Roman's history, teasing her, kissing her and hugging her…his smell, his sweet hair, his warm body and his eyes…

"Ridhima…" Shaan called out…the images of Armaann in Ridhima's eyes went blank the moment she opened her eyes to look at Shan…Shan was looking at her…surely, this wasn't a dream because he was squeezing Ridhima's hand back… Ridhima tried to smile…but it was a very hard job right now…not when she was in the urge of crying loudly…for what she had earlier…but she stretched her lips into a curve of smiling, even when it is a real fake one…

"How are you???" she asked Shaan…he smiled back widely…a new light shone out from his pale face…

"I am always fine when you are around…" he answered… Ridhima gulped…Shaan tried to sit up but Ridhima pushed him to lie back…

"You won't leave me again won't you???" he asked…his expression turned like a kid wanting his mother to promise him not to leave him… Ridhima smiled back…this time more sincere…

"No…I won't…I will never leave you again…" she answered…she put her other hand, the one who had her engagement ring on it, and put it on Shaan's hand…Shaan looked down on it and saw, to his great surprise, there was no ring on it…he looked up at Ridhima …

"I thought you had engaged…with that Armaan of Arashi…" he said… Ridhima avoided his eyes and looked down at their entwined hands…

"Not anymore…" she answered weakly…and her thought went back to her meeting with Armaan before she came to meet Shaan…
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"Armaan, I need to see you now…" she said… Ridhima then shut the phone…she had decided…she couldn't destroyed the life of the people she loved…come to think of it, she was a really lucky girl…to have two men loving her…one was willing to die for her and one was willing to lose his life for her…but she only love one of them…and the one that she love wasn't just be loved by her…he is Armaan Malik…a very famous idol in world…he is loved by his million , zillions of fans…his other group members, who grew up along with him…and his own life…Armaan love his career…being an idol suited him so much that Ridhima couldn't imagined him as an office worker or else…she wanted him to be an idol…she wanted to hear him singing, to see him acting and to read the news about him on the magazine…and for that, she needed to let go of him…let him free to walk his own path of my life…which was so different from her…and Shaan…he is the man that she had once loved…by leaving him seems to be too much for a big one tough guy like Shaan…he couldn't take it…and he chose to end his life…but Ridhima wasn't a God…she didn't deserved to take someone else life from himself…and he only have Ridhima to love him…unlike Armaan, he seems to be poorer when it come to love…so… Ridhima knew just what to do…

"Hehehe…life is so unfair right, Ridhika??? You don't want to be apart with Amar…but then God took your life away and made him live alone…and now…God seems to be jealous of our fate…he decided to tear us apart again…and this time, I need to leave Armaan too…just like you did before…" Ridhima said to herself, madly laughing a shaky laugh when she remembered the part where radhika had died because of her sickness…she squeezed the ring that once belong to Her …now that the ring is belong to her…sooner it will be homeless again…without an owner to put it on… Ridhima closed her eyes…she opened it after some minutes, collecting the strength that she had…to dial a phone number that will bring everything back to normal again…for Armaan…for Arashi…

"Hello…I'm Ridhima  Gupta…can I meet you now??? Yes…I have come to make a decision…on how to safe Armaan…and I will need your help…" she said through the phone…
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"Muski, why did you want to see me???" Rahul asked…he had now sitting in a restaurant hotel where previously Arashi had an event with their fans…Muski had called him and told him that she wanted to meet him…the matter is so urgent…so, Rahul had gone out to meet her with Aiba…looking at Aiba on his left, he saw that Aiba was looking at Muskaan…Muskaan, on the other hand, was somehow looking uneasy and worried…

"Mr Rahul grewal??? Can you please stop staring at me??? I can't talk when you have that expression on your face…" Muskaan said to Aiba, blushing madly…Aiba smiled…he nodded…Rahul rolled her eyes…

"What happen???" he asked again…his temper always rising high these days…when all the thing around him turned upside down, he always found himself losing patience…

"Ridhima …she had been acting weird…you see, Shaan was hospitalized now…" Muskaan said…she decided to ignore Aiba…who seems to be, for some unknown reason, keep looking at her as though she is a very beautiful thing to look at…Rahul raised his eyebrow…

"I think that suit him…after all the bad things he had done to Armaan and Ridhima …" Rahul answered her…Muskaan nodded but then shook her head…

"No..no…he was hospitalized because he tried to kill himself…the moment he knew that he can't be with Ridhima again, he decided to end up his life…" Muskaan explained…Rahul chuckled…Aiba looked at rahul with a weird a expression…

"Boys are very poor creatures you know…" he said to Muski but still kept his eyes on rahul…somehow rahul was laughing silently…

"Why are you laughing???" Muski asked Rahul in a frustrated voice…she threw Aiba a shut-up-you-hell look and Aiba smiled widely…this girl is cute, he thought dully…

"I think he is just playing around…you know…to have Ridhima's attention back to him…" said Rahul, matter of factly tone used in his words…Muskaan nodded…

"I know your theory…but Ridhima is a very soft-hearted girl…with Armaan sudden announcement on their engagement, I think she will started to think about it more and more and ended up making a wrong conclusion…" Muski replied him…Aiba looked around the table at the moment…he was looking at someone…Muskaan asked…

"What are you looking at???"…and she too turned around…her eyes grew wider at the sight of what she saw…

"What now???" Rahul asked in a boring tone…he looked up to the place where Muskaan and Aiba were looking at…he stood up…

"Ridhima…" the three of them said in the same time…
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"I'm going to break my engagement with Armaan…" Ridhima said to Armaann's manager…he raised an eyebrow at Ridhima …

"Why??? I thought you enjoyed the feeling of being Armaan's lover," he said in a mocked tone… Ridhima threw him a dirty look…

"I don't get to be with him because he is an idol…I do love him…for real…and because I do so…I decided to leave him…alone…you are right…I can't hurt him…his career is the most important thing to him…so no…I won't let him lose that part…" Ridhima answered firmly…at that same time, Muskaan, Aiba and rahul were all listening…staying behind a big vase of flowers, they heard everything that Ridhima and Arashi's manager talking…Rahul shook his head…

"Idiot girl!!!" he said in an angry tone…Muskaan smacked his head…he gave her a I-will-kill-you-later look but Muskaan just stuck her tongue at him…at that precise moment where Rahul was about to argue back, Aiba pointed to someplace…and Mika and rahul looked up at that place…surely, this day is really a dramatic day…Armaan and Ohno were walking inside the restaurant…they spotted Ridhima and walked to her…the minutes they saw their Mr Manager, Armaan stopped walking…so do Ohno…Aiba made a move to go and meet them…but Muskaan pulled him back to their hiding place and made a gesture telling him to stay still and shut up…Aiba looked at Rahul and he nodded…they turned their head to the waiting live drama in front of them…

"What are you doing here with him???" Armaan asked… Ridhima smiled widely at him…she got up from her seat, walked to Armaan and pulled him to sit next to her…Ohno followed and he sat next to their manager…

"It is good to see you…anyway, thanks for the engagement announcement that you made earlier…I am happy for it…" Ridhima said happily…but Armaan continued to stare at his manager…Mr Manager kept his face blank…he needed to play around with Ridhima …for Armaan's sake of career…

"You are really an idiot right???" Ridhima asked Armaan…at once, Armaan and Ohno looked at Ridhima …she looked down at the table and chuckled…

"I have never had the impression that Armaan MAlik will be so obedient when it come to love…when you put this ring on me, I think that you are declaring us as couple with benefits...but surely not marriage or something…" Ridhima said…she laughed mockingly…Armaan's eyes became smaller…he was mad with Ridhima …

"Couple with benefits???" he asked…

"Yeah…you know…you are an idol…and I am just some ordinary girl…I think by dating you, perhaps you could afford all the thing I want in my life…like fame and money…but seriously…you never actually thought about having fun right??? All you care for is being responsible…not long before we started dating, you decided to engage…well…" Ridhima answered him…but she didn't dare to speak straight to Armaan…she was afraid that her eyes will betrayed her feeling…instead of looking at Armaan, she looked at his forehead…keeping her eyes blank…Ohno was red in the face now…he felt sorry for Armaan but somehow he could feel that Ridhima was lying…rahul and Aiba and Muskaan all held their mouths wide open…Muskaan can't believe what Ridhima had just said…she knew Ridhima was lying…of course!!! Ridhima love Armaan more than she love herself…what was she playing at now??? Making like everything that happened was a game between her and Armaan…

"So???" Armaan said…his voice rising up…he seems to be angry…but his expression was the same like Ridhima…blank and empty…

"So…this is not fun anymore…I don't want to take any responsibilities on you…come to think of it, your fans might want to kill me right now…hohoho…and seriously, I love myself more than I love you…sorry…but that is the truth…" Ridhima said…she smiled a bit…this time, she looked into Armaan's eyes…she took out the ring from her finger and put it on the table… Armaan looked at her in disbelief…Ohno was looking as someone had just slammed him hard on the face… Ridhima smiled again…she turned to look at Armaan's manager…

"You can do the honor now by fixing this matter…I believe that you too didn't want to lose your most important idol in your company right???" Ridhima said…Mr Manager smiled at her…he didn't know whether to describe Ridhima as stupid or innocent…but he took the ring and looked up at Armaan and Ohno…

"Well…I believe we have no more business here…can we just leave before any reporters spotted us here???" he said, looking from Armaan to Ohno…Ohno got up at once…he pulled Armaan to walk with him but Armaan didn't even budge even for an inch…he kept his eyes on Ridhima who was looking around as though she was bored with the situation…Ohno kept on pulling Armaan and at last Armaan pushed him away…he pulled Ridhima to stand up with him and said to her face…

"Are you telling me that everything that happened between us before was just a game you are playing???" he asked...not in a polite way…in fact, he was yelling his heart out…everyone in that restaurant became silent…then, whispering broke the silence…they had spotted Armaan and Ohno and recognized them… Ridhima yanked her arm out from Armaan's grip…

"Yes…I'm sorry but yes…if I can dump my old boyfriend to be with you, why do you think I would take it serious with you??? I just want to fool around with boy…that is all…" Ridhima answered him…Armaan tried to fight back but Ohno pulled him away…

"It's not worth it, Armaan…it's not worth it…" he said, giving Mao Ridhima a dirty look…Armaan pushed Ohno away and he walked away…Ohno followed him after looking at Ridhima with a great dislike…their manager looked at Ridhima …

"Thank you…I'll handle it from here…and…sorry for everything…" he said…bowing to Ridhima , he left too… Ridhima gulped…the tears she was trying to hold back was about any minutes can betrayed her to Armaan just now…she picked up her bag and walked slowly, ignoring the fact that she was now the attention of other people in that restaurant…Muskaan no longer able to stand looking at Ridhima in that pitying state, she got out from her hiding place and pulled Ridhima to face herand slaped her… Ridhima was shocked to see her there…but seeing Muskaan ruined up her strength at once…she cried…Muskaan hugged her…

"Why Ridhima??? Why did you have to let go of the people that you treasure the most???" Mika asked…she patted Ridhima at the back…

"Because I love him, …I love him…and I can't stand watching him hurting himself like that…watching him letting go of his career that he had spent so much time and energy before on it…I can't Muskaan …I just can't…" Ridhima said between sobbed and crying…Muskaan nodded…she understood Ridhima's feeling…everything that happened was because Armaan love her…and she love him…they were a couple that were separated by cruel reality in life…Rahul walked away…Aiba followed him…

"Now what??? Ridhima was innocent right???" Aiba asked Rahul…he nodded…

"And we will need to explain that to Armaan…" said Rahul…the two walked straight to their car…once inside it, Aiba drove to their house…

"What a couple of an idiot people!!!" said Rahul, cursing under his breath…
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"Ridhima???" Shaan called her… Ridhima looked at him…her mind had wandered to what had happened earlier before she came to see Shaan…Shaan was looking at her… Ridhima smiled…

"Let's go outside…I think you need to stretch your legs…" said Ridhima wanting to drive Armaan out of her tired mind…Shaan nodded happily…as Ridhima helped Shaan got up, she said inside her heart…

"Goodbye Armaan…sorry that I love you so much till all I can do is only to hurt you,

Heaven

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