Monday, 30 April 2018

Part 29 : All for you love


 Hi friends ,how are you all? I am back…and with ‘all for your love’ kyonki is ff ko ud karne ke mails bahut aa rahe hain so maine socha pahle isey hi start karun. Mai one by one sabhi ffs continue karungi..thanks for keeping patience and for you love .

“Sach kahte hain kisike chale jane se zindagi ruk nahin jati.par shayad riddhima ki zindagi usi jagah ruk agyi thi jab sumit sabse dur ja raha tha. Sabne socha tha shayad apne antim palon mein sumit riddhima ko apne paas chahehga,usse shayad kuch kahe. Par nahi….usne toh jaise riddhima ko apni taraf se azad kar diya tha..uski sari responsibilities usne arman par dalkar nischint hokar aankh mundkar so gaya tha..chain ki neend. Aur riddhima…..wah to jaise ek puppet ban gayi thi…..! uski  zindagi ka pahla mout! Aur wo bhi uske sabse karib kisika..jiske sath usne sari umr bitane ka sapna dekah tha…….kitne arman sajaye the….jaise hi dr. ne kaha…sumit roy..death time…12: 33

Wah behosh hokar gir padi thi….aur aaj 15 days gujar gaye the..usey kuch pata nahi tha..half unconscious..high temperature lekar ICU mein admit thi. Aur uske paas  wahi din raat tha,jiske bhrose sumit usey chod gaya tha…dr.arman malik….!

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Riddhima opened eyes and tried to see around but everything was blur in front of her. She  tried to remember what had happened to her and in a while she got up with a jerk and yelled…sumit!..sumit…!!!
Arman ,who was sitting on the couch closing eyes,came hurriedly to her and uttered : “calm down riddhima…please lete raho.tumhe abhi bhi fever hai..

Riddhima lied on the bed as she was not able to sit and uttered : “pani..

Dadi,who was also there,came and made her drink water with spoon and uttered caressing her hairs : “kaisi hai beta? Abhi thik hai na?”

Riddhima  looked at dadi and asked with teary eyes : “aaj koun sa din hai dadi?”

Dadi understood riddhima’s question and replied heaving a long breathe : “beta,15 din se aap yahan ho…15 din gujar gaye..”

Riddhima closed eyes but tears started flowing constantly on her cheeks. Dadi wiped her tears with hanky and uttered lovingly : “beta,rote nahi..phir se fever aa jayega apko.”

Arman’s eyes filled with tears hearing riddhima’s words…she uttered slowly : “bas ekbaar dekh leti usey..

‘sach mein kitni painful hai kisike zindagi ka wo pal jab janewale  ko last baar dekhne ki ichcha man mein hi rah jaye…..”arman thought .

A silence occurred in the whole room .arman went from the room hearing riddhima’s sob..he couldn’t see her like this. coming out of the cabin,he informed dr.shshank about riddhima and said : “sir,riddhima ko aapki jarurt hai.”

Dr. shshank came there in some minutes. He saw dr. sindhe was checking riddhima and talking with her. Seeing dr. shashank he uttered : “aayiye sir,ab riddhima  bilkul thik hai.”

Dr. shshank nodded and sat beside riddhima while taking her hand in him. he started caressing her hands. Riddhima didn’t say anything only lied on the bed with a blank expression. Dadi uttered : “dr.sinde,kya riddhima ko kuch khane ko de sakti hun?”

Dr. sinde : “off course ma’m. abhi liquid dijiye.soup achcha rahega..she is very weak.”

Arman uttered hurriedly: “aap yahi rahiye dadiji,mai mumma ko bata deta hun,thodi der me wo lekar aa jayegi.”

Dadi nodded and sat there. dr. sinde went from there .dadi,arman and dr. shshank…all were there but they didn’t know what to say riddhima..about what to talk with her..so all kept silent. After sometimes riddhima looked at arman and asked in a weak voice : “mini kaisi hai?”

Arman understood she was trying to divert her mind so uttered hurriedly : “she is good riddhima..usey lekar aaun tumhare paas? Tumhe bahut yaad karti hai.”

Riddhima nodded.arman ran to mini’s cabin and came in some minutes  with her. Riddhima tried to smile seeing mini and called her through her eyes. Mini sat beside her bed and asked  : “kaisi ho riddhima? Ab kaisa feel ho raha hai? Kya khane ka man kar raha hai? Chocolate?cake?pizza?pasta ? chicken  sandwich? Ya daal roti?”

Arman frowned looking at mini but mini uttered waving hands  : “ab aise kyon ghur rahe ho mujhe? Ab 15 days se riddhima ne kuch khaya nahi to bade jor ki bhukh lagi hogi na?”

Riddhiam uttered with a sigh smile : “nahi mini..i am not hungry.”

Mini  replied glaring shashank : “I know aap is khadus nanu se darti ho ,but don’t worry dear..mini is here…dr. shshank aapka kuch nahi kar payenge kyonki yeh bhi is mini se darte hain.”

Dr. shshank smiled and uttered : “phir ab se mei beti riddhima ka khyal aap rakho naniji.”

Mini uttered rounding eyes : “wo toh rakhna hi padega..dekho beechari kaisi kamjor si ho gayi hai..

Ananya entered in the cabin and uttered smilingly : “aur isliye main riddhima beta ke liye ‘hot mushroom soup’ layi hun….i know she likes it.”

Mini waved hands and uttered : “hi beautiful..

Ananya uttered smilingly : “hi cuty..

Mini : “achcha hua aap aa gayi,ab mai thodi relaxed hun,humdono milkar riddhima ka khyal rakhenge.”

Ananya nodded and uttered : “phir aap riddhima ko soup pila do.”

Mini nodded and took the bowl from ananya’s hand and uttered looking at riddhima : “chalo jaldi se sara soup pee lo.”

Riddhima  took 2 spoons then uttered in na but mini uttered in a serious voice frowning to her : “achche bachche zid nahi karte..warna  injection de dungi..

Riddhima smiled and emptied the bowl and lied down. Mini asked excitedly  : “mimicking karun riddhima?”

Ananya asked : “kiska karegi?”

Mini replied immediately: “first ananya malick,then balvinder..then shshank gupta and then…”saying she looked at dadi.”

Dadi uttered rounding eyes : “mera toh bilkul mat karna..”

Mini uttered laughing : “you are senior badi amma…. phir aapka first mein karna  chahiye..”

She started mimicking ..dr. shshank gestured arman to come out. They  came out ,then shshank uttered : “mini aa gayi achcha hua,wah riddhima ka dhyan dusre taraf lagakar rahegi. Aap ghar jao dr. arman,take rest .i know aapne itne dino tak thik se rest bhi nahin kiya.”

Arman smiled and uttered : “no sir,ab to riddhima ko lekar hi ghar jaunga..abhi uske paas kisika rahna jaruri hai. I know main kuch kar nahi paunga..at least uska dhyan to rakh sakunga.”

Shshank nodded and uttered  sighly : “ab to lagta hai kuch din jaldi jaldi gujar jaye aur riddhima is dard ko jaldi se jaldi bhula de…sumit ko kho chuka hun,beti ko khona nahi chahta.”

Arman uttered in an assuring voice : “aisa nahi hoga sir..sumit hi riddhima ko kuch hone nahi dega..wo uske sath nahi hokar bhi rahega aur riddhima ko sahara dega…

Shshank gave him a question look.arman smiled sighly and uttered : “she will live her life sir…aur sumit ko bhulkar nahi,usey yaad karte hue wah jiyegi..

Shshank asked slowly : “but what about you dr. arman?”

Arman  replied with a light smile : “ wo muskurayegi toh main bhi mukuraunga sir..don’t worry… sumit ne jo responsibility diya hai mujhe ,usey main jarur nibhaunga kyonki maine usse promise kiya hai aur isime meri bhi khushi hai.

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After sometime sapna came to meet riddhima,talked her then arman’s friends came one by one. Their motive was to keep busy riddhima in their talk as she would’t get time to remember sumit. at night  dr.sindhe checked riddhima,gave some medicine and uttered looking at her: “toh riddhima…aapko kal discharge kiya jayega,you can go home.”

After riddhima sleeping,dr.sindhe called arman in his cabin and said : “dr. arman,riddhima is physically fine but not mentally. Yahan se jane ke baad jab tak wo normal na ho jaye,usey akela nahin chodna hai,kisi na kisiko uske sath rahna hai kyonki aise mental status mein patient kuch bhi kar sakta hai..

Arman nodded and uttered : “I know dr. sindhe,but problem is agar riddhima mere ghar nahi apne ghar jana chahe toh uska koun khyal rakhega? Means dadi aur sir,sirf 2 hi person hain unke ghar me aur sir itne busy rahte hain..

Dr. sindhe  uttered : “kya kisi tarah usey aapke ghar nahin le ja sakte? At least wahan aap hain,dr.sapna hai aur aapke parents hain..

Arman : “I know sir,par aap sochiye,is haalat mein usey force toh nahi kiya ja sakta .”

Dr. sindhe nodded and uttered : “shayad dr. shshank ke kahne se maan jaye..i will talk to dr.shashank about it. And one more thing,riddhima ko main ek sleeping tablet diya hai ,afternoon and night..kyonki yeh 2 time hai jab insaan jyada akela rahta hai,sochne ka time milta hai..wo khyal se usey dena hai okay?”

Arman nodded but he was tensed thinking that if riddhima refused to go his home then what he could do.

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At morning when riddhima opened eyes,saw muskan and anjali was there. seeing her they wished : “good morning riddhima..have a good day..”

Riddhiam smiled sighly and got up. Muskan looked at her and uttered : “arey yaar,jaldi jaldi fresh ho jao na..we are waiting to have  breakfast with you..aur dekho,aaj ananya aunty ne kya jabardast breakfast bheja hai…dhokla with chutni....my favourite…

Anjali teased : “tera stomach is dhokle se kaise full hoga bhukkad?”

Muskan uttered showing teeth : “nahi,maine 7 o clock already mumma ke hath ka banaya hua ‘methi paratha aur pudine ki chutni’ khayi hai..aur dekh,tere aur riddhima ke liye bhi layi hun.”

Anjali laughed and addressed to riddhima : “riddhima..you know methi paratha is my favourite aur is chudail ne ab tak mujhe bataya tak nahi..

Muskan uttered keeping palm on her mouth : “haaw!tune mujhe chudail kaha?”

Anjali  : “haan ,toh shakal dekh aayine me,bhutni lag rahi hai..aur yeh tere  lab coat  ka aisa kyon haalat hai? Itne sare wrinkles labcoat  mein kaise ,iron nahi karti?”

Muskan uttered : “arey yaar,kal labcoat  pahankar hi so gayi thi raat ko..toh aisi ho gayi.”

Sister ,who was smiling hearing their talk,came to riddhima and gave support to take her to washroom. After some time riddhima came and sat on the bed and uttered slowly : “mujhe bhukh nahi hai.”

Anjali requested : “bas thoda le lo riddhima,you are very weak.”

Riddhima nodded in na and lied on the bed again. Anjali was about to say something but muskan stopped her and came to riddhima and uttered: “par humey hai,aur tu nahin khyegi toh hum bhi nahi khayenge aur bina khaye hum dono bhi beemar padenge aur humey bhi IVs dene padenge,tab mai tere hi room me shift ho jaungi,mai aur anjali aur bakbak bakbak karke tera dimag kha jaungi…aur…

Riddhima  got nervous seeing muskan’s blabbering and sat on the bed immediately and uttered : “dhokla..thoda sa…

Muskan smiled and winked at anjali and addressed riddhima : “good girl..aise hi dr.muskan chaddha ki baaten sunti rahiyo..
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After sometime anjali and muskan went to their duty but dadi and arman came there. sapna also came for half an hour and talked to her casually..shshank also came and gave riddhima  a book and uttered : “aapki favourite book beta,aapne kaha tha na?”

At afternoon riddhima was about to discharge but she didn’t know where she should to go…arman’s home or papa’s home. She decided to go to papa’s home  as she didn’t want to be a problem to arman’s family. But she had no clue what to do in her life..how she could survive without sumit…her eyes filled with tears thinking about sumit. her heart broken realizing that  she would  never see him or never hear his voice…she felt that a heavy pain was arising in her heart…she mumbled slowly …”sumit…

Just then someone knocked at the door and peeped in.dadi,who was taking rest in couch,got up and uttered : “come come…mai tumhare bare me hi soch rahi thi…”

It was sumit’s mumma,who came there with some flowers in hand..riddhima saw it was her favourite flower which sumit used to give her everyday. sumit’s mumma smiled lightly and addressed riddhima : “how are you beta?”

Riddhima nodded only. Sumit’s mumma uttered : “good…ab aap jaldi se thik ho jao aur apni duty join kar lo…

Riddhima didn’t reply only sat bending her head. Then she asked slowly : “aap kaise ho aunty?”

Sumita’s mumma replied with a sigh smile : “khub bhalo (very good).mai achchi hun beta and I joined sanjiwani,yahan ke cancer wards ki head nurse hun,and staying at nurse quarter .”

Riddhima  nodded and kept quiet. Sumit’s mumma talked to dadi for sometime then addressed riddhima : “beta,kabhi kabhi life me aise situation aate hain jab hum jina nahi chahte…par us uparwale ko yeh bhi dikhana hai ki hum itne kamjor nahin hain…ki wo humare zindagi ke sath khele aur humare rone par wo hanse…mai bhi mere  bhagwaan  ko yahi dikhana chahti hun,aur aap ko bhi sabit karna hai ki aap kamjor nahi ho…

Then she took out a paper from her bag and uttered giving it to riddhima : “yeh  padh lena beta,aapko iski jarurat hogi…aur mai aapse milne aapke  ghar  aati rahungi…”

Riddhima  bid bye and looked at the paper,it was like a letter.being curious she opened it and shivered seeing the handwriting….it was sumit’s …she gulped hard and started reading it…..

Hi  riddhu….

 Bahut dino baad baat ho rahi hai,hai na? ab batao mujhe kaise pata? Mujhe toh tumhare barey mein sab pata hai. I am sure,mere jane se tum jarur beemar padi hogi.yeh tumhare bachpan ki aadat  hai na,kuch bhi ho,pahle tumhe beemar padna  hai. Harbaar exam ke time beemar padti thi…jab tumhari favourite teacher ka transfer hua tha,beemar hui thi…basketball match mein haar gaya mai,beemar padi tum…..yahan tak ki jab pahli baar apne friends ke sath papa se chupkar movie jana tha,usse pahle hi darker beemar pad gayi thi…toh is baar wo aadat tumhe dohrana hai aur main janta hun is baar at least 10 days toh  bed par padi hi hogi,hai na? toh phir it’s a long time jab mai tumse baat kar pa raha hun. Kaisi ho? I know hospital mein hogi kyonki high temperature aur behoshi ,aur hospital..yeh sab toh  common hai tumhare liye.

Anyways, mai janta hun tum ab kis uljhan mein ho. I am coming directly on the point. I know you are confused …hospital se leave lekar kahan jana hai? Kahan jaogi? Arman ke ghar aur kahan….Nahin,mai ye nahi kahta ki arman tumhara husband hai isliye. Mai isliye kah raha hun ki papa aur dadi waise bhi sad honge na? tum bhi sad sad face banakar ghumogi toh unko bahut takleef hogi. I know tum meri baat manogi..manogi na riddhu? you are my good girl na?



                                                            Ami tomake bhalobasi

                                                                  Sumit

Droplets of tears fell on the letters ..riddhima wiped it immediately and mumbled…”amio tomake bhalobasi sumit..mai tumhara kahna manungi…jo bhi kahoge manungi…

Dadi ,who was noticing  riddhima’s reaction when she was reading that letter..asked slowly : “riddhima beta,kiska letter hai?”

Riddhima nodded in na and uttered slowly : “kuch nahi hai dadiji.”

Dadi didn’t ask again but riddhima uttered slowly : “dadi,mai arman ke ghar jana chahti hun yahan se..”

Dadi  thought a while then uttered : “achcha hai beta, aap abhi puri tarah thik nahi ho.arman,sapna sab aapka wahan khyal rakh sakenge aur mai roj aaungi aapse milne.”

Riddhima nodded . dadi came to her,sat beside her and uttered dragging her in her arms : “mai janti hun meri riddhima bahut samajhdar hai..aur duniya ke sabse achchi ladki hai.bas beta,khud ko sambhal lena,aapke siva mera aur shshank ka koi nahi hai.”

Riddhima nodded and kept her head on dadi’s shoulder and closed eyes.
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She came in arman’s home making surprise everyone. No one questioned her about her decision but everyone  was relaxed . dadi and shshank came regularly to meet riddhima.shshank went hospital from there but dadi used to stay there for whole day.arman started going hospital but at night sapna and arman both stayed in riddima’s room. Sapna  slept on the cot beside riddhima and arman was on couch.riddhima was watching everything silently but didn’t say a word or ask  about it. But her silence was making arman worried. This was not a good sign he knew. She had to open up. Arman talked with dr. kirti about it and she suggested to take care of her, not to leave her alone for a second and  to give her some time.

One month passed.riddhima was now good . dr. sindhe stopped his medicines. she started talking a little with everyone. Now sapna’s  night duty started,arman asked riddhima is she wants,ananya would be with her at night.but riddhima uttered only : “mai thik hun arman aur tum toh rahte ho mere room me,kuch jarurat hoga toh bataungi…”

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One night when arman was sleeping in couch,his eyes opened suddenly..he tried to understand from where a light coming which disturbed his sleep. He turned to riddhima’s bed and saw the table lamp was on and riddhima was sitting on the bed..she was doing something.arman saw she was smiling and mumbling something while writing  a diary …and in a while arman was Numb understanding the matter….riddhima was writing a diary and mumbling…”sumit..kaise ho? Mai thik hun.par tum kab aaoge? Mai tumhare intzaar kar rahi hun..jaldi aao na…

Arman felt that his heart stopped to beat!!!…what happened to riddhima? She was writing letter to sumit and talking with him!!…what is meaning of it! Was she suffering from mental illness? Sumit’s death effected her that much ,she lost her mental balance!!  Arman started sweating realizing the situation of riddhima…he saw she caressed the diary and kept it in drawer and lied on the bed and slept. But arman’s  sleep  gone  totally.he couldn’t share with anyone about riddhima’s this situation except dr. kirti .now he was waiting for morning when he could talk with dr. kirti …..

Love u all

punam

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