Thursday, 5 April 2018

Part 32: YOU INSIDE ME (AR)

Armaan was jerked awake when he heard Ohno screaming out his name…quickly, he ran out of his room…

"What??? What happen???" he asked anxiously…Ohno laughed when he saw Armaan still in his bed clothes and messy hair… Armaan smacked his head and Ohno pushed him away, still laughing…

"Oye!!! Are you planning to attend the wedding wearing that???" asked Atul  when he appeared at the living room… Armaan looked down at himself…he was wearing a flowery shorts with a white round neck shirt…he grinned…

"Nope…I forgot we need to be up early this morning…that's explain why Ohno called out my name on top of his voice just now…" he said, hugging Ohno to his side…Ohno hugged him by the waist, smiling like a little kid…Atul rolled his eyes and he went to the mirror that pasted on the wall at the living room, checking his appearance…


"You would better be hurry…you don't want Rahul to yell at you right???" he said, looking at Armaan from inside the mirror… Armaan nodded…as he made to move to his room, Rahulcame into the living room…

"Someone said my name…I knew it…" he said, closing his eyes, like he was sensing something… Armaan  pushed him away and they all laughed… Armaan chuckled a bit and he went to his room…once he was in the bathroom, he looked at the mirror…he saw his own reflection…he should be happy…today is Ridhima's wedding day…and he should gave her his blessing when he was there…he wants her to be happy…no matter who is the guy that stand next to her on the aisle today…

"This is it Armaan …your time has come for you to fully let her go…no regret and no turning back…she just don't belong to you no matter how much you wish that she is…be a man and accept it…" he said to himself…he smiled and made it to the shower…when the water dropped on to his body, he shivered and there…for the last time in his life, he cried for his love to Ridhima …cried when she was about to be someone else wife…cried that he will have to stop loving her, missing her and wanting her… Armaan  cried and cried along with the water that kept on washing his body…for the last time, he hoped so…outside the bathroom, Aiba heard Armaan's crying…he shook his head and walked outside the room…

"He is crying right now…" Aiba announced when he entered the living room…the others looked trouble but Rahul smiled…

"He won't cry again tonight…" Rahul said confidently…Aiba threw him a surprised look…

"Why???" Atul asked before Aiba managed to...

"Because I had a feeling that Ridhima  is not going to marry that ugly jerk…" Ridhima answered…Ohno sighed…

"She will I think…she is brave enough to leave Armaan all this time…" Ohno replied reasonably…

"Yes…but I think not brave enough to stop loving him…marrying that jerk, mean that she will have to stop loving Armaan and all of us knew that she loved Armaan so much that she is willing to sacrifice herself to save his career…" Rahul  replied back, getting up and looked outside the window…it has started snowing…

"Maybe…" said Atul…he rubbed his chin, deep in thoughts…

"Can we just cancel the idea of going to that wedding??? I am afraid that Armaan will lose control there…after all, he tried so hard to forget Ridhima  all this time…" Aiba said, sounding worried and concern…Rahul shook his head but before he can answer Aiba, Armaan came in and said…

"No…we promised to go…so we will go…beside…I am a man Aiba…I won't lose to that jerk…"…he looked stunningly gorgeous with his black tuxedo…all of them looked at him in surprised…

"The hardest part of loving someone…is knowing when to let go and knowing when to say goodbye…since that time has come, I won't run away from it…if Amar can bravely let her go to  left him…so do I…I am not going to lose by this cruel fate of God…I am Armaan MAlik…and he never loses" he said again in a determined tone…Ohno nodded and smiled…Rahul walked to Armaan and patted him on his shoulder…

"That's a real man should say…I'm proud that I am your friend…" he said to Armaan … Armaan smiled a bit…

"Yeah…that's my little Panda-eyes…" teased Atul… Armaan stuck his tongue at him…they all laughed…

"No matter what happen Armaan …we will always be with you…through ups and downs…no worries okay???" Aiba said… Armaan nodded…he thought that even if he lost the girl he love the most in his life, he will always have this four great friends to cheer him up, to support him and have faith in him…well, that doesn't seems to be a bad idea at all…

"Let's hit the wedding then!!!" Ohno cheered…they all cheered loudly too… Armaan laughed and they went, heading to Ridhima's wedding place…
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Armaan looked at her own reflection on the mirror inside the dressing room of the church where soon she will get married to Shaan…her inside was still battling with herself…should or should not she do this…the dream of Ridhika  kept on flashing in her mind…'the me inside you'…that's what she told her…but how on earth does she will see that miracle??? Armaan won't be here…and so she can't see him at this kind of time…she sighed…she had to admit that she looked beautiful in this wedding gown…in fact, she herself felt stunned when she saw herself on that mirror a few minutes ago…but no matter how she tried to smile, it looked so fake that Muskaan kept telling her to practice smiling neutrally…how in the name of heaven can she smile neutrally when she is not willing to marry Shaan???

Ridhima…are you okay???" Muskaan asked her…Ridhima turned around to look at her…she shook her head…

"I had never seen a bride looked so down like this…especially when she is so stunningly pretty…she would always have a broad smile on her face…" Muskaan said truthfully… Ridhima smiled a bit…

"You know, Ridhima…I got this from Rahul yesterday…" Muskaan  said… Ridhima stared at him…

"What???" she asked impatiently…Muskaan  pulled out a small box from her handbag…she handed the box to Ridhima…she  held her breath…she knew that box…that box is the box that contained her engagement rings with Armaan …Ridhima took it with a trembling hand…she opened it and saw that ring glimmered under the light…it looked so beautiful…Ridhima had a strong desire to put it on her finger…but…what a minute…only her ring??? Where is the ring that belonged to Armaan???

"Rahul told me to tell you this…that ring will change your life…if you choose to ignore it, then you will not have your happiness at all for this lifetime…but if you choose to put it on, he believed you will have your happiness despite all the bitterness that you had to face in order to own it…" Muskaan said…Ridhima looked at her with a teary eyes…everyone kept telling her to stop this marriage…but she can't…not when she was just about to walk down the aisle…not when Armaan's life and Shaan's life both depends on her decision…she needed to be wise while she decided…but then…Ridhika told her to believe in herself right??? And her mother told her to be truthful in loving someon ….

"Ridhima…every girls have their own wedding dreams…I know that today wasn't your dream…your wedding dream is with Armaan   Malik…you loved him before you even got to know him…he lives inside you Ridhima…inside your heart and soul…if you lose your heart and soul…you will have a meaningless life…" Muskaan  gave her advise to her…Ridhima's mind became blank…Muskaan  said it too… Armaan live inside her…and she will be walking doll if she lose him since he is part of her…her heart, her soul, her everything…

"Think about it thoroughly Ridhima…it's never too late to turn back..." Muskaan  pleaded…gripping Ridhima's hands…Ridhima looked at the ring…it supposed to be hers…no…it is belonged to her…it is the sign of her love to Armaan …. Armaan … Armaan …. Armaan ….…a tear dropped onto her cheeks…Ridhima bite her lips…

"God…please show me some signs…don't let me lose in this path…this painful path…" she thoughts miserably…

"The bride please get ready…we will begin the ceremony soon enough…" a voice called out from outside the door…Ridhima's tears flowed in a fast mode…even Muskaan  too looked teary in her eyes…she hugged Ridhima tightly…giving her some strength to move on in this kind of situation…

"Muskaan …" Ridhima said between sobbed…

"Hmmmm???" she replied back…

"It's hurt…my heart…it's hurt so much…I can't stop loving Armaan …no…I can't…I know that I'm not supposed to love him…to care…to live my life wishing that he is here…as my groom…but I kept on wondering where he is right now…what to do and so on…I'm sorry…but I can't help myself…I'm in love with him…so much that I felt myself tearing into thousand of pieces right now…" Ridhima said truthfully…her cries became harder…Muskaan was crying along with her…

"Then don't go and married Shaan…don't go Ridhima …please…for just one time in your life…stop being noble and please…just think of yourself first…" Muskaan  said, pleading at her…brushing her hair softly…

"I can't Muskaan …I can't…I am not brave enough…I love Armaan …yes I do…I always do…but I am not brave enough to see him suffering because of me…no…" she answered…and the girls kept on crying…but ridhima ..we are over after this marriage you will never see me after your you married to shaan ..and I know that I would be with you ..to support but I am soory Ridhima ..i am not like you to not stand on right  decision …at loss for words to describe their feeling…Shaan stood at the half open door, watching the two of them…he gripped his fist, anger rise inside of him… Armaan …he still live inside his future wife's heart…he turned around when someone called his name…

"Mr Shah…they are here…" said the man…Shun nodded…he smiled evilly…it's payback time Armaan

"I will make you see her becoming mine…" Shaan said…smiling crookedly…
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Armaan felt cold inside his body…this is Ridhima's wedding day…but he is not the bridegroom…somehow, he felt a sharp pain stabbed his heart…then he saw Shaan…walking to him and Arashi… Armaan faked a smile and …so do the others Arashi…

"Well…well…thank you for giving out some time to be here today…I'm sure Ridhima and Muskaan will be happy to see you all…my guests too since Arashi is a very well-known idol right???" Shaan said after bowing to them back…Aiba smiled a bit, Atul looked bored and Ohno started walking to look for foods…only Rahul seems to be able to talk Shaan…but Shaan had his eyes only on Armaan …who in turned didn't back off under his sharp eyes stare…even Armaan too kept staring back at him…the two man who were fighting for the bride's love…

"No…no problem at all Mr Shah…we are glad we could be here…" Rahul said…Shaan eyes snapped to Rahul and he raised an eyebrow…

"I wonder why it is???" he asked Rahul…didn't it hurt Armaan to be in his lover wedding day??? Rahul smiled warmly at him…

"Because it is Ridhima's wedding…she is such a sweet girl we just couldn't let her down on this important day right??? Beside, Armaan is really a good present for her…" said Rahul innocently…Shaan laughed loudly…all the guests turned to look at them…even Armaan can't believed his ears at what Rahul was talking just now…

"Excuse me??? Mr Malik is the good present??? May I remind you that this is also my wedding day??? I am the groom here…" Shaan said proudly, looking back at Armaan giving him a I-win-her-okay looks… Armaan felt himself growing red…his temper is rising…

"Yes…yes…only you believe that…we all know how you work hard to be in this day…including torturing the girl that you love by forcing her to stay by your side…even when she didn't love you…you are only a loser…" said Armaan all of the sudden…Shaan walked nearing him and stood in front of him…he is taller than Armaan but Armaan didn't fear him at all…in fact he stared back at him…

"What make you said that???" Shaan asked… Armaan laughed loudly…

"Haven't you notice she isn't happy at all??? If I am you, I hate to see the one that I love happy with someone else but I surely hate it more to see the one that I love unhappy with me…that's what a man should do…you are acting none of it either…" Armaan answered firmly…Shaan narrowed his eyes…luckily at that time the MC called out…

"Hello…and welcome everyone to the wedding ceremony of Mr Shah and Miss Gupta…now before we begin the ceremony, Mr Shah had a surprise for his wife to be…he presented this song to her…and so the best group in India is going to sing it tonight!!! Let's us give a round of applause to Arashi!!!"…Shaan threw Armaan a warning look, indicating him to stay away from Ridhima…but Rahul pulled Armaan away from Rahul…Rahul stepped in between them…

"Mr Shah…do you believe in fate???" he asked…Shaan looked at him with a bored look then nodded…

"Well…congratulations for your wedding…" he said…then he walked to the stage, pulling Armaan along…when Armaan started walking ahead of him, Rahul stopped then turned to look at Shaan again…

"That's if you really get married today…" he said…then he waved and walked to the stage, leaving Shaan to control his anger alone…
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On the stage, Armaan took the microphone and stared down the stage, looking for Ridhima…but she is nowhere to be seen…he sighed…he touched the ring on his finger that was a sign of his engagement with Ridhima before…he didn't know why but he chose to put on that ring on this day…he just had the feeling that this ring will gave him some strength to move on…will gave him some power to let him smile when he see Ridhima  soon…will give him some braveness to let her go and stop loving her…

The music started…and the snow outside the church came falling down more tickly…the buzzing sound of people talking and muttering died at once…everybody were waiting for them to sing…and Armaan just knew the song too well…it is called tere bi jeelege hum…but it's really a one sad song…it doesn't suit a wedding day where people supposed to be all happy and so… Armaan wondered why Rahul had picked up this song instead of their many happy songs…at that same time, Ridhima and Muskaan  showed up by the church door…apparently, once the song ended, she will walked down the aisle to meet Shaan who was waiting in front of the priest…when she saw Armaan, she stopped walking at once…Muskaan  stopped behind her and she gave Armaan a weak smile…Ridhima's father came to her and he stood behind her, giving a bow to Armaan and Arashi…Atul started singing as Armaan continued to stare at Ridhima and she stared back at him…

Ab Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Ka Peelenge HumKya Hua Jo Ek Dil Toot GayaKya Hua Jo Ek Dil Toot Gaya Ab Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Ka Peelenge Hum
Ridhima looked at Armaan with her eyes wide open…she kept on thinking what the hell was Armaan doing here??? She remembered Ridhika's words…when everything in the world have gone wrong…all you have to do is look at the person you love and everything will be right again…and she felt it…she is home at last when she saw Armaan …she felt safe and happy at the sight of him looking at her…

Teri Aashiqui Bhi Kya Rang LayiWafa Maine Ki Tune Ki BewafaiMeri Bhool Thi Main Ye Kya Chahta ThaKisi Bewafa Se Wafa Chahta ThaTu Jaane Kya BekaraariBedard BemuravvatJa Sangdil HaseenaDekhi Teri MohabbatAb Maine Jaana Tujhko Beraham Armaan watched Ridhima greedily as he knew that this was the only innocent reason he could have to look at her…after this, he will have to forget all about her…stop loving her…and lose her forever…and he will have to learn that…and go on to life his live… Ab Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Ka Peelenge Hum Sanam Tod Deta Mohabbat Ke VaadeAgar Jaan Jaata Main Tere IraadeKise Maine ChaahaKahan Dil LagayaMain Naadaan Tha Kuchh Samajh Hi Nahin PaayaMere Aansuon Ke MotiAankhon Se Behta PaaniMere Toote Dil Ke TukdeTere Pyaar Ki NishaaniKaisa Main Bhoolonga Tere Sitamb


Ridhima started crying when the lyrics of the song caught her attention…still glued her eyes on Armaan …she knew that only one voice can call her on that sky…it's belong to Armaan …always him no matter he was Amar or Armaan …and as Ridhika, she did promised to Amar  that she will meet him again in their next life…and here she is…looking at Armaan …

 Ab Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaAb Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge Hum..


As Armaan sang his part of the song, his tears flowed slowly…his wound had never been heal…no…no matter how hard all the people around him trying to heal it…he wondered if he is able to meet her again in that tree where they both vowed to be together just like Amar and Ridhika did??? Ab Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaAb Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge Hum..
He understood her will to save him from losing his career…he understood her will to save Shaan's life…but even so, he can't help when his heart shattered into thousand pieces just when he realized that she is no longer his…

Ridhima o wished that she could turned over the time again…so that she won't have to leave Armaan again…because she love him…she truly love him… Ab Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaAb Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge Hum..Armaan wanted to share all of the sadness that Ridhima felt right now…he could tell that she was crying…her tears glimmered, shining on her pretty face…she must be the most prettiest bride in this world…lucky Shaan to have her… Armaan sang his part again...he no longer able to stand there and watched Ridhima vowing to be Shaan's wife...he thoughts he could take it...but no...he couldn't...he will leave the wedding once the song ended...he was determined on that... Ab Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaKya Hua Jo Ik Dil Toot GayaAb Tere Bin Jeelenge HumZahar Zindagi Peelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge HumJeelenge Hum..
The song ended with a big applause from all the guests…some of them had even stand up to show their gratitude to them…the girls seems to be wiping the tears away from their eyes… Armaan continued to look at Ridhima as she stared back at him…he mouthed the word 'congratulation' to her…then, bowing together with Arashi, they headed down the stage…reporters came in to greet them…somehow, the news that they will attended the wedding leaked out to the press…as they were all busying talking to the crowd, Armaan quickly slipping away, leaving the wedding…silence fell over the church when the MC announced that it will be the time for the bride to walk down the aisle…

"Where is Armaan???" asked Aiba where he saw Armaan no longer being with them…they all turned around to look for him but he was nowhere to be seen…

"I will look for him at the rest room…" said Atul urgently…they all nodded…but Rahul kept his gaze on Ridhima…

"Do it Ridhima…do it or both of you will regret it…" he muttered to himself as he watched Ridhima walking nearing Shaan at the front of the priest…

"Ridhima …why are you so weak??? You don't even can walk properly…" Mr Gupta said to Ridhima …he had to support her to keep her walking to Shaan…when he saw that Ridhima was crying, he turned to look at his wife…she looked somehow lost at words too…at last, they reached Shaan and the priest…Shaan held out his hand… Ridhima stared at his hand blindly…her tears still busying wetting her cheeks…his father let go of her and let her stood on her own… Ridhima gulped…she looked at Shaan with teary eyes…then she looked at her back and saw Arashi…but she can't see Armaan…where is he???

"Ridhima …" Shaan called her, trying to remind her that she is about to marry him…she turned to look at him…she gulped…then she held out her hand to Shaan…but she stopped halfway when she remembered Armaan…Armaan… and that is when everything click on her blank mind…

"Shaan…I'm sorry…but I can't do this…" Ridhima said…she looked up at him…no longer crying…Shaan looks like he was just being slapped by her hard on the face…

"What???" he asked in a high voice…the crowd had gone very quiet now…

"He is the man that I have always love…and I can't marry you knowing very well that I love him…and knowing that he always love me too…love is not measured by how you feel Shaan…but how you make the other person feel…and I don't love you the way you do towards me…I'm sorry…" Ridhima answered him…she took off her wedding veil and crown and put it on Shaan's still held out hand…she took off also the ring that Shaan gave to her…then she put on the ring that Ridhima gave to her and raised it to Shaan's eyes…

"This is the ring that I want on my finger…sorry but you just need to go with your life…you are strong man and a real man should be able to accept his own fate…forgive me and forget me please…" Ridhima said again…before Shaan was able to say anything to her, Ridhima ran to the door…Shaan tried to stop her but he was blocked in the way by Rahul and Atul… well..well.. see fate …now tell me who had won..dude ..your over ..said Rahul and  Shaan controlled is temper Ridhima stopped in front of her parents and Shan's parents and bowed to them…she apologized to them…Shaan's parents threw her an angry look and walked away in disgust but her parents were smiling…

"Go Ridhima …go and make him yours…" said Mr Gupta… Ridhima nodded then she looked at her mother…

"Go…find your true love…" she encouraged her as well… Ridhima smiled at her and she made it to the door…Muskaan  was waiting there, smiling widely, her pretty face soaked with tears of happiness…she held her arms wide open and Ridhima hugged her…

"That's my girl…I'm proud that I am your best friend…you are rock Ridhima!!!" she yelled while hugging her… Ridhima laughed…she let go of Muskaan  and handed her the bouquet of flower that she hold…

"I found my love and happiness…now this time…you need to find yours…" she said…she walked past her only to find herself looking at Aiba and Ohno…

"Yosh!! Go girl!!!" Ohno cheered…Aiba made a high-five hand at Ridhima and she slammed her hand on him…they grinned…then Ridhima took off her shoes, picked up her long gown and started running, looking for her prince…the press madly took her pictures and the crowd applause at her braveness…Muskaan ran behind her and when she couldn't catch up with her anymore, she stood there, yelling on top of her voice…

"Ridhima!!!! You need to be happy!!! Don't come home before you found him!!! Don't come home before you be Mrs Malik!!!"... Ridhima waved her hands at her, indicating that she heard her but go on running with a huge smile on her face, her hair shining under the weak sunlight of winter…Muskaan jumped on her feet for many times, celebrating the happiness that she felt towards Ridhima …then Ohno and Aiba came standing next to her, together they cheered for Ridhima and Armaan…when she heard Rahul  cheering along behind her…she turned around to tell him that their plan had worked…only…she ended up hugging him…

"What are you two doing???" asked Aiba, laughing madly at them…Rahul was frozen under Muskaan's arms, blushing madly while Muskaan looks confused…but she seems to not wanting to let Rahul go…Ohno looked at them with a huge grin then looked back at Ridhima who was no longer can be seen and continued to cheer at her…the clicking of the cameras around them kept on going…and Muskaan still held Rahul in her arms…back inside the church, Shaan still stood rooted to the spot where Ridhima had left him…Atul walked to him and patted his shoulders…

"You know what…people can't runaway from their fate…and the best man will always win the battle…you know why??? Because he fight it fair and square…no dirty tricks at all…" Atul said…then he walked away leaving Shaan to regret all of his stupendous actions…

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