Thursday, 24 May 2018

part 04 : My Heart Doesn't Beat Without You


RECAP

they both gone to a blissfull sleep in each others arm.. sleeping peacefully after a whole year... they don't know when they bboth drifted to sleep loving each other......

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next moring

ridhima was disturbed by the sudden sun ray falling on her cute smiling face...
she frown with the disturbance cause to her beautiful sleep....
she turn her head and hug the person next to her.... ,her love ,her life ,her passsion ,her possession ,her husband ,her armaan.......


she hug him more and dig her face in his crook of neck.. and again slept peacefully... again dreaming about them....

armaan too hug her with same passion.. and slept with his ridhima in his arms...... and he to slept with the million dollor smile on his face... and lost in the same dream with his ridhima.....

after sometime armaan woke up with the wetness on his chest... and look around... to see what was this sudden wetness on his chest.. and found ridhima's tear the reason to it....
armaan seprated ridhima from him and found the tears coming from her eyes .. when armaan shake her he found her sleeping... armaan wonder what is she dreaming about that she have a scary expression on her face and tears in her eyes...

Armaan shake ridhima and tried to get her apart from him so he can comfort her.. but sensing armaan moving away . ridhima clutch him more tightly.. not wanting to leave armaan .. what if he will disapper......

and armaan after strugling more when he can't come out of ridhima's grip and she was not waking up... armaan ligthly wisper to her.. sweet nothing... but those all words were not at all working.....

so he ligthly wisper to her asking her some question to which ridhima was also replying in sub-concious state of mind.....

armaan - ridhima .. kya hua koi bura sapna dekh rahi ho....
ridhima nodded...
armaan - kya hua sapne mein ...
ridhima- aalag hogaye.....
armaan have tear in his eyes,.....
armaan - armaan and ridhim aalga hua ... ???
ridhima nodded and tighten her grip on him ......

armaan cares her hair... and planting kisses on her hairs....
armaan - basket.. dekho tumhara armaan tumhare pass hain..... and he shook her. after wiping her tearsss..... ridhima was unaware of what all she said in uncouncious state.........
so ridhima very lightly open her eyes... and saw armaan in tears.....

ridhima immediatly gets up.....and sit on the bed adn armaan was still liying on the bed
ridhima - armaan... !!!! wiping his tears away.....
ridhima - armaan kya hua... tum ro kyun rahe ho........
armaan - just hug ridhima around her waist hiding his face in her laps.....

ridhima was confuse.... too much to see armaan in tear the very sec after opening her eyes.....
the first thing she wanted to see in morning was armaans dimpled smile but ... she was tears in his eyes....
ridhima cares his hairs... with tears start coming in her eyes....

ridhima - *choking* armaan....
armaan still hidden in her laps.... and spoke without moving even a little
in her laps.....

armaan - basket.. mein tumhe kabhi chod kar nahi jaunga.. kabhi bhi nahi .. i promise....
ridhima - armaan ....
armaan - i promise basket.. ab mein kahin nahi jaunga tumhe chod kar....
ridhima - armaan !!! kya hua hai.. plz mujhe batao.....
armaan - basket i promise.....
ridhima- armaan mera se kuch galti hui kya... tum aise...

armaan - nahi basket.. tumse koi galti nahi hui... galt toh mein tha.... jo mein tumhe chod kar chala gaya... plz mujhe maaf kardo basket.. mein nahi jaana chahata tha... par mein tumhari zindagi barbad nahi karna chahata tha aapne saath saath isliya chala gaya tha....

ridhima - aarmaan aisa kyun bol rahe ho.. tumne kuch galta nahi kiya vo toh.. tumne bus mera liya kiya tha na... hamare pyaar ke liya....

armaan - nahi basket vo sab mein ne aapne liya kiya... kyun ki mein tumhe roz bebas nahi dekh sakta tha... mein tumhare saamne toh roz rahta par vo armaan nahi rahta jisse tumne pyaar kiya tha... aur tumhe roj aapne saame tadapta dekhta rahta aur kuch nahi kar pata......
ridhima - nahi armaan ..

armaan- nahi basket aaj mujhe bolne do...
tumhe pata hain basket.. jab mein tujhe chod kar gaya ... tab mein tumhe bilkul nahi chodna chahata tha... kyun ki doctors ne bola tha ki tumhari Backboone sahi nahi hogi... mein tut gaya tha basket...... mein chahata tha ki mein tumhare pass rahe kar tumhari dekh bhal karun... tumhe pamper karun.. tumhari sari demands tumhare bolne se pehle puri karun.. tumhare roz ke kam karun... tumhe koi bhi kam nahi karne dun.... par jab mujhe pata chala ki mein kuch tym baad bilkul ek chote bache ki mental state par aa jaunga.. mujhe pata tha tab mein tumhara dhayan nahi rakh paunga.. aur tumhare liya danger ban jaunga.... mein aisa nahi kar sakta tha.. basket.....

aagar mein tab rukh jata tumhara dhayan rakhne ko .. aur baad mein jaata toh tum mujhe kabhi nahi jaane deti.. tum meri aankho mein dekh kar sab samjhe jaati .. aur mein nahi chahata tha aisa kuch ho..isi liya mein tumhare hosh mein aane se pehle chala gay tha.....

par jab tum usse ladke ke saath mujhe dhundh ne aai tab mujhe ek aur nai umeed jaagi... mein aapna ilaaj toh karwa hi raha tha.. par uska koi faiyeda nahi ho raha tha....
par jab tumhe dekha ki tum mujh dundhne aai ho.. tab mein sari medication ko respond karne laga.... doctor bhi hairan the... ki aachanak aise kaise ho gaya..... par unhe nahi pata tha meri jindagi mera pass lout aai thi.....

aur jb mein ne tumhe behosh dekha aapne cottege mein toh aapne aap par bahut ghussa bhi aaya.....ki kyun mein hi hamesha vo insaan hota hun jo tumhe hamesha haste hua dekhna chahata hai par ye chahte hua bhi sirf aur sirf dard hi deta hun....

ridhima - nahi armaan tumne mujhe koi dard nahi diya hai.. hain mein maanti hun ki tab jab mein theek nahi thi hospital mein paadi thi tab mujhe laga tha tum hamesha saath honge chaahe mein pehli jaise rahun ya na rahun .....

armaan - hain basket mein hamesh tumhare saath rahunga.. kahin nahi jaunga.. kahin bhi nahi ... bus tu mujhe maaf kar do plz.... mein tumhare binaa nahi ji sakta.......

ridhima - armaan meri puri baat toh sun lo pehle.....
armaan nodded his head as an innocent kid.....

ridhima (smile through tears) - aur jab mujhe pata chala tum chalega tab mujhe bahut dard hua tha...
but jab mujhe sachai pata chali toh mujhe aapne upar bahut garv hua.. ki mein ne aapne liya duniya ka sab se ache insaan ko chunna hai, pasand kiya hai, pyaar kiya hai....
ek aise insaan se jo hamesha aapni khushi se pehle meri khushi ki parwah karta hain...........
mujhe garav tha tum par bhi ki kaise mera armaan itni aasani se mujhe koi dukh na ho isliya mera armaan ne aapni basket ki bhi saari takli bina aapni bakset ke pata lage aapne upaar le li.. aur akele sahan karta raha..........
mein maanti hun mein shuru mein bahut hurt thi....
pyaar se nafrat karne lagi thi ....
pyaar se hi nahi aapne aapse nafrat karne lagi thi..... puri duniya se nafrat hogai har rishte se naftra karne lagi thi.... par itni nafrat mein bhi mein kabhi bhi tumse nafrat nahi kar pai.....
nafrat karna toh dur mein kabhi bhi tumhe ek pal ke liya bhi nahi bhul pai......
bhulti bhi kaise ek bekar koshish jo kar rahi thi ..... ek aise insaan ko bhulana chahati thi jo meri jindagi mein sirf dost pyaar lover philosiper guide hi nahi aaya tha.. balki meri jindagi bangaya tha...
jo sirf mera saath hi nahi rahta tha balki mera aanda puri tarah se ghul chuka tha.... meri har raj mein sirf vo hi basa hai....
tum khud hi batao armaan mein kasie bhul jati tumhe jab mera mujhe mein kuch bhi nahi bacha tha mera aandar toh bus tum hi tum saama chuke the......toh tumhe bhul kar mein vo purani ridhima kahan se le aati jab vo kahin thi hi nahi...............
aur is koshish mein mein aapne aapse bhi ruth gai thi.....

armaan - nahi basket itna pyaar mat karo mujhe mein itna pyaar deserve nahi karta.... mein ne tumhe sirf dard diya hai hamesha... aur tum mujhe hamesha pyaar karti rahti ho.... mein itna pyaar deserve nahi karta basket plz mujhse itna pyaar na karo.....

ridhima - nahi armaan tum isse bhi jayada pyaar deserve karte ho.....
mein ne toh kabhi bhi tumhe iss had tak pyaar nahi kiya jis had ko tumne mujhe par pyaar ki barsat karte hua paar kar liya hai....
tumhse jayada is duniya mein koi bhi pyaar deserve nahi karta.......
tum is duniya mein sab se jayada pyaar deserve karte... ho.... kabhi kabhi mujhe dar lagta hai armaan kya mein tumhe uthna pyaar de bhi paungi yaa nahi jitna tum mujse pyaar karte ho...... mein kitna bhi hadein (limits) par kar lun pyaar ki armaan par tumhare jitna pyaar jitna tum mujhse karte ho utna mein tumhe kabhi nahi kar paungi armaan .............

armaan - mujhe aur pyaar nahi chiaye basket... bus tum mera saath hamesha rahan.. kabhi bhi mujhe chod kar maat jaan plz .. ridhima... mein nahi jii paunga tumhare bin.... ye kuch mahine mein ne tumhare bilna kasie gujare haim mein aache se jaanta hun .. aur aagar mujhe kabhi dubara tumse dur hona pada na kissi bhi wajha se toh tumhara ye armaan wahin ki wahi mar jayega...

mujhe maaf kar denga ridhima plz.... mein nahi rah sakta tumhar bina...... plz mujhe maaf kar do .....
ridhima kabhi bhi mein tumhe kuch galti ke bol dun na toh plz.. tum mujhe daatna .. mujhe maarna... mujhse ghussa ho jana.... mera kuch bhi karna par kabhi bhi mujhe chod kar mat jana.. mera tumhare sivaye koi nahi hai ridhima... plz basket...
ridhima - hain armaan mein jaungi bhi kahan ..... aab toh ye hi *moving more in his arms* mera ghar hai... aur mein aapna ghar chod kar kahan jaungi.........

Aayushi

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