Thursday, 16 August 2018

part 6 : Love Endures All


I remember It All

Before having the lunch together ridhima came back in the room once with something in her hands. “Armaan Tumne us din kitne ache signature kare the na…” armaan nodded enthusiastically remembering it.
‘Tum Mom aur Maa ko nahi dikhaoge ke Kitne ache Signature hain armaan ke” armaan get excited to hear her when he ran inside to get paper and pen but when he came back ridhima asked him not to sign there on the paper he got but on the paper she have in her hand.

Ridhima gave the paper to him but he look up at ridhima “Par is mein toh kuch likha hain” armaan asked childishly seeing the paper was not blank. Ridhima nodded at his question but then he asked again “par us din toh mein ne blank paper pe kiye the” ridhima smile hearing him as he was afraid isn’t he spoiling this paper have something on it. “It’s okay Tum apne ache se Signature toh kar ke dikhao”.
Smilingly armaan get back to the paper in front of him and he was asked ridhima to sign on the specific place. Without any fuss he did his creative signature on that place pointed by ridhima. Padma and Ananya were confused as why ridhima was doing all this play of signature and what that paper hold. So to quit the un-asked question Ananya ask ridhima “Beta ye kya kar rahe ho aap” though she never doubt ridhima of her intention but the things that’s going on was confusing both the ladies. Ridhima turn to them hearing Ananya asking the question so even Padma asked it “Haan ridhima ye sab kya kar rahi ho tum” to which ridhima said “Ek minute Maa bus abhi batati hun main. Ek minute.” And then turning back to armaan she asked him to once again make his signature and he without question in his excitement wanting to show case his creative talent to his Mom and Maa, he did signatures again.

“Great Chalo aab Maa aur Mom ko dikhate hain” nodding armaan got up and walk with ridhima around towards the ladies. “Dekho Maa Mom mein ne kitne ache signature kiya hain” both ladies look at ridhima when she nodded while indicating a yes to them. Both of them cares armaan’s cheek appreciating him “Arye wah mera Armaan ne toh bahut ache signature kiya hain” appreciated Padma “Haan aur dekho toh kitni achi writing hai Mera armaan ki” Ananya continued on the same line.
Getting all happy armaan get back to his teddy telling him how much he was appreciated. Ridhima smiled seeing him talking to the teddy telling him things and then she turn back to see the questioning eyes of both mothers. “Aab aap dono bhi signature karo” Ridhima asked them offering them the pen in her hand. “Ridhima ye sab kya hain” Padma asked

“Kuch nahi Maa Mom ye papers Bus mera aur armaan ke Marriage Registration Papers hain” Ridhima replied shocking both her Mom and Maa out of their wits.
“Par ridhima ye sab…. Kyun” Ananya asked ridhima. “Haan ridhima ye sab itni jaldi kyat hi ek baar armaan sahi ho jata toh hum ache se tum  dono ki shaadi karwa dete par ye aise kyu….” Padma pitch in.
“Aur ab toh Doctors ne bhi bol diya hai armaan ke kaffi chances hain theek hone ke toh beta aap aisa kyun kar rahi hain.” Ananya questioned her.
“Aur beta tumhara yahan rahne se mujhe koi dikat hain aur na hi kisi ke kuch bolne ki fikar hai humein ridhima phir kyun.” Padma told ridhima her set of mind.
Ridhima smiled hearing both mothers. “Maa Ye mein apne liya nahi armaan ke liya kar rahi hun maa.. Mom armaan ko bachpan mein andhere se dar lagta tha toh uska vo dar uske bachpan ke saath wapas aa gaya hain. Aur vo…. Maa… mom vo armaan raat mein akele nahi so pata. He need someone to be with him. Aur mujhe koi dar nahi hain par mein…. Mein janti hun ki armaan jab theek ho jayega he will be guilty of this. He will curse himself that because of him I have to sleep with him before getting in wedding bond. I know there is nothing intimate between us but I know armaan, he will not understand that then, he will be only blaming himself so... This is just to save him from that guilt. Mera armaan bina kisi wajha se apne aap ko guilt mein rakhe I don’t like it so this is just a small thing I can do. Aur phir jab armaan sahi ho jayega hum waise hi shaadi kar lege jaise aap log aur armaan chahega. But abhi ke liya registration wedding hi kafi hain.”
Ananya have tears I her eyes hearing her while Padma have a beautiful smile on her face.
Ananya cares her cheeks “Jab armaan ne pehli baar mujhe tumhare baare mein bataya than a tab mujhe laga tha ki shayad armaan flow mein abhi ye bol rha hain kyun ki uski pasand toh hamesha modern dressed ladki rahi thi. Par jab tumhse mili thi tab mujhe laga ki nahi armaan sach mein tumhe bahut chahata hain. Aur tum usko vo saara pyaar dogi jo shayad mein nahi de paai jo mujhe dena chaiye tha vo pyaar jo vo deserve karta tha aapni maa se. par aab mujh lagta hain ki tumhara pyaar use sare dard bhula dega.”
Ridhima caught her hand in between her hands “Mom Janti hun armaan ne apko bahut miss kiya hain par pata hain armaan kya kehta hain.. armaan kehta tha ki uski mom best hain kyu ki unhone use janam diya toh kya hua agar kabhi sath nahi rha paya mein unke mujhe pata hain meri mom mujhse bahut pyaar karti hain tabhi toh mera bulate hi mera pass aa gayi meri ridhima se milne. Pehle mein bahut ghussa hota tha mom pe ki kaise unhone mujhe chod diya kabhi yaad bhi nahi kiya par pata hain unhone mera ko hostel bheja taki mein shaadi ke rishte se na bhagun apne mom dad ko dekh ke... aura cha hi huna na unhone mujhse shaadi ke rishte mein nafrat hone se bacha liya nahi toh mein kabhi shaadi pe vishwas hi nahi kar pata. Par Dekhna hamari shaadi ke baad mom tumhare hi saath diya karengi par mein bhi Padma maa ko aapni team mein kar lunga.”
“Mom is mein aapki koi galti nahi hain ki aap armaan ko time nahi de pai par halat hi kuch aise the. Manti hun aapki aur dad kin nok jhok mein armaan ne apne mom dad ka pyaar thoda kam mila par aap logon ne jo bhi kiya kiya toh armaan ke hi liya tha na. its okay mom, aur dekho aap aab armaan ka bachpan ji sakti ho phir se. Jo kuch bhi hota hain usmein kuch aacha chupa hota hain janti hun ye sab nahi hona chaiye tha par shayad ye sab bhagwan ne isliya kiya kyun ki vo bhi aapko aur armaan ko uske bachpan phir se jeena sikha de is baar pura pyaar se saath.”
Padma was looking at ridhima all this while “Kya hua maa aap aise kya dekh rahi ho” ridhima asked seeing Padma staring at her continuously.
“Kuch nahi bus ye dekh rahi thi ki pata hi nahi laga mujhe toh kab meri choti si ridhima itni badi ho gai, ki aab apni jindagi ko itni mushkilon ke baad bhi itni sujh bujh se sambhal sake. I am so proud of you ridhima. Beta pyaar toh har koi kar leta hain par usko nibhana, haar sukh dunkh mein, sab ke bus ki bata nahi hoti. Mein darti thi ki kahin meri ridhima mein us insaan ki (ridhima’s biological father) bewafai na nikle mein bhul gait hi ki meri beti mein sanskar aur pyaar dono apne papa ke hain (shashank) tumne armaan ka saath de ke mujhe bahut proud feel karaya hai. Ki ye hain meri ridhima kisi ka haath agar thaamle toh maarte dum tak nahi chodegi. I am so proud of you.”

Ridhima hugged Padma hearing her “Aur aap bhi toh ho jissne mujhe paida kiya hain pyaar nibhana toh apne aap acha tha, phir jab armaan ne aaj tak mera liya itna kuch kiya hain toh kya mein ek baar bhi uske liya kuch nahi kar sakti aur waise bhi use Jayda ye mera khud ke liya hai. Nahi rah sakti uske bina toh ye sab toh karna hi tha”

Ridhima felt a tug on her dhupatta, turning around she look back to see armaan standing behind her tugging on her dhupatta, so ridhima asked with her eyes “what happen”.
“Vo mujhe bhook lagi hain.. “ he said with the pouting face but before ridhima could say or move to make something both the mothers in the house pitched in.

“Mein banati hun” Padma Ananya said together then look towards each other.
“Mein armaan ki fav. Aloo paratha banaungi” Ananya said while Padma choose her own dish “Okay then mein armaan ki fav. Kheer banaugi, what say” and hearing them armaan’s innocent eyes lit up in excitement, getting to have his fav. Food.

Ridhima was asked to sit with Armaan, soon both mothers were in the kitchen cooking while catching up with each other and praising their kids. The bell rang before ridhima could go to check who it was Armaan run towards door thinking it will be Nikki ridhima smile at his kid-like nature then move behind him to see who it was. As both were expecting it to be Nikki so seeing Rahul and Anjali standing there shocked ridhima while Armaan was looking blankly towards there face.
“Hello, Armaan. Kaise ho” Anjali asked him hugging him. Nikki has already told them about his state of mind. Anjali just wanted to greet him hug him as he was the first friend she made in sanjeevni he was the one who helped everyone no matter the trouble he gets into while helping them. Followed by her Rahul hugged him patting his back “Hey Armaan… great to see you after long”
But all this while Armaan was standing as blank as white paper. Then they hugged ridhima too greeting her smiling at her but Armaan didn’t say anything as they both are strangers to him.
“Armaan apne Doston ko Nahi pehchane ye Rahul aur ye Anjali tumhare bahut ache dost hai ye,” ridhima said hearing her Armaan looked towards them still blank then a slow smile came to his lips. “Mera itne saare dost hai” he asked with twinkle in his eyes to which Rahul said “aur kya armaan ke toh aur bhi dost hain jaise mein, Anjali indicating at her direction, atul, muskaan, sapna aur Abhimanyu” telling their name when armaan said “aur nikki bhi” with that he clapped his hands.
“aur kya bahut sare dost hain tumhare, tum itna aache ho to ye sab dost tumhe bahut Pyaar Karte hain” Anjali but in.  happy with the fact that he has more friends Armaan holds Rahul's and Anjali's hand pulling them with him while ridhima followed them with a smile on her face.

Soon the Food was arranged for all of them. Padma was feeding Armaan lovingly caressing his hairs as he was eating with the smile. Anjali complains “Mom Mein aapki beti hun ya ye Armaan,” she said that out of her habit in a teasing tone but this time Armaan wasn’t in proper mind to understand her fake complain so he stopped eating from Padma's hand making the sad face. Anjali realizes her mistake “Vo kya hain na armaan tumhare dost ho na toh mom hum se jayada tumse pyaar karti hain humein bhul hi jati hai” she tried to handle the situation but armaan’s baby mind thought something else “Padma maa aap Anjali ko khila do… main bhi mom ko miss Karta tha Mera Karan vo apko miss kar rhi hain, mein acha dost Nahi hun par Anjali tum ghus Nahi hona. Please” but when Anjali tried to make it clear ridhima but in understanding, he was taking something else from anjali’s word so ridhima made him understand that cause nothing but next second armaan was again eating his food from padma’s hand but this time teasing her showing her tongue. While all laugh at his childishness.
Rahul was not knowing what to say as he has seen Armaan in always a boss like the hold of life living it like a head of his own life, not following everyone blindly but making his own way letting them follow him. He has always lived life kind size not afraid of anything that this Armaan who was asking for everything he does is totally new to him. This sentimental Armaan is totally new to him so he thought it’s better not to say anything for now but to just play with him.

It’s been a month since Anjali and Rahul came to meet him since then Ananya was staying with them while the Padma keeps coming daily in morning but left late in evening back to Gupta house. On another hand Anjali, Rahul, Nikki, muskaan, Atul everyone came to meet Armaan and ridhima spending their weekend at his place pampering him playing with him.
He was too happy with all the attention he was getting in his life now. Even the medicines were showing great healing in his state which gradually lead him to have tones of questions in his mind while ridhima was not able to answer them properly not know what thing might trigger his pain but never the less armaan was unconsciously doing things that he was habitual of doing them before that incident.
One day ridhima went to meet doctor giving Armaan his dose of medicine making him sleep. She knew he won’t wake up before 3-4 hours so telling Ananya about it she went away. After she went Ananya to felt sleep for some time so she moved to her room to have rest. Here Armaan who saw sleeping from an hour woke up all sweating screaming ridhima’s name with hell like the pain in his head. He tried to stand out of the bed for going to see where ridhima is and how she is but then the pain in his made him unstable on feet making him fall on the bed. Holding his head in his hand he pressed it trying to suppress the pain but then a series of moments flashed in his mind. Everything came like a fast forward picture in his mind from him stepping in junior school then going to the college making friends then getting appointment letter of prestigious hospital Sanjeevni, him stepping in sanjeevni having fight with ridhima meeting friends, falling in love with her, their roka, his memory loss, their engagement in the hospital ward, them getting injured, and then all the moment they spend after ridhima took him out of that mental care hospital till today.

Remembering it all Armaan with having tears in his eyes with a smile on his lips. “I love you ridhima” whispering that Armaan remembers she went to meet his doctor as being in that stated he was afraid of going to hospitals. Moving around the house he admires his house as he was here after long in his sense when he was guest room open reminding him of Ananya being there with them staying to be with him when he needed her the most. Moving to her room Armaan saw her sleeping so walking him he settles down near her feet, slowly Armaan lay beside Ananya hugging her wanting to feel her motherly blessing which broke Ananya's sleep. Armaan smile looking into her eyes, Ananya finds his smile warmth rather than a childish hint in it, she raised her eyes to hear “I love you, mom. Thank you for coming and loving me” that was it her confusion was clear. She just hugged him dearly “I love you too beta. I love you so much”

Both of them keep hugging each other Armaan holding her around the waist while Ananya cares his hairs. No one was sleeping just the love was surrounding them. Soon they broke apart went they heard the main door of the house open up, knowing it must be ridhima Armaan moved out of the room to see its ridhima only. Ananya too moved with Armaan, Armaan moved towards ridhima while ridhima was the first surprise to see him awake as she had given him medicine that always makes him sleep for 3-4 hours but today he is awake. But that was not all this walk was also telling her something then look in his eyes she got admiration for herself before she can say it out armaan reach out to her taking the bag out of her hand he kept it in one side on the couch that was kept nearby.
Ridhima was confused all this while, but then Armaan after keeping the things safely look back at her then what he did next shock ridhima. He just holds her face in his palms and kissed her forehead lingering his lips there for some time. Pulling himself away Armaan said looking into her eyes “I love you basket”. No words came out of her lips so the tears made their way out of her eyes taking in the reality in her system.

Ananya who was standing in the doorway saw ridhima looking at her she just nodded her head. Armaan too followed her gaze, he saw his mother nodding, and he knew ridhima saw just asking for confirmation from his mother that whatever she is seeing isn’t dream already.
Armaan smiled before kissing her tears away. “Ye sach hai ridhima. Meri yaadash waps aa gai hain”
Ridhima was blank not know what to say or what not. She wanted to tell him who she felt when he felt her when she came to know about the reality that her father was hiding, want to tell him how she felt seeing him in that state where he didn’t recognize her at all. But then she doesn't want to make him sad with the past talk knowing nothing will change repeating them now.

Aayushi

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