Monday, 10 December 2018

part 10 : Lucky...Who? Me...?

"LEAVE ME ALONE RIDDHIMA.." I shouted as I turned and sat on the couch holding my head…I know I shouldn't have shouted on her…I mean…I know it's not completely her fault but..how could she be… "armaan…I am.." I looked up to see her standing in front of me..her eyes filled with tears… "riddhima please I beg you just leave me alone ..please.." I begged her to see the hurt on her face…hurt that I caused her as I shouted on her… "but arma…"….. "riddhima please.." I cut her to see her leaving the room…

Pacing around I recalled what all happened since we came back from the trip…I was so happy..finally I felt that this is the first time I did something right.. I had even forgotten about the deal..but I suppose he didn't and as soon as we reached home I got a call from him asking me to meet me…since the deal started every time when even he calls me to meet him for something important… I could hear the fire alarm in my head…but this time even I was prepared..i had made up my mind that I will tell him about us…about me and riddhima that I love her and I won't leave her … as I entered the room I could feel the tension brewing up…I sat on the chair and looked at him…he was indeed tensed…and looking at him..even I felt a bit uneasy…. "armaan what is this.." he said as he kept the divorce
papers in front of me…. "why haven't you sign it …." He asked as I looked down…. "dad I can't do this…I won't give her a divorce…" I told him…. "what do you mean you won't give her a divorce..don't tell me that you love her…" getting no response I guess he got his answer… "armaan you can't just back off now..now that everything is going according to our plan…come on now sign the papers... "…..it was like he wasn't asking me or telling me but ordering me… . "no dad I won't sign the papers.." this time even I was adamant … "I won't back off" I thought and taking out the papers from the file I tore them off …in front of his face… "ARMAAN…. " he shouted…but even I was prepared for this…I knew one day it has to happen…and today is the day…. "sorry dad but I love her and if you have so much problem with her then we'll leave the house tomorrow…." Saying this I left the room….

Walking back to my cabin..i had a mixed feeling… I don't know… I was happy coz this time I was right and I stood for it…I mean this was the first time I had ever talked to him like this….but I was sad too… after  what all I told him…but it was necessary… I was hoping that he will understand me….and gamble that I had played telling him that I will leave the house will work in my favor…. Keeping my fingers crossed i entered my room and waited for him to come….

From morning till evening I waited..But he didn't come…I thought that I was losing this battle… as I was about to leave …he came to my room as I looked at him in disbelief…. "dad you  here…." I asked him… I had to act as if I was surprised seeing him there…. But the reality was I wasn't ..it's just that he came a bit late that what I had expected… "son..the whole day I thought about what you said..and now I have realized my mistake…for me you are the most important and if you love her then I promise I won't ever let my ego come between your relationship…" …. After hearing him I was surprised …a bit taken back coz I had never imagined him saying this to me.. I know that he loves me…but he loves his business too… and saying this hard hitting dialogues…don't be surprised…. Today I got to know that these were just his mere tactics to stop me from going… why am I saying this..well that you come to know soon…so as I hugged him..i thought he has changed….and now me and riddhima will live happily ever after….and now I won't had to tell her about the deal… which is the main cause of everything….But I was so wrong….he hugged me and told me that he won't ever to this again..and he even asked me to forgive me…now this was like really weird..he asking me to forgive him…but as everything was going smoothly and I was afraid to take chances I told him "it's okay dad…."….and hugged him…but I had no idea what was about to come next…..

Coming back home I had this smile on my face…a smile of victory…a satisfaction that now everything will be back and no more hide and seek games I was playing till now….but still I felt that something was not right… I don't know.. .. couldn't figure it out that time but now I know….why I wasn't feeling good… it was coz dad…my dad….made me sign the divorce papers again…how?....well after that day when we had the small chit chat…everything was slowly going back to normal..normal in the sense..dad started talking ..laughing..with us…. Us means me  and riddhima… I mean he used to talk only when I was around with her..sometimes even riddhima used to ask me as to why dad doesn't talk to her the way he talks with others..and every time I had to tell her that he don't open up easily… he takes time….i know that I was lieing..but I had no other option… but as days passed he started opening up..i thought that maybe now he realizes his mistake…but then he dropped the bomb….and by the time I got to know it was too late….



One day I had a very important meeting to attend..and he came to my cabin..he wanted my sign…as I was in a hurry I signed it..but not without reading them… I guess he knew that I won't sign without reading them….and that day I guess it was his plan to make me sign the papers to after every few hours he used to send some papers or other to make me sign..saying it's for some kind of deal ..some business  he is starting in riddhima's name..and till night I was so fed up that when he came himself to make me sign the papers I sign it without looking at them..and now you know what that paper was all about ..he made me sign the divorce papers..at that time I had no idea that I signed not the business deal papers but my divorce papers…I got to know about it today morning..i was about to enter his cabin when I heard him talking about the divorce papers and how he made me sign the papers…my first reaction was that I couldn't believe that he could do something so cheap …. I thought that he had changed himself but no…. I was completely wrong…hearing him say that I just wanted to storm into the room..grab his collar and ask him how could he do this to me..but I knew that as the divorce papers are with him ..right now he has the upper hand and I'll have to think of something else….

As I was thinking how to tackle this situation coz I didn't wanted riddhima to know anything about this..i knew that she won't be able to take this…but even I had no idea what I should do next…. Going straight to dad and talk to him was a complete no-no …..and this time it was even impossible to steal the divorce papers coz I knew that this time even he was prepared and he wouldn't have kept it anywhere where I could find it…but still I had this slight satisfaction that since only I had signed the papers and not riddhima I still have some time to do something…sometime to make him stop….as nayonika knew about the deal I called her and told her what all my dad did behind my back..no not behind my back but right in front of me and I couldn't even do something…. My mind had completely stopped working I needed someone to share my problem with and as only nayonika knew about everything I called her…I was just thinking about riddhima….what if dad ..told her… no..no no….i have to do something before he plans his next move..and god know what he has in his mind…

I was still talking to nayonika when riddhima entered the room…looking at her face I knew today I am dead..but the opposite happened ….she reacted totally different …I still don't know why…anyways that wasn't the real reason.. the main reason was what is she doing here in the office…I mean I didn't called her and I knew for the fact that she won't come on her own..then why…as I tried asking her she finally blurted out that dad had called her and that was it… the fear which I was so trying to avoid had actually happened and I couldn't do anything….and if that wasn't enough I even shouted on her…I had no idea what I was doing at that time…I could see the consequences very clearly… the dirty game he was playing ….he was ruining my life ….riddhima's life… our life and I couldn't do anything except look like a mere puppet…doing what the master told him to do ….

As soon as riddhima left I went to his cabin ..to ask him "why..dad…why.."…. but to my surprise he acted as if he was innocent and he did nothing…. "Son what are you talking about…" this was his reply… I was totally shock…after ruining my life he is still asking what am I saying…  "enough dad….you know what…leave it…I very well know what you have done..and what you are planning to do…business…business..business….this is what you care about….you never really cared about me..it was always business…but not now dad…you did whatever you had planned..but now it's my turn… today I will tell her everything…right from the beginning…how this all started and now what you have done…I know she'll be hurt…and she won't forgive me easily..but she loves me and I know that one day she'll forgive me…I won't let anything come between us..not even you dad…" shouting at him I was about to leave the room when I heard him saying…. "you won't do anything...I won't let you ruin my plan armaan and I'll make sure of it…" this was his exact words…. It kept ringing in my head as soon as I left the office… what is he planning to do now…. He said he'll make sure of it..i have to do something before it's too late…..

As I entered the room I saw her …before I could even I saw something…she started yelling at me…I had no idea what she was saying…as I was still planning to figure out what to do ….and I again shouted at her and asked her to leave the room…and now it's been like 2 hours and I still don't know what to do…I never wanted her to know anything about the deal..but as I am running out of ideas as well as time I have no other option left but to tell her the truth and I am ready to face the consequences..whatever happens…

Walking down the stairs I saw her sitting at the dining table asleep ... looking at her face I knew that she was crying…I tried waking her up..i had to talk to her tonight… "riddhima…." I whispered…to see her turn her face the other way… "riddhima…." I whispered ..this time shaking her a bit..but I guess she was really tired  as she just turned her face from one side to another…picking her up I went to our bedroom and placed her on the bed..i sat next to her as I looked at her… as today's incident came in front of my eyes… but thinking about the pain I had caused her today..by shouting at her….i mean ..i don't know why I did this…why I shouted at her…she has no idea what games dad is playing with us…and I took out my frustration on her…. "I am sorry riddhima..i should have told you everything….but I guess I was scared..scared of losing you… scared of not looking at your face when I get up…scared of seeing the emptiness in my life….the emptiness of you not being with me..by my side… but now I have to do this.. I know I you'll be hurt..and I am sorry but I promise this will be the last time…and I won't let anything happen to you…. ever….tomorrow I'll tell you everything…please forgive me this time… I LOVE YOU RIDDHIMA…." Kissing her forehead I moved to the other side and switched off the light….as I prepared myself for tomorrow….

 As I opened my eyes I saw her running around the whole room…keeping things at the proper place…cleaning and all….i closed my eyes and took a deep breath as i stood up and looked at her…. "riddhima…" I called her to see her stop but she didn't even turned to look at me… "riddhima…" I went closer to her and turned her to see her eyes filled with tears….but this was not the time to pacify her…I have to tell her the truth….grabbing her hand I made her sit on the bed as I sat down on the floor as I looked at her face…  "armaan…I am sorry about yesterday..i shouldn't have shouted you like that… please forgive me…"… "huh…" I looked her …. My face depicting different emotions all at once…confused..Surprised…. mad …as well as happy.. happy coz she said this so cutely just like a baby… focus armaan focus…. "riddhima…listen ..i have something very important to tell you.. ." but I was cut by her… "no armaan ….first tell me that you forgive me….please armaan I am sorry…."…… "how should I tell her that after listening to me I'll be the one asking her to forgive me.." …….. "riddhima…listen baby… i…"…… "no armaan first say that you are not mad at me…."…… "okay fine riddhima…I am not mad and I forgive you…. now can i…."… I looked at her to see her smiling at me…as she hugged me… "riddhima…whatever I am about to say now….i know it will be hard for you to digest and you won't take it easily…but I promise.. this is the last time…and ..and…." I was finding it very difficult to speak properly as I could feel my heart beating faster….i looked at her to see the smile totally vanished from her face…as she looked at me…. "what is it armaan..?"  she asked me as I could see the nervousness  in her eyes… "riddhima…. I….." I was about to complete when her cell started ringing…. She picked up her cell as I saw her face turning pale…as tears formed in her eyes….she stood up as I saw the cell landing on the floor..as she started crying…. "what is it riddhima…" I stood up to see her looking at me in shocked… "arm…armaan…armaan…d..a….da..dad…."



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