Friday, 7 December 2018

part 7 : Lucky...Who? Me...?

I looked at his face…he indeed was blushing… "armaan are you blushing?"… I asked him..just wanted to confirm…  I looked at him..he didn't said anything but I got my answers.. " that's really weird" I thought.. "armaan you are really annoying me…just tell me..or…or I'll never speak to you again".. I was desperate to know..about last night..more precisely about what I did last night…that now I started losing my temper… "riddhima…last night"… "yes armaan.." but he again started making those weird faces..that was it.. I stood up and was about to leave.. "riddhima last night..you were all over me"… he said this in a single breath… "what?"..i turned and looked at his face.. ".and then…"…. "and then what?...".okay so he just said something which is so not possible.. I looked at his face… this time he was damn serious… "riddhima he is just lieing…he is lieing"..These thoughts kept coming in my mind.. "armaan you are lieing…right"… I said… I don't know why but it was so hard to believe him… okay so I had few drinks..but I don't think that I could ever do this..specially in a drunk condition… "riddhima..see that's why I never wanted you to know this in the first place…you must be thinking that I am making up all this stuff…and that I am lieing…"… I tried imaging what would have actually happened… "no way"… I told myself… "armaan…armaan.." I tried talking to him..but he just turned his face the other way… "armaan…listen to me…it's just that I never thought
I could do something of this sort…"….. "riddhima…it's okay…." He said as he cupped my face in his hands.. "it was your first time..that's why now you are finding it weird…but baby it's true"…. He tried pacifying me…but how could I … "and then what armaan…"… I asked him… "riddhima and then you kissed me…. kissed me in the middle of the road..with people watching us from both sides"…my eyes widen after what I heard… "riddhima…I told you it's okay..the good thing was that atleast…you kissed me.."… "how can anyone expect me to be okay….just look at him…he is so chilled"… I thought…He shifted his chair a bit closer … "riddhima and then…."….. "still more left…wasn't this enough… " I thought… as tears started forming…. "riddhima…and then…" he whispered coming closer to me… he took my hands in his…and looking straight in my eyes… "riddhima and then… you shouted….armaan get up or I'll puck on you"".. saying this he ran towards the door…standing at the door I saw him laughing at me… "riddhima just look at your face…you thought that you actually…"… he was laughing so hard… and then I realize that nothing of this sort happened and all this was a plain lie.. "armaan… I won't leave you…I'll kill you…" I ran after him…all this while he was just making fun of me…and be being so stupid…actually believed him… "how stupid of me" I thought… I was running after him and I didn't realize that it was raining outside… … before I could ran inside.. it was too late… I was drenched from head to toe.. I looked at him… he was standing few meters away from me…still laughing… "riddhima.. you are looking so cute…" he said… "armaan this is not funny anymore"…. I said crossing my hands… I was so mad at him…my whole day turned out so bad and if that wasn't enough for the day.. now I am standing outside.. getting wet in the rain… watching him make fun of me… . ..I turned to leave..when I felt his hand holding my hand… "armaan leave me…" … he turned me around… "armaan let me go… I don't want to talk to you…" I tried releasing myself…but his hold was much stronger… "riddhima I am sorry…"…. But this time I was adamant that I won't leave him easily… "armaan just leave my hand or I'll kill you…" I shouted my back facing him…as I was still trying releasing myself… "riddhima you have already killed me.." he whispered…… I stopped releasing myself… "riddhima.." he said as he came in front of me….he touched my face and I again felt the same sensation..which I had experienced in the morning… I saw his face coming near to mine…my lips parted and next moment I felt his lips on mine… my hands went behind his neck…as I felt his hands on my waist… and this time I didn't felt awkward at all… while we were still kissing he took me in his arms…and went inside…
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I opened my eyes and saw him sleeping…. Thinking about the last night made my cheeks go red…  I got up from the bed but before going to the bathroom I turned looked at his face and I don't know what but I wanted to kiss him…so moving closer to him.. I was just inches apart from his cheeks…. "riddhima I am waiting" I heard him… He was awake… I quickly got up…but before I could go… he pulled me ….upon himself… " riddhima I said I am waiting…"…  I saw that naughtiness in his eyes… "armaan let me go.." I tried going… as my cheeks were turning red again… "mrs. Riddhima armaan malik… I am…."…. "armaan what are you talking about… leave me…".. I said this without even looking at him… "oh so you don't know anything…. Should I remind you..?" he made me look at him….. he turned and now he was on top of me… slowly he bought his face closer to mine… I closed my eyes…. We were about to kiss when I heard his phone ringing…. "what is this" I said and pretty loud… I opened my eyes..and saw him smiling…. "did I just……… OMG ………riddhima you idiot stupid…  " I thought…. I pushed him off and ran to the bathroom….. I came out of the bathroom and saw him still talking to someone on the phone…  he didn't even looked at me once… "must be talking to his friend"… I thought….but then I heard him saying nayonika…and I came to know that on the other side was nayonika…the smile on my face soon vanished… I was standing in front of mirror but my mind was fixed on their conversation…I tried understanding what they were taking about…but as armaan was just saying ….yes …no…  and not much I couldn't….i looked at his face from the mirror and I saw the same glow… on his face which I saw that day when he introduced us..and then when they were dancing together…in the pub… " ouch" … I was so engrossed looking at him….that I didn't realized when my hair got entangled with my neck piece… but even this time he didn't noticed that… he still didn't said anything….. After getting ready… I looked at him the last time…. He still didn't looked at me… without saying anything I left the room….


As I was walking to the kitchen many questions started haunting me again..which I had till now tried my best not to think about… "am I getting jealous"…. I asked myself… "no I am not"…. . But my heart said something else… "but should I be getting jealous…afterall he is my husband…and I trust him…"…….. "but do I trust him"…. "yes I do but I don't trust her"… I was getting mad thinking about this..…that day when my dad told me about my marriage being fixed and that too with armaan malik…my initial thoughts were that this marriage…won't work…..although I didn't knew him at all at that time…but what all I had read about him… we were like completely opposite to each other….like poles apart….. but as I slowly got to know him… I started liking him….and now the situation is such that I can't see him talking to nayonika….i have no problems with him talking to his female colleagues  or his female friends….but whenever I hear about nayonika….an alarm starts ringing in my head which is what is happening now….. Whenever I am in a state of confusion…I used to talk to her… and this time too I knew that she'll answer me….i looked up at the sky and closed my eyes…. "mom… I need you guidance…I don't know mom…what to do…my feelings I get hurt… when he talks about her and when he talks to her… I know  I shouldn't be thinking all that…but as much I want to…. my mind always shifts there… help me mom…I know you will…"


I opened my eyes and made my way to the kitchen …..I reached the kitchen…and started preparing breakfast…but instead of preparing breakfast I was taking out my frustration on the utensils…keeping them on the counter…but not without making loud noise… throwing napkins here and there…and if that didn't helped me at all….i burned all the breakfast…and in the process of saving something …even a little bit….I burned my hands too…… I tried not to shout but when the pain was out of control I shouted… "armaan….."….  within seconds he came down running….he looked at the kitchen …which was already a mess thanks to me and then looked at my hands…. "armaan my hands…"… I know I shouldn't be saying this but I was crying like a little girl….. he looked at me and then at my hands…. "riddhima…..it's nothing… now stop crying like a little baby…."…..but no use…coz now I started crying even more louder…. "I need a doctor…." I told him….although I don't get scared easily but when it's about wound …the case is just opposite…especially if it's on my body…. " armaan call a doctor…quickly.." I said….and  when he didn't responded I looked at him and guess what he was doing…he was just looking at my hands making those ugly faces as if he was about to puke …. "armaan  …call a doctor"… I shouted …. He nodded and ran outside the kitchen to call the doc….

The doctor did my dressing…. it wasn't easy….but that's not my fault… it was armaan's ….how?..well when the doc started dressing…. Armaan was panicking more than I could have imagined…. I should be the one saying… "ouch…aah….doc easy….it hurts"…. But it was armaan who was saying this…. as if the doc is dressing his hands … .. and when he didn't stopped… doc had no other option but to send him outside the room….my dressing was completed ….and the doc left… armaan came and sat next to me…. "how did you burned your hands riddhima.." he asked …. "armaan it's your fault"… I told him…. "my fault… now I did what"…. He asked me… and without thinking at all I told him… " you were talking to nayo……"  and i stopped……..


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