Tuesday, 1 January 2019

Part 1: Nikaah -e-Ranjish


It been 14 years since Riddhima has been living in Sydney, in Australia. She was born in Pakistan, but moved with her parents and her siblings to Sydney, because her father got a chance in his career life. At that time, she was only 6 years old. She has two elder brothers, Rahul and Atul. And a little sister named Ishita. To the outside they were a perfect family, but in the inside, Riddhima knew that her family was breaking down. Since they moved to Sydney, her father Shashank started to drink. He drank alcohol on a regular basis. He got aggressive over silly little things and let his anger out on her mother and Riddhima.


Rahul and Atul were now old enough and so they basically moved out, but still came to visit their family on a regular basis. Now Riddhima was living with her parents and her little sister. Riddhima’s mother was a very religious person. Her mother prayed 5 times a day and kept fast, basically everything which a Muslim person should do. But Riddhima, no she was the complete opposite of her mother. She never prays, when then only forcefully. But even then, her thoughts would be somewhere else. She never found it important to become religious and follow her mothers step. Her words were these:

Yeh sab sirf ek dikhawa hai, aisa kuch nahi hota. Agar Khuda saach me hai, to phir wo humko is situation me nahi dalta,

She always thought, that her mother is here to do all the religious things. Unknowingly she started to follow her father’s steps. She will get angry over silly things and let her anger out on her mother and her little sister. she also started to hurt her little sister physically, which she has seen from her father. But the worst part of it was, that she did not regret that, not even a little bit.

Padma noticed that her daughter was following a wrong path. But even she did not know, that it was just a tactic for Riddhima to get the attention of her father. Yes, her father, who loved Ishita more than Riddhima. Who always compared Riddhima with Ishita. Who gave Ishita everything which she desired, but neglected Riddhima every single time. Who would hate Riddhima, just by seeing her in the morning. That all was having a very bad effect on Riddhima, more than she could even imagine.

Coming to the present, she was getting ready to go to a party, without her parents’ knowledge. She would sneak out of the house, and of course Ishita must help her. She dressed in a tight black dress which only reached her knees. Riddhima looked at the mirror. She smirked at her reflection. She looked hot, like really really hot. She turned around and looked at Ishita, who was looking at her with pity.

I: Aapi, kya aap saach me jana chahti ho.
R: Come on Ish, we already dicussed about this. Me bahar jaungi, and you will close the door form inside. Aur kal subha, jab Mama Baba mere bare me puche, to keh dena, ke me library gayi hu, ek important college project hai.
I: Aur aake kapre.
R: don’t worry sweetheart, me extra decent clothes saath leke jaa rahi hu. Tumhe fikar karne ki zaroorat nahi hai.
I: Aapi, please kuch galat mat karna.

Riddhimas heart clenched at her sisters words, but she ignored it and gave Ishita a stern look. Then she turned around and got out of the house, and Ishita closed the door. She pressed her back on the door and closed her eyes, whispering a silent prayer.

I: Ya Allah, meri Aapi ko galat rah pe jane se bacha le. Wo bohot masoom hai. Unka dil bilkul saaf hai, unko koi takleef nahi honi chahiye. Please ya Allah, meri behen ko bacha lena.

Then Ishita moved to her room, as she was paasing the hall, she noticed that her mother was standing there.

I: Mama…
P: Riddhima bahar gayi hai na?
I: Mama wo...
P: Jhoot bolne ke bare me sochna bhi mat Ishita. Me jaanti hu teri behen ko. Lekin yeh samajh nahi aa raha, ke wo yeh sab kyu kar rahi hai? Usko bilkul bhi hamari Izzat ka khayal nahi hai? Kya hoga is ladki ka? Kal subha hi me tumahre Baba se Riddhima ke Rishte ki baat karti hu.
I: Nahi Mama, agar aap aisa karogi, to phir Aapi bilkul toot jayengi, ya phir bigar jayengi.
P: to phir me kya karu Ishu? Din ba din Riddhima galat rah pe chal rahi hai. Kaise lau me usko seedhi Raah pe? Me kya karu? Tu bhi to meri beeti hai na, aur wo bhi. To phir uske baari me, meri parwarish kyu fail ho gayi hai? Wo teri jaise kyu nahi ban sakti? Wo kyu itni problems create kar rahi hai hamare liye?
I: Mama, Allah pe bharosa rakho, sab kuch theek ho jayega. Aapi bhi zaroor sahi rah pe chalegi.
P: Khuda pe to bharosa hai, lekin dar bas is baat ka hai, ke kahi us waqt bohot der na ho jaye.

Ishita hugged her mother and then they both left to their rooms. Riddhima on the other hand got in the car which was standing in her drive way. Inside the car, her best friend cum sister was awaiting. Muskaan. She smiled as soon as Riddhima moved inside and hugged her bestie. Then she looked at her dress.

M: Abbe, yeh kya wahiyaat kapre pehne hai tune, kisi dico me jane ke plan hai kya?
R: Shut up yr. Tu to jaanti hai ke me waisi ladki nahi hu.
M: To phir tu apni Mama aur Ishu ko aisa impression kyu deti hai?
R: Meri marzi. Aacha ruck, me zara chang kar lu, phir chalte hai tere ghar.

Riddhima changed inside the car in comfortable pyjama and shirt and throw her so called dress in the back seat.

R: I hope ke koi problem nahi hai, ke aaj raat me tere gahr…
M: Don’t be stupid yr. Tu to jaanti hai, ke mere parents, mujhse zyaada tujhse mohabbat karte hai. Chal ab chale.

Muskaan drove to her home with Riddhima. Muskaan knew Riddhima very well, inside and outside. She knew what Riddhima is going through. But she also hoped, that Riddhiam would change, for better. But for one thing, she was hundred percent sure, Riddhima would never do anything, which will cause her parents reputation to degrease.

As soon as they arrived at Muskaans house, they moved to Muskaans room and lay on her bed. Both were staring at the roof. And then Riddhima started the conversation.

R: kya me galt hu Muskaan?
M: Huh?
R: tune suna jo mene kaha.
M: agar saach kahu, to me nahi jaanti, aur na hi kuch keh sakti hu. Tere saath kya hota hai, me sab jaanti to hu, lekin phir bhi me wo sab kuch feel nahi kar sakti. Isliye mujhe koi haq bhi nahi hai tujhse judge karne ka. Ya phir yeh kehne ka ke tu sahi hai ya phir galat.
R: ahhahah no wonder ke tu meri best friend hai.
M: abee yr, tu bhi ajeeb hai. Mujhe itna senti kar ke, khud hass ho rahi hai.

Riddhima sat on the bed and looked at Muskaan. Muskaan looked at her with questioning eyes.

M: kya?
R: mene kuch likha hai, lekin I am not sure about it.
M: Chal phir suna…

NO on in Riddhimas family knew, that Riddhima writes Shayari and poets. And even songs sometimes. She has a marvellous voice and sings very well. But Riddhima kept that a secret. She does not want anyone to know about it. Literally no one. Only Muskaan is the person who know every single thing about her.

R: pakka?
M: Suna bhi…
R: okee...

Ansoon ko bohot samjhaya mene ke tanhayi me aaya karo
Yu mehfil me hamara mazak na udaya karo
Is par Ansoo tadap kar bole,
itne logo me tujhe tanha paate hai
isiliye chale aate hai....

Riddhima looked at Muskaans face for any reaction, but it was just blank.

R: dekha mene kaha tha na, ke its just crap.

Muskaan did not say anything, but just hugged Riddhima very tight. Riddhima hugged Muskaan back and let her tears free. she knew that she could always be herself with Muskaan. Muskaan came out of the hug, even she had tears in her eyes.

M: Tu kasam se yr, mujhe rula rula ke mar degi.

Riddhima smiled at her words and hugged her back. They both laid down back on the bed. Then Muskaan started the conversation.

M: Teri Aankho me dard hai, takleef hai. Tu wo kisi ko batati nahi hai, lekin teri yeh jo shayaries hoti hai na, wo sab kuch bayan kar deti hai.

Riddhima looked over at her. That’s why she loved her so much, Muskaan just knew everything.

M: bata yeh kab likhi thi tune?
R: jab Baba ne mujhe…. Me aur Ishu remote control pe discuss kar rahe the. As always. lekin us hi waqt Baba room me aa gayi. Aur shayad meri voice Ishu ke saath kuch zyada hi unchi thi. Tab wo gusse me aaye aur mujhe bohot zoor se slap mara. Sab kuch hilne laga tha. Mujhe aisa laga, ke me behosh ho jaungi. But I didn’t, so don’t worry. aur phir Baba ne Ishu ko remote de diya, aur uske saath hi baith ke TV dekhne lage. Itni der me Mama bhi aa gayi, unhone kuch note nahi kiya tha, aur wo bhi Ishu ke saath baith gayi. Mama ne mujhse bhi kaha tha, ke me unke saath baithu, lekin Baba ne kaha ke mujhe kuch kaam hai, isliye me apne room me jane wali hu. Bas sirf Ishu mujhe dekh rahi thi. Uski Aankhe sorry bol rahi thi. I swear Muskaan, me Ishu se bohot pyaar karti hu, lekin phir bhi yeh dil bohot dard karta hai. Agar Khuda saach me hota hai na, to phir yeh differences nahi hoti. Me itni bhi buri nahi hu. Mere Baba mujhse bohot nafrat karte hai Muski, bohot zyaada nafrat.

Muskaan didn’t say anything and just hugged Riddhima and let her cry. Even she cried with her.

R: bas us waqt me apne Aansoo rok nahi payi, aur pata nahi kaise, yeh sab likh baithi.
M: Tu Khuda pe bharosa rakh, sab theek ho jayega…
R: Mujhe us Khuda pe bhi yakeen nahi hai...
M: riddhima…
R: muskiii….

Riddhima wiped her tears and also Muskaans. Then she smiled at her.

R: chal bohot senti baate ho gayi, ab koi aacha sa song laga de.
M: Haa, me to tujhe batana hi bhul gayi mujhe ek new singer mila hai. Kasam se yaar uski awaz me to jaadu hai. definiately a god gifted voice.
R: Aacha ji, itni tareef kar rahi ho, to phir to usko sun na hi padega. Wese naam kya hai uska?
M: Armaan, Armaan Mallik. Uske Baba bhi bohot famous singer hai, and even his little brother, Abhimanyu. Kasam se yaar aisa lagta hai ke puri family hi god gifted hai.
R: hahahah pagal, chal ab koi song laga bhi de.

Muskaan started the playlist and both of them closed their eyes. Muskaan was continuously playing songs of just the three of them.

R: wese mujhe is Armaan se zyada Abhimanyu ki voice aachi lag rahi hai.
M: Yeah, that just totally proved, that Riddhima has gone mad.

They both laughed and eventually sleep took over and they slept in each others arms. Next morning as Riddhima woke up, she saw, that she had a lot of missed calls from her mother. On instant he called her mother back.

R: Salam Mama, apne call kit hi?
P: W.salam. Kaha pe hai tu?
R: Me Muskaan ke ghar hu.
P: puri raat rang raliya mana ke, tu ab us baachi ke ghar chali gayi. Agar hamari izzat ki parwah nahi hai, to kam se kam us baachi ki izzat ko to kharab mat kar. Jaldi ghar aa, warna apne Baba ke reaction ki tu khud zimedar hoegi.
R: Jee mama.

Riddhima wiped her tears and looked over at Muskaan, who was looking at her with pity.

R: Mama thi, unhone ghar bulaya hai.
M: Me tujhe ghar chorke aau?
R: nahi me chali jaungi. Apne parents ko mera salam dena. Bye. Love you.
M: bye.

Then Riddhima left from there. Her heart was beating very fast. To be honest, she was very scared to see her fathers reaction. But now she has to face him. As soon as she reached the house, Ishita opened the door and dragged Riddhima in their room.

R: Ishu, yeh sab.
I: Shhh, Baba kab ke uth gaye hai. Aapka puch rahe the. Mene kaha ke apki tabyat thori kahrab hai, isliye aap thora late utho gi. Ab chalo, wo apka intezaar kar rahe hai. Shukar kare, ke unhone notice nahi kiya ke aap puri raat ghar se bahar thi. nahi to qayamat toot parti is ghar me.

Riddhima changed, well actually Ishu forced her to change and then went to the hall, where her father was already sitting.

R: Asalam Aleikm Baba.
S: Uth gayi tum. Ab to sooraj ko bhi tumahre hissab ke nikalna padega. Madam ji ke sar me jo dard ho raha tha.

Riddhima did not say anything, but just looked down. She knew that was the best reaction at the moment.

S: chal ja kitchen me, nashta bana hum sabke liye. Aur khabar dar agar Ishu ko awaz bhi di to. Phir ishu aur hum kisi kaam se bahar jayenge. Jab hum wapis aaye, to ghar me mujhe zara sib hi gard na dikhe. Samjhi tu.
R: Jee Baba.

Then Riddhima went to the kitchen and wiped her tears. She started to make the breakfast, when suddenly Ishu came inside to put the used dishes in the sink. She then turned to Riddhima.

I: Aapi, me koi help karu?
R: kyu Ishu, tu chahti hai ke Baba mujhe aur daante. aaj subha ki dose mere liye kafi nahi thi kya?
I: Aapi aap aisa kyu keh raih ho? Mene to kuch bhi nahi kiya.
R: Tu kuch na kar ke bhi, bohot kuch kar deti hai Ishu. Please jaa yaha se.

Ishita did not say anything afterwards. She then grabbed breakfast, which Riddhima was making. She turned around to take it inside, but then stopped in her track. Shashank was standing at the entrance.

I: Baba…

Riddhimas eyes widened in horror, she turned around and saw her father looking at her with fire in her eyes. Shashank moved towards Riddhima, ignoring Ishu completely.

I: Baba aapi ne kuch nahi kaha, wo yeh to me khud ander leke jaa rahi thi.

Shashank silenced Ishu and was now standing infornt of Riddhima. She did not have the guts to look into his eyes. Suddenly she felt pain on her cheek. He father just slapped her, and that too very heard. She heard Ishu gasping with shock. Riddhima closed her eyes and tried to hold her tears back.

S: ek bar ke baat tujhe samajh nahi aat na? Khabardar agar tune aaj kuch bhi khaya to. Agar mene ter muh me ek niwala bhi dekha na, phir tu dekhe gi, ke me kya kar sakta hu.

then Shashank left form there. Riddhima looked up and saw that Ishu and her Mother were standing there. Ishu had her eyes closed and her head sunk. Her mother on the other hand had tears in her eyes. She looked at her daughter with sorry. Riddhima just turned around and continued her work. Once again, she completely closed herself up from the world.
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with loads of love
 Amna <3

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