Thursday, 10 January 2019

Part 10 : Nikaah -e-Ranjish


Kal mene Facebook pe Armaan ki ek pic dekhi. Uski cousin ke saath. Aisha naam hai uski cousin ka. Wo un dono ki childhood picture thi. Armaan ne Aisha ke shoulder pe apna haath rakha hua tha. Us picture ko dekh ke mujhe aisa laga, ke jaise koi mujhpe khanjar chala raha ho. Bar bar, dil me wo khanjar se war kar raha ho. Kyunke har waqt bas sirf yeh khayal aata tha, ke kahi Armaan aur Aisha ka rishta pakka na ho gaya ho. Us waqt jo mere dil pe guzri, wo me chah ke bhi nahi bata sakti. Bas puri raat roti rahi me. Ek second ko bhi aankhe band nahi hui, aur jab band hui, tab har waqt bas Armaan aur Aisha ki picture samne aaye. Aisa laga, ke jaise mere jeene ka maqsad hi khatam ho gaya ho.



Aisha bohot khubsoorat hai, aur Armaan ke hisab se bilkul perfect hai. Mujhse to bohot hi zyada khubsoorat hai. Wo har tareke se Armaan ke liye perfect hai. lekin phir bhi mera Dil dard kyu karta raha? Aisa kyu laga ke jaise ke koi mere Dil ko ander se cheer raha ho. Bas itna janti hu, ke bohot zyada dard ho raha tha.

Mujhe apni feelings pe control karna hoga, aisa nahi chal sakta. Phir jab Namaz parhi, aur Quraan parha, Allah se baate ki, unse madad mangi, to aisa laga ke sab kuch sirf mera wehem hai. Wo picture shayad sirf aise hi kisi ne post ki hogi, uska matlab yeh to nahi, ke Armaan aur Aisha ka koi rishta ho, right? Wo sirf aache dost bhi to ho sakte hai na? Maybe very good friends?

Lekin yeh bhi ho sakta hai na, ke un dono ka rishta bachpan me hi pakka ho gaya ho? Aur wo dono ek dusre ko pasand bhi karte ho? Yeh soochte hi mera Dil tarap jaata hai, machal jata hai. Kuch samajh nahi aa raha. Wo kyu hai mujhse itna dur? Hum dono ek dusre ke anjaan kyu hai? Wo mere kareeb kyu nahi ho sakta? Wo mujhe notice kyu nahi karta?

Hum Ne To Dekha Tha
Shoq-e-Dedaar Ki Khatir

Yeh Na Pata Tha
Tum Dil Me Hi Utar Jao Ge

Kabhi soocha nahi tha, ke me bhi kabhi aisi Shayari likhungi, wo actually mere life ko represent karengi. Soocha to yeh bhi nahi tha, ke me kisi Insaan ke liye itna tarpungi, Raat bhar jaag ke usko mangungi. Kisi ke hone ya na hone se mujhe itna fark parhega. Wo mujhe kyu itna effect karta hai, yeh to me khud bhi nahi jaanti. Mujhse sirf itna pata hai ke aaj me jo kuch bhi hu wo sirf or sirf Armaan ki wajah se hu. Uska yeh ehsaan me Zindagi bhar nahi utar sakungi.

Me usko chah ke bhi bhool nahi sakti. Yehi baat ko lekar dil me aur bhi darr hai. me janti hu ke mera Nikaah Sid ke saath hona hai, aur me yeh Dua bhi karti hu ke mujhe jald Sid se Mohabbat ho jaye. Wo din bohot jald aaye, jab mujhe Sid se beintehaa Mohabbat ho jaye. Me usko wo sare Haq de pau, jo ke uske hai. Aur me apni adhi adhuri Mohabbat ko apne seene ke kisi hisse me dafna lu. Mere me itni himmat a jaye, ke Nikaah ke documents pe sign karte waqt mere haath na kaape. Mera Dil na tarpe. Mera Dil na tute. Meri Aankhe na roye. Ya allah, mujhe akela mat chorna. Me yeh seh nahi paungi. Me janti hu ke me Armaan se waqi me Mohabbat karti hu. Uski wajah se hi me mere Rab ke kareeb aayi hu. me usko chah ke bhi bhul nahi sakti. Agar me uska zikr apni Dua’on me na karu, to aisa lagta hai ke me jaise bilkul adhuri hu. Meri Dua puri nahi hogi, Meri namaaz qubool nahi hogi, meri ibadat gini nahi jayegi. Jaise kisi na kisi jeez ki kami hai.

Kal Sid ke saath baat hui thi meri, aacha laga us se baat kar ke. Lekin saath saath guilty bhi feel hua. Aisa laga ke jaise me Armaan ko dhoka de rahi hu. Lekin mujhe ab guilty feel nahi karna chahiye na. Sid mera hone wala shohar hai, to mujhe us se baat karni chahiye. At least usko ek chance to dena chahiye na. Uske saath ek relation banana chahiye. Meri Dua ki qubooliyat ka faisla sirf Allah ke haath me hai. Aur jis tareeke se me aaj kal behave kar rahi hu, namaaz nahi parh rahi, aur na hi Quraan par rahi hu, me bohot galat kar rahi hu. Aise to Allah kabhi meri Dua qubool nahi karenge. Me to khud apne haatho se apne darwaaze band kar rahi hu. Me to khud aise kaam kar rahi hu, jis se Allah mujhse naraz ho jaye. Me to khud Allah ko mouka de rahi hu, ke wo meri Dua qubool na kare. Par me kya karu, jab bhi Namaz parhti hu, to bas Armaan ka khayal aata hai. Dua ke liye haath uthati hu, to uska naam aata hai. Jab bhi aankhe band karti hu, to uska khayal aata hai. Mere Dil-o-Dimaag pe sirf uska hi saya hai.

Kitne Armaano Ko Dafnae Baithi Hu
Kitne Zakhmo Ko Chupaye Baithi Hu

Milna Mushkil Hai Unse Is Duniya Me
Phir Bhi Deedar Ki Aas Lagaye Baithi Hu

Armaan closed the diary and sighed. It had been 8 months, since he last saw Riddhima. He was on a world tour, so he wasn’t able to back out. By now, even her Iddat must be complete. Right now he is sitting in the air plane, flying back to North Carolina, to his family. There he will talk with his parents. And then they all will fly to Syndey, to get Riddhima. He was in love with her Shayaries.

A: Bas Riddhima, ab tumhare udaasi ke dil khatam. Agar mujeh tumahre saath zabardasti bhi karni padi, to me karunga. Lekin me tumhe apna zaroor banaunga.

He then again opened the Dairy, and read more.

Mene chor di apni Dua, de di qurbaani. nahi mangungi me ab usko apni Dua’on me. uske bare me soochungi bhi nahi. safna dungi us ehsaas ko, us yakeen ko, us bharose ko apne Dil ke kisi kone me. Nahi mangungi Khuda se me ab kuch bhi. Jab milna hi nahi hai, to phir umeed hi kyu lagau? Maar diya mene apni Dua ko, apne hi andar. Allah se bhi wohi mangna chahiye, jiske hum kabil ho. Aur me to marr ke bhi Armaan ke kabhi nahi ban paungi.

Jab se yeh ehsaas hone laga hai, ke wo mera nahi ho sakta, ander se kuch tutne laga hai. Namaz parhna chor di, Quraan parhna chor diya, fast rakhna chor diye. Apne aap se nafrat hone lagi hai mujhe. Apne aap se ghin aati hai mujhe. Mujhe dikh raha hai ke mera Imaan tut raha hai uske bina. Uske bina me kuch bhi nahi hu. Kuch bhi nahi. Aisa lagta hai ke uske bina mera koi wajood hi nahi hai. Mujhe uske bare me aisa nahi soochna chahiye. Aise khayal to mujhe Sid ke bare me aane chahiye na.

Me kya karu ya Allah, me apke paas wapis ana chahit hu, aapki rah pe chalna chahti hu. Lekin Armaan Mallik ke bina to wo bhi na mumkin lagta hai. Sirf aap hi hai, jo na mumkin ko bhi mumkin kar sakte hai.

Ya Rab…
Meri Dua’on ka maan rakhna

Koi Juda hai mujhse
Tere hi Asmaan tale

Meanwhile, Riddhima’s life has turned completely. she was so busy with Zulaikha, that she closed everyone else from her life. Sid left, and leaved a mark in her heart. True, she never loved him, but she wanted to try. She wanted to give up her Dua, to accept Sid in her live, but he betrayed her for the nationality of Australia.

Everyone was concerned for Riddhima. They felt sorry for her, but did not say anything in front of her. Atul recently got married to Anjali in a private ceremony. Ishu was still in contact with Abhi, and he had a surprise for her. Not even she knew anything about it.

Deep down, Riddhima was still hoping for Armaan to come, but as he did not arrive, even after 4 months, she gave the hope up. She stopped writing poetries. She was a complete different person now. Very cold and evil to the outside. Only towards Zulaikha, she was still the same Riddhima.

Armaan reached home and greeted his family.

An: Aa gaya mera Bacha.
A: Yes, mom. Kaise ho aap?
An: Theek hu bacha, lekin suno, tumhare paas zyada time nahi hai rest ka. Kal hum sab ki flight hai.
A: Flight? Kaha jaa rahe hai hum?
An: Sydney.
A: Sydney?

Armaan questioned with surprise. He was sure, that he still hasn’t talked with his parents about Riddhima.

B: Tumhara jo chota bhai hai na, Abhimanyu. Usko ek ladki pasand aa gayi hai. Kayi saalo se dono ek dusre ke saath contact me hai. Ab usne faisla kiya hai, ke wo us ladki se Shaadi karna chahta hai. Isliye hum Sydney jayenge, unse Rishta mangen. Aur agar sab kuch theek hua, to phir apni Bahu ke wapis leke hi aayenge.
A: Abhi choosed a girl? Kya name hai uska?

In that moment Abhimanyu came down and hugged his own brother. He was definitely very happy.

A: Mujhe bhi bata, ke wo koun hai, jisne tera Dil chura liya?
Ab: bhai aap jaante hai usko.
A: Really, who?
Ab: Riddhima…

Armaan’s eyes widened with horror…

A: WHAT????
Ab: Aree pehel puri baat to sun lo, phir chil lana! Riddhima ki choti behen, Ishita.
A: Ohh…

Armaan took a breath of relief, while Abhi looked at his brothers expression.

A: To kab jana hai? Unko pata hai ke hum aa rahe hai?
Ab: Nope, me chahta hu, ke me Ishu ke surprise du. Isliye na usko pata hai, aur na hi uski family ko.
A: That would be fun.
Ab: of course, aur kya pata, ke meri Bhabi aur aapki Dulhan bhi hume wahi pe mil jaye?
A: For sure.

Armaan thought of Riddhima’s reaction. True, they were flying there for Abhi and Ishita’s wedding, but maybe there would be two weddings. Who knows? Ahh cut that, Armaan knew, that there would be two weddings.

A: Ab tumhare sare sapne pure hounge Riddhima.

He whispered to himself. He was very happy and excited. All his tiredness flew out of the window. He just could not wait, to reach her and make her his.

After some day, Riddhima was in her mothers home. She just felt so lonely today, so she wanted to spent some time with her family and Zulaikha. And then the door bell rang. Before Padma could stand up, Riddhima signed her to sit down.

R: Don’t worry Mama, me dekhti hu.

Then she moved to the door. As she gripped the handle, she felt that her heartbeat increased. She gulped down her salvia and opened the door. When she looked up she saw an elder woman and an elder man standing infront of her.

R: Jee?
W: Hello beta, mera Naam Ananya hai, aur yeh Billy hai, mere husband.
R: Aslam un Aleikum
B: W.Salam beta. Jeeti raho, khush raho.
An: Beta, tumahri Mama ghar me hai?
R: Jee jee, i am sorry, please aap ander aaye na.
An: Thank you. Tum thori der yahi pe rahogi, actually mere bete bhi aayenge, wo car park kar rahe hai na.
R: Jee zaroor.

Then both Billy and Ananya left inside, leaving Riddhima behind. Waiting for their sons. She waited and waited, but her heart beat didn’t slowed down. And then she saw them. She looked closely at them and her eyes widened with horror. It were none other than Armaan and Abhi.

Both of them moved towards her and stood infornt of her. Armaan was just looking with a grin at Riddhimas eyes, which were glued on him. Abhi looked at both of them with confusion and then a bulb light in his head. Bhabi to saach me hi mil gayi yaha pe, he thought. Without saying anything, he left inside, leaving both Armaan and Riddhima alone.

A: Ab yuhi dekhti rahogi, ya phir kuch kaho gi bhi?

His words broke Riddhima’s trance. She looked at him with confusion.

R: Tum yaha pe kya kar rahe ho?
A: Well, mene kaha tha na, ke next time me jab aaunga, to phir tumhari baraat leke aunga. Well actually baraat abhi available nahi thi, isi liye me apne parents ko leke aaya hu. Tumhara haath mangne ke liye.
R: WHAT? Armaan tum pagal ho gaye ho kya?
A: of course me pagal hu, tumahre liye.
R: Armaan, please, tum mere bare me kuch nahi jaante. Please aisi baate mat karo.

Armaan moved closer to her. Riddhima closed her eyes, as she felt Armaan coming closer and closer. Then she felt his lips on her ear.

A: Abhi nahi jaanta to kya hu? Jab tum Riddhima Armaan Mallik banogi, tab to zaroor jaan jaunga.

Then he just left from there, leaving Riddhima standing at the door. She put her hands on her fast heart beat.

R: bas, bas, bas. Kuch nahi hai. itna excited hone ki zaroorat nahi hai. Jap wapis reality me aaoge na, tab bohot takleef hoegi tumhe.

She kind of told herself, or better say her heart. Then she moved inside, where everyone was sitting. As she entered, she felt like the air was snatched out form her lungs.

An: Hume aapki beti ko apne ghar ke bahu banana hai.

Riddhima’s eyes widened and she instantly looked towards Armaan, who was already looking at her direction, with a smirk plastered on his lips. She started to shake her head in no, but then stopped as she heard the next sentence.

B: Hamare Abhimanyu ko aapki Ishita bohot pasand hai.

She stopped in her track. she looked towards Armaan. Who hadn’t moved his eyes away from her, he wanted to see her reaction. Somehow it stung, it pained in her heart. It hurt. Just for a tiny little moment, she thought, that actually they would ask for her hand for Armaan. She closed her eyes and tears fall out. She instantly wiped them and plastered a smile on her lips.

R: Me abhi Ishu ko leke aati hu.

And then Riddhima left from there. Armaan noticed the tear and he was right, she still is deeply in love with him. And she is very soft in her heart.

P: Abhimanyu hamari Ishu ko pasand karta hai?
An: Are, aap jaanti nahi hai, yeh to itna dewaana hua hai Ishita ka, ke bas Din Raat sirf uska hi naam rehta hai. Aur huma bhi Ishita bohot zyaada pasand hai.
B: Wese yeh bachi koun thi?
P: Riddhima, yeh meri bari beti hai.
An: Bohot hi pyaari baachi hai yeh.

In that moment Zulaikha came inside the hall and run towards Padma.

Z: Nanu, yeh koun hai?
P: Aapki Ishu khala hai na, yeh unke hone wala sasural hai. Jao beta, jab ko jaaka Salam karo.

Zulaikha nodded and moved to each and everyone. She greeted everyone and in return everyone hugged her and gave her a kiss on her cheek. As she was by Armaan, he stopped her.

A: mere pas na, aapke liye ek surprise hai.
Z: kyaaa??
A: lekin uske liye, aapko meri baat maan ni padegi.
Z: kyaaa?
A: mujhe ek hug aur ek kissiii chahiye. Yaha pe….

He pointed at her cheek. Zulaikha moved forward and hugged him, then she gave him a kiss on his cheek. Exactly in that moment, Riddhima came inside with Ishita and witnessed the scene. Then Armaan gave her a chocolate and made her sit on his lap. Riddhima made Ishita sit next to Padma. When Zulaikha noticed Riddhima, she jumped out of Armaan’s lap and run towards Riddhima.

Z: Maaamaaaaa, dekhoo, uncle ne mujhe chocolate di.

Riddhima smiled at her, then she got to her level and hugged her.

R: Aap ne thank you bola?
Z: oh-oh. Sorry mama, me bhul gayi.
R: jao, phir jaldi se thank you bolo.

Zulaikha again run to Armaan and thanked him, by hugging him again. Then she went back to Riddhima.

An: Yeh to bohot pyaari bachi hai. Kitni saal ki hai?
R: 4 Saal ki hai.
An: Riddhima, tumahre husband kaha hai?
R: wohh..actually…

Riddhima really felt uneasy talking about it.

R: Actually, hum dono ki divorce ho gayi hai.
An: I am sorry.

Riddhima gave her a smile and then left to the kitchen, with the excuse, that she will make something for them to eat. Armaan also excused himself, and went to the kitchen. He noticed Riddhima working there, but he also noticed, how she wiped her tears every two seconds. As Riddhima turned around she saw Armaan standing there, at the entrance.

R: Tum, tum yaha? Kuch chahiye tha?

He did not say anything but moved inside the kitchen, minimizing the gap between them. Riddhimas breath stuck in her throat.

A: Tum kyu ro rahi ho Riddhima?
R: i am not crying.

She again wiped her face.

A: oh really, well me batata hu, ke tum kya roo rahi thi? Tum is liye ro rahi ho, kyunke tumhe laga, ke Mama Baba tumhara Rishta mangenge, mere liye.
R: don’t be ridiculous Armaan.

Then Riddhima turned around and put her hands on the counter. Soon Armaan also placed his hands above her, pinning her with his own body. He hid his head in her hairs and moved to her ear.

A: Me is ghar se tab tak nahi jaunga, jab tak tum mere naam ki ring nahi pehn logi. That’s a promise Mrs. Riddhima Armaan Mallik.

Then he moved her hair aside and kissed her neck.
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