Wednesday, 9 January 2019

Part 9 : Nikaah -e-Ranjish


Riddhima run off from there, as fast as possible. She found it very hard to breath. What is the life playing with her? Why is the life playing with her? What had she done so bad? Why was it hurting so much? She run and run, she heart Armaan calling for her, but she did not stop till she reached her house. She got inside and closed the door and sunk instantly on the floor, finally letting her tears free run.

R: Kyu, mere saath hi aisa kyu hota hai? Mene aisa kya gunah kar diya hai, ke aap har waqt sirf mera hi imtehaan lete rehte hai. Kyu Khuda kyu?

She could not stop her tears, no matter how much she tried, it was just not possible.


R: Jab se jana ke pyaar kya hota hai, mene aapse sirf Armaan ko aapse manga, uski Khushi mangi, uski hifasat ki dua ki. Lekin aapne meri nahi suni, aur meri kismet me Sid ko likh diya. Mujhe laga, ke wo bohot aacha hai, bohot nice hai, lekin shayad tab bhi mene aapse kuch zyada umeed laga li thi. Jab mene faisla kiya, ke me Sid ko dil se apnaungi, apne mazi ko dafna ke, to kya hua? Sid ne mujhe talaq de di, aur wo bhi Armaan ke samne? Aur upar se Armaan, mujhpe taras kha ke mujhse shaadi karne ki baat kar raha tha? Lekin wo samajhta nahi hai, nadaan hai na wo. Me ab wo Riddhima nahi rahi, meri izzat pe, mere zameer pe aur mere imaan pe dhaag lag gaya hai. Ab me ek talak shuda aurat hu, jo ke ek bachi ki Maa bhi hai. Me kabhi nahi chahungi, ke Armaan ko meri wajah se kabhi koi problem ho. Duniya walo ke liye to me hi galat hu na, galti to meri hi hogi, tabhi to mujhe talaq hui hai. Aur wese bhi, is duniya ki saari larkiya Armaan ke peeche marti hai, to uske parents kabhi bhi ek talaq shuda larki ko uske liye chose nahi karenge. Kabhi nahi, aur me bhi Armaan ke saath itna zulm nahi kar sakti. Me uski Zindagi aise barbad nahi kar sakti. Jiske liye mene duaen mangi thi, me khud uski barbadi kaise chahu? Kabhi nahi.

Riddhima wiped her tears and stood up. She went to her room and stood infornt of the mirror. She looked at her reflection. She was wearing her wedding dress. she let her dupatta fall on the floor. Then she took off her jewellery and opened her hairs.

R: Me ab tumhare layak nahi hu Armaan. Khuda ne hum dono ko milwana chaha bhi, to kis mor pe?

She wiped her fallen tears.

R: Me tumhare saath yeh zyaati nahi kar sakti, mujhe tumhe is baat ka yakeen dilwana hi hoga, ke tum mere liye kuch mayne nahi rakhte. Me tumhari puri Zindagi barbad nahi kar sakti. Me itni selfish nahi ho sakti. Apni Mohabbat pane ke liye, me tumhari Zindagi ke saath khel nahi kar sakti.

She closed her eyes, once again trying to control her feeling, but every day it seemed a little bit difficult than last time.

Ishq kar ketujhse itne masruf hogaye hai
har roz jee rahe hai, tujhpe marne ke liye…

R: me tumhare saath kuch galat nahi hone dungi Armaan, apne saya bhi tum pe nahi dalungi.

Suddenly she heard a knock on the door. Her breath got fastened, she had a feeling to know who it would be behind the door. But she did not want to confirm her thoughts and closed her eyes, hoping that the person outside the door would just leave. But she was again wrong. Then she heard the key in the door and she opened her eyes wide.

Armaan saw Riddhima running out of the room. He followed her, he even called her names, but she did not listen. She just got in her car and drove off. Frustrated he went back to Sid’s room to confront him. As he got inside the room, he was angry as hell.

A: What the hell Sid, yeh sab kya tha?
S: What? Tumhe kyu itni takleef ho rahi hai?
A: Tum pagal ho kya? Tumne dekha nahi ke Riddhima kitni toot gayi hai? Damn it man, she was even dressed as a bride, and she run all the way here, to see if you are oke. Aur tumne kya kiya? Us bechari ko talaq de di? Tumhari liye yeh Rishta kuch bhi mayne nahi rakhta?
S: Nahi rakhta, aur kyu? Riddhima meri biwi ho ke bhi, kisi ghar mard ke sapne dekhti hai. Me hu uska shohar, lekin wo mujhse nahi, kisi aur se mohabbat karti hai. Jaan na chahte ho tu, ke wo larka koun hai? U, Armaan Mallik. Tum ho wo insaan, jis se Riddhima Mohabbat karti hai. Aur wo bhi aaj se nahi, balki 5 years se. Are mujhe to sharam aati hai, usko apni biwi kehte hue bhi. Wo itna gir sakti hai, yeh meine kabhi soocha bhi nahi tha.
A: Mohabbat karna koi gunaah nahi hai!
S: I know, lekin kisi gair mard se? Yeh kaha ka insaaf hua? Uski dairy me har ek page pe sirf tumhara naam hai. Uske dil o dimaag me sirf tum chaye hue ho. I mean, come on yr, Biwi wo meri hai, lekin khayal wo tumhare rakhe?
A: Sid…

Araan just did not know how he should react. He had thought of anything, but nothing like that. Riddhima’s truth had just blown his mind.

S: No Armaan. And you know what? Wo aaj tak tumhe apni Dua’on me mangti hai. Riddhima ko lagta hai, ke mujhe kuch pata nahi chalega. Lekin me sab kuch jaanta hu. Aur ab me uske saath ek pal bhi nahi reh sakta. Meir puri Zindagi usne barbad karke rakh di. Wo ladki hai ya phir kya. Me ab nahi reh sakta is rishte me.

Sid thorw his keys towards Armaan, who cought them in time. He looked at Sid with confusion.

S: please do me a favour, aur Riddhima ko yeh keys wapis de do. Aur us se kehna, ke wo aaj ke bad mera chehra kabhi nahi dekhe gi. Me wapis Pakistan jaa raha hu, apni Zindagi banana, aur apni Mohabbat ko apnane.
A: Wah Sid wah, tum shadi shuda hoke kisi parayi larki se Mohabbat karo, to wo Mohabbat hai. Aur agar Riddhima kisi aur ko chahe, to wo Gunaah. Bohot aacha hai insaaf tumahra. Aacha hi hua, ke tumne Riddhia ne chor diya. Tum use kya deserve nahi karte, she really does not deserve you. She deserves someone, who is much better and loveable than you.

Without hearing an answer, Armaan just left from there. He could not stand with Sid in the same room. Else his mind will blow. All the information was too much for him. He has to digest it all. He went in his car, but didn’t start the engine. Instead he took out his phone and called the person, who is very close to his heart. Nishita.

N: Hello Armaan. Kaise ho?
A: Aapi…

Armaan did not have to say anything more, his sister understood that something was wrong. His voice felt so broken.

N: Kya baat hai Armaan? Sab theek to hai?
A: aapi me, mujhse…

Slowly Nishita got panicked, as she realised that something must be terribley wront, that’s the reason why Armaan’s voice is so broken.

N: Armaan mujhe tension ho rahi hai, sab theek hai na. Please kuch bolo na, please Armaan.
A: Aapi mujhse bohot bada gunaah hogaya hai.
N: Kya hua Armaan?

And then Armaan told Nishita everything. Every single thing which had happened today or better say tonight.

A: Ab me kya karu Aapi. Me Riddhima ke saath kuch galat nahi hone de sakta. Aap to janti hona ke I love her. To phir me uske saath kuch galat kaise kar sakta hu? Aap hi batao ke me kya karu? Mujhe kuch bhi samajh nahi aa raha.
N: Galti to tumse hui hai Armaan, lekin you are not alone at fault. Agar meri mano, to phir jao, Riddhima ko dhundo aur us se baat karo. Aur apni Zimedari uthau. Wo bechari akele kya karegi? Aur uski beti? Un dono ka kya hoga? You have to take your responsibilities.
A: mein…
N: Dekho Armaan, me kuch zyada bolna nahi chahti, lekin mujhe lagta hai ke yeh zaroor Khuda ki hi marzi hai. I mean tum 4 saal se Riddhima ki Mohabbat me tarap rahe the. Aur Riddhima tumhare liye 5 saal se. Kya pata ke saach me Khuda ne tum dono ki Dua sun li ho. Aur ushi ne yeh rasta banaya ho?
A: Lekin Riddhima ne saaf saaf inkaar kar diya. Use lagta hai ke me usko bheek de raha hu.
N: She is hurt Armaan. Abhi wo bechari tut gayi hogi. Go to her, is waqt usko akela mat choro. She really need someone. Yeh na ho, ke wo kuch galat kar le. Aur usko manao. Agar wo pyaar se na mane, to phir apne Armaan-Charm add karna.
A: Thank you Aapi.
N: Always meri Jaan.

Then Armaan drove to Riddhimas house. Sid had told him the address, as he had thrown the keys to him. Armaan was standing right now in front of the main door. He was fighting with the keys. Then finally he opened the door. It was dark inside. He closed the door and moved inside. And then he saw her. He saw Riddhima standing in her room, infront of the mirror. Looking towards him. Her eyes wide with horror.

Riddhima could not believe, that Armaan was really standing in front of her. He was actually here. Or was is just a dream again? Suddenly she realised that her dupatta was lying on the floor. She instantly bend down and put it up. Then she tried to hide her body from his eyes. As she again looked up, she saw that Armaan was coming closer to her, taking slow steps towards her.

As Armaan was standing right infront of her, he could see the pain in her eyes and even the fallen tears on her cheeks.

A: Tum theek ho?

He touched her cheek and Riddhima automatically closed her eyes. She felt his touch and whispered out his name.

R: Armaan….

Suddenly she realised that he was actually here and it was not her dream. She instantly stepped back. Her eyes were wide in horror.

R: Tum yaha kya kar rahe ho?
A: Riddhima me…

He tried to step closer to her.

R: Nahi, mere pas mat aana.
Riddhima took more steps back. Her hands stretched out to stop him.

A: Riddhima meri baat to sun lo. Please. Mujhe Sid ne bheja hai. Usne yeh keys di hai, aur kaha hai ke wo wapis Pakistan jaa raha hai.
R: oh…
A: Riddhima, listen, isme tumhari koi galti nahi hai. Please stop blaming yourself.
R: Nahi Armaan, tum samajh nahi rahe ho. Itna asaan nahi hai.
A: Sab kuch bohot asaan hai Riddhima. Me tumse shaadi karunga. Me tumhe apnaunga. Me tumhe apni Dulhan banaunga. I will accept your daughter as mine as well.

He moved forward and grabbed her shoulders. But then Riddhima pushed his hands away.

R: nahi Armaan itna asaan nahi hai. Tum samajh nahi rahe ho.
A: Samajh tum nahi rahi ho Riddhima, itni kya problem hai.
R: problem hai Armaan, bohot bari problem hai.
A: kuch problem nahi hai, tum single ho, me single hu. Kya problem hai?
R: yehi ke me divorced hu aur a single parent bhi…
A: to kya? It doesn’t matter Riddhima…
R: Bohot matter….

Before Riddhima could talk anymore, she collapsed in Armaan’s arms.

A: Riddhima….

He run towards her and caught her in last time before she could fall on the floor. he grabbed her waist and pulled her towards his chest. he tapped her cheek, but she did not react. He got stressed and picked her up bridal style and put her on her bed. he put her hairs behind her hair.

A: me tumhare saath kuch bhi galat nahi hone de sakta Riddhima, kabhi nahi. I will take care of you, I promise.

He kissed her forehead and put the quilt on her. He could easily see that she was still in stress. He stepped back and looked around. Suddenly he saw a book on her nightstand. He got curious and opened it. And there, it was Riddhima’s diary. At first he wanted to keep it back, but then Sid’s voice repeated in his head and the curiosity took over. He took the diary and started to read:

Mujhe uske pas jana hia, uske saath apni puri Zindagi bitana chahti hu. Usko meri Kismat me likh di jiye ya Allah. Aap ne hi uski Mohabbat meri Dil me dali thi na, to ab aap hi usko meri Zindagi ka hissa bana di jiye. Aap ke ilawa koi aur yeh kaam nahi kar sakta. Mujhe ander se pata chal raha hai, ke e uske bina mar jaungi. Pata nahi, jab bhi uski koi new tasveer dekhti hu, ya phir uski koi new video, to phir aisa lagta ke jaise mujhe phirse us se Mohabbat ho gayi hai.

Ya Allah agar wo meri Kismat me nahi hia, to phir aap uska khayal mere zehen o ghuman se nikal de. Nahi us se behtar hai, ke agar wo mere haq me behtar nahi hai, to aap usko mere haq me behtar likh de. Mera uske bina guzara nahi ho sakta. Sirf yeh khayal, ke meri Shaadi Armaan se nahi, balke Sid se ho rahi hai, aur me Sid ki Biwi ban jaungi. Sid ka pura haq hoga mujhpe. Wo mujhe touch bhi karega, mere kareeb bhi aayega. Yeh khayal mujhe ander se mare jaa raha hai, ke Sid mere saath...

Lekin meri Dil o Dimag pe sirf Armaan ka haq hai. Lekin jab Shaadi hi Sid ke saath hogi, to phir mujhe sare haq bhi Sid ko dene honge. Me phir Armaan ke bare me aisa nahi sooch sakti. Aur yeh baat mujhe ander se maar rahi hai. Din ba din me ek nayi mout marr rahi hu. Bohot takleef ho rahi hai, yeh sooch kar.

Ya phir yeh khayal ke Armaan ka Nikaah kisi aur ke saath ho jayega….
Me to marr hi jaungi. Me to jeete jee mar jaungi. Shayad saanse na ruke, lekin jo ek jeene ki khwaish, jeene ki Khushi, pyaar ka ehsaas, sab mere ander hi dafan ho jayenge.

Itni takleef kyu ho rahi hai? Kyu Khuda kyu? Me yeh sab nahi chahti. Me apni puri ZIndagi sirf or sirf Armaan ke saath guzarna chahti hu. Me uski Zoja (wife) ban na chahti hu. ya Khuda, meri is ilteja ki maan rakh li jiye. Mujhe khali haath mat choriye ga. Kehte hai ke aapko aapke Mehboob ka wasta de, to aap unke Sadqe me sab kuch de dete hai. To aaj me aapse Ilteja karti hu. Aapni jholi phila ke aapse mangti hu. Unke Sadqe me hi sahi, aap Armaan Mallik ko meri Zindagi me, meri Kismat me likh de. Usko meri Zindagi ka hissa bana de. Hum dono ki kismat jor de. Usko mera bana de. Aap ko aapne Mehboob ka wasta. Aapko Ahle-Bait ka wasta. Armaan Mallik ko meri Zindagi me likh di jiye. Armaan Mallik ko mera humsafar bana de. Please ya Allah, please.

Rone ka Dil karta hai, lekin tab bhi roya nahi jata. Hasne ka dil karta hai, to phir haste haste aankh me aansu aa jaate hai. Sab ke aas pas hote hue bhi, kisi ke saath dil nahi lagta. Ya Allah, koi to karishma dikhaye na. Kuch to kare. Mujhe aise akela mat chore. Ya Allah, bas kuch mahine reh gaye hai. Sirf or Sirf 2 Mahine ke bad me Pakistan me houngi. Aur mera aur Sid ka Nikaah…

Ya Allah, kuch to rasta dikhaye na. Mujhe kuch nahi dikh raha. Kya saari Umeede khatam ho gayi hai? Sab aas tut gayi hai? Aisa lagta hai, ke saare raste band ho gaye hai. Mujhe dikh raha hai, ke me ander se tut rahi hu. Armaan Malik. Ya Allah, sirf Armaan Malik ko mangti hu aapse.

Meri Mohabbat ki Haqeeqat tum kya jano?
Sar jhukaya to tujhe manga.
Haath uthaya to tujhe manga.

Armaan closed the diary. He could not read it anymore. He literally had tears in his eyes. He got a feeling how deep her love for him is. He would be a fool, if he would let her go.

Next day, when Riddhima woke up, she was shocked to see Armaan sitting on the couch, staring at her. Riddhima was looking at him with confusion.

R: Armaan…

he stood up and went to Riddhima. Then he bend down and kissed her forehead. Riddhima closed her eyes.

A: Abhi to mujhe jana hai. But I promise you Riddhima, me jald wapis aaunga. Lekin tab me tumhari Baraat leke aunga. Aur tumhe Doli me bitha ke leke jaunga.

Armaan chuckled as he saw Riddhima’s wide eyes.

A: Dulhan to tum meri hi banogi Riddhima. Yeh to pakka hai.

And then he left from there. Leaving Riddhima behind. But what Riddhima did not know, that Armaan also took her Diary with him.
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heheh finally done, ufff that was an intense part ;) Really. heheh but still hope, that you will like it :D

Waiting for your likes and comments :D
with loads of lovee Amna <3 <3

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