Tuesday, 19 February 2019

Part 7 : Perfect Imperfection...love..


Mrs Ridhima Armaan Malik....the words echoed over n over again in her head....she felt dizzy with the tornado of thoughts and emotions spinning in her mind....she was so baffled that she no longer had any realization of being literally dragged out by armaan, nor of the silent 15minute long walk to the parking lot outside the basketball court, where armaan had parked his car....the walk was silent on the outside...but the two minds were inundated with a flow of thoughts way beyond their capability of handling....ridhima was still in complete shock when they approached armaan's car, but he had by then made up his mind of what he had to do and how. for the first time that day he felt clear headed in the earnest knowing his exact thoughts and future course of action. as he made ridhima stand leaning against the car, he called out her name to catch her attention.."ridhima.."he started softly, but observing that his voice would not reach her so easily he repeated saying it much louder this time "ridhima....listen....look at me...."...as the words slowly registered in ridhima's still partially numb brain she looked up, into his eyes...as he looked back into hers he could see they were full of nothing but unanswered questions...he thought to himself, i will answer them all but first u have to answer me....aloud he said "i am still waiting for your reply ridhima..." WHAT IN THE NAME OF HEAVENS....NO, WHAT IN THE NAME OF HELL is this guy talking she thought, finally finding some way within her thoughts....he wants me to reply????to what....i mean when did he put up a question....i thought he stated a fact....a fact concerning both of us, but he stated it...just like
that...bang on the point....without even giving me a look or thought....i just dont understand is it just me or is it the men in my life....why do they never bother to ask me what i think or feel before making decisions for me....
hearing her say nothing at all, armaan repeated a third time, "ridhima please....this is important... answer me dam it....i am asking you something...why dont you react....you have to answer me...this is about your life, n mine....no this is about our life....will you say something?????" ridhima gave him a look which offered no redemption and said "what do you want me to say Mr. armaan malik....how about you tell me what you want to hear from me, and i will say just that...i mean since you did not think it appropriate to even consult me before passing a verdict about my future i might as well just comply to your wishes and say what you want to hear now....oh but hang on....you dont mean to say you want to know my opinion do you in any remote possibility????dont bother with that....i have grown up knowing the men in my life to rule my decisions without giving my opinions so much as a thought....you dont have to bother about them either, considering, that you have alreday decided for me, and you, for us the future...the fact that u are the next man in my life, yet another man who will not want to bother himself with my opinion....i just dont understand why i start expecting things from my life when i know i was not destined to expect, but only to comply to the wishes of those who own my life, whose name i bear....my dad for as long as i would be ridhima shashank gupta....n now u, since u just oblidged me with my new name...ridhima armaan malik....my answer u need...my answer indeed mr. malik, to a question i was so dying to hear from you but it never came.....well anyways....i wont keep you waiting any longer....yes i will marry you....i cant believe how eagerly i awaited this moment...well something like it i mean...when i could say this yes to you....yes armaan, i have been waiting like forever to say this yes to you, ever since we first met.... but today i am not saying it just because i wanted to all this time but because you have left me no option, neither will my father eventually i know....you have your answer....i hope you are happy....like all men....getting things to go your way must be that perfect tonic to your ego. you have mentioned it to your mother already, go on and tell all your family about the future daughter in law of the malik household....tell them you won another possession in an endless list of victories you must be having um sure....get uncle to call my father and ask for my hand in wedding soon...father will be only too happy to say yes....but in the meanwile....please excuse me....i need to get back home and rest..i have the show to do for the whole week ahead, if i dont get my head in place by tomorrow i will wreck up things.....take care.....good night....thanks for the coffee....

as she walked off, armaan just stood rooted to the spot...he lost his sense to react after hearing all that....never in his life had anybody challenged armaan's decisions or actions, n she....well he thought....there was not a single word of hers he could refute....but....then abruptly he realised she had just walked off...her home must be some distance and it was getting dark...definitely not a good idea for a lady to walk down alone, specially with the attire she was in, she would attract way too much attention....quickly he got into his car n started his search for her knowing she could not have reached too far....and he was right he found her walking down the south campus road within 5minutes. he stopped the car and ran to her....."ridhima....you are coming with me....c'mon...this aint no time or way to take walks back to home....i will drop you off to your place"...she gave him a look which said it all...a look which asked him with quiet indignation whether he was still ordering her about....realising how he had sounded, he cursed himself inside.....he couldnt explain to her that it was just his concern and he dint mean it like an order.....but he couldnt bring himself to say that....not after the what has just transpired between them....so he just said in a much softer, almost requesting tone, "please....just come and sit ridhima....it isnt safe to walk right now....." "is that my future husband ordering me???" she couldnt keep herself from asking...but the soft and loving soul that she was, she felt bad immidiately realising he was only helping her and said..."i am sorry...." and walked without a further word towards the passenger seat of the benz.....as he restarted the car he shot her a sideways glance....saw an impassionate look, n for a moment he thought, what wouldnt i do to see her laughing the way she was just a short wile ago....but then he thought....armaan...steady urself mate....she is going to be your wife....soon....and you know the whole purpose involved, dont get so weak....she is just a woman....a woman just like your mother....thinking of her he suddenly felt the anger surge within him...it was all because of her....his reaction to her..... that this scene had happened in the first place....why did she....like nobody else....not even dad and muskaan....make him lose his control and logic he couldnt understand....as he swore mentally....he looked again at ridhima, and felt bad for the way things had turned out....it was all about the deal he thought to himself....but business could be handled without making things bad for her as well....thinking this he decided to talk to her while driving...."ridhima i ....." "please armaan...i appreciate your concern and thank you so much for the ride....but its been a terribly long day for me and i beg your pardon but i just dont feel upto a talk right now...." saying this she turned towards the window and closed her eyes....she couldnt believe for the first time in her life she had spoken for herself....but the thing was it was the first time in ages she had dared to expect from someone in her life....and it just seemed like everything had come crashing down....wasnt this what she wanted she asked herself????for armaan to be the man in her life????but somehow the course of events was extremely disturbing....her ideal man armaan was concerned about people around him, n today with that one exchange of dialogue with his mother he had doubly refuted her opinion of him....first his attitude towards his mother, and second his idea of saying such a big thing without even asking her....even if he was sure of her yes, which she did not think he had been, the least she deserved was an equal role in deciding about their future....atleast the chance to say the yes for herself instead of him saying it for her....she hated having spoken to him the way she had, for she was a really gentle person deep inside....but his actions had hurt her so gravely that the reaction had been too spontaneous....and she couldnt think why...all her life her father had taken her very existence for granted, but the same coming from armaan had affected her much more, perhaps because she had a pictured a totally different him....she knew she still loved him, and she did not regret having said yes for the wedding, not like she had much option as she had told him, but still she was sure her answer was a yes indeed....why that was so she did not know except that he mattered to her, even though the reverse did not seem quite so true....and then there was this new big issue....armaan's mother....ridzi just could not decide what to think of the whole thing...she was sure that her intuition supported her sasu ma to be....but armaan...a dominating male though he had behaved like today, did not seem to be the one unreasonable with people....what could possibly have happened to extract that kind of reaction out of him she just could not understand....and why had his mother just borne the brunt of it without a reaction, that should essentially be a sign of guilt, but ridz knew without need of proof that she wasnt wrong....there was some misunderstanding here....what that was....only these mailks knew...or the good lord himself....she was still thinking when the car came to a halt....she did not notice it however and so armaan got out to open the door for her....seeing she was still deep in thought, he said "ridhima, we are home" realising immidiately the implication of that statement he corrected himself "your home i mean...." hoping ridhima had not noticed his mis spoken words...ridhima however had heard them...but decided not to react anymore than she already had that evening, especially since he had not even meant this one...getting out of the car she walked towards the gate of her mansion, leaving armaan staring at her walk away....she turned around just before entering inside and said softly "thanks for the ride armaan...good night!" and walked away.....

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samrat saw armaan park the benz in the driveway and hand over the keys to their chauffer for the car to be parked in its right spot. observing the extraordinarily disturbed look on armaan's face samrat wondered what had happened, he could not see anyway his plan could have failed....but he waited for armaan to talk....."good evening son! all fine????" armaan looked up to see his father he had not noticed him sitting in the living room so absorbed he was with the events of the evening...he had even forgotten that samrat had to discuss something with him....aloud he said "dad....i made up my mind...." remembering ridhima's words from the evening he corrected himself again "we made up our mind...ridhima and i....we want to get married...." samrat could not believe his ears...he had known his plan couldnt fail him but such a quick result left even the mastermind busted for a second, but recovering almost immediately he said "thats what i had to tell you son....shashank had called today in the morning to talk about your wedding with his daughter....i cant tell you how happy i am son....this is like a dream come true...the biggest triple alliance....i am proud of u son"...for once armaan wasnt quite cheerful for the praise he got from his father, he just left it at that by saying, "thank you father.... i am not feeling too well ate something wrong perhaps...i will take your leave for now, good night"...samrat was so within himself that he happily returned his greetings and let him go without much thought....radhika however had overheard the whole conversation between father and son....her past personal experience enabled her to understand what really was happening....and she did not look delighted about it....quietly she went to her room, without anyone noticing her....

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armaan meanwile in his room, was unable to sleep...he just stood shooting the basktball into the hoop in his room....missing every shot.....trying to sort out his thoughts. why had he been so affected by ridhima's words...all he cared about in this relation was his professional gain anyways...so then why should it be bothering him, even if he was aware that she had not said anything undeserved to him....and then still thinkin he remembered his fathers words...shashank had called....so ridhima was being earnest about saying her father would not leave her a choice somehow this thought made him hate shashank though why he didnt understand for she had accused him of doing the same...and he had done it....he remembered further his father mentioning the triple alliance....remembered his fathers happiness...n then suddenly it hit him....unlike his last 2 conversations with dad about ridhima today when the idea had finally turned true samrat had not even once mentioned a word about armaans happy married life with ridz, he wondered how that could be true since that had been dad's whole intention behind the relation....the alliance was armaans motive....or was it????he did not know if he thought of this relation as just a deal anymore....definitely not he thought.....he was not ready to accept he had any feelings fo her but he did admit to himself that he did not want to see ridhima unhappy...and he figured her happiness and the alliance were 2 different issues so he would handle them seperately....this thought finally put him to peace....with peace invading his disturbed head, he immediately decided what he would do next to correct his actions from the evening...he knew just what....he wasnt going to apologize that was way too lame for this situation....but there was a better way....thinking of his plan he smiled for the first time since the fiasco in the evening....and then..as he closed his eyes...he saw am image of her in her greek outfit....blowing him a good night kiss....he jerked open his eyes shocked at his thoughts...then just sighed and said....good night ridhima....ummmm ridhima armaan malik.....despite the issue this name had created he had to admit he liked the sound of it....with this last thought, he went off to sleep......

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