Friday, 24 May 2019

Part 4 : Love Me always

She started at him as he gripped her from her shoulders more tightly……….its was hurting now she thought……….starring into those cold grey eyes full of fury tears formed in her eyes……….



"What the hell do u think did u just do? Why did u take the blame on yourself? Come on Dr Riddhima speak up?"

 He shook her violently  ………..looking into her eyes full of tears…….suddenly he felt his hands loosening his grip………he was surprised by his own action……..


 "Dr Armaan………leave me please ur hurting me………" choked a shocked Riddhima…….



She looked at him lowering his gaze and freeing her…..he stood a few feet away from her………folding his arms across his chest…….waiting for her to say something………



"Dr Armaan……….i saved bcoz I knew u didn't do anything intentionally……I saved bcoz I know u have the makings of a great doctor in u ………had ur mistake come out then it wud affect ur reputation badly………I know how much u value ur work……..i am sorry to have interfered……….i just meant to help u out Dr Armaan…………but I guess I was wrong……..it always happens with me……..i try to help and it backfires………today was no exception……..i am sorry ………"



Saying so she left the cabin leaving a stunned Armaan behind…..she cudnt control her tears………..as she walked out the nurse informed her that she will would have to do double duties from tomorrow……



Great Riddhima thought…….now a punishment of double duty……..well it wasn't going to hurt her as much as Armaan's reaction did………touching her sore shoulders she felt her pain intensify………..how could he be so rude to her……she had been so polite…….so nice to him despite his coldness and he………..guess I am always unlucky………



As she went back home…..slumping on the bed sherested her head against the pillow tired………..how was she going to cope up with him everyday……..his coldness was killing………he hardly acknowleged her presence………..but still why did she like being close to him………why did she want to be around him all the time…….was it just attaraction and lust?????? Obviously it was she thought………she was merely attaracted to him……….it cudnt be nything else she thought turning over……just then she heard her phone ringing……..



"Hello?"

"Riddhima wat the hell am I hearing……..? U commited a blunder today……….i don't think u can make such a mistake ………and as far as I know u weren't even assisting armaan on the case……..then why has Papa punished u ?"



'Di actually……….Armaan……..errm actually………"

Riddhima tried fishng out words to explain Anjali the truth……..but she just cudnt………how cud explain her actions?



"Hmm so I guessed it right………u saved Dr Armaan………took the punishment upon urself just in your very first week……….can I ask u why my dear sister…….why did u have to become so great……..He commited a mistake let him suffer………why did u have to butt in? As it is he doesn't seem to treat u properly………I hav noticed he hardly gives u any cases…….i think I need to talk to Papa……..



Ridhima jerked up…….



"No Di pls don't say nything about all this……..as it is Armaan is angry……."



She stopped herself from saying more…….



"So Ridz…….. Armaan is angry with u rite?"



"Di ………actually…..yes……I dunno why is he so annoyed I just tried to help him Di"

Riddhima found her eyes moistening again……….



"Riddhima ……..i know u are feeling bad……..but listen to me……..its his ego……..the male ego……..u see deep down he knows he was at fault……..he knew he will fall into trouble………he would have gladly accepted his mistake………but when u being his junior took it upon yourself……u hurt his ego…….he couldn't take it………he must hav felt tat u are trying to gloat over him……….so he got angry tats all I think………don't  take it to heart riddzy "

Talking to Anjali made her feel better…….she's rite thought Riddhima……its his ego…..tossing over the bed she stared at the ceiling…….thinking………his aggression was killing……..the way he gripped her………still why cudnt she shake him off……….this is lust and attaraction……….she thought……..yes I am just attaracted to him……….there cant be anything more………as I hardly know him………its better to be away from him…….his closeness kills……..

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Starring into the empty fireplace he remembered her words……..





"Dr Armaan……….i saved bcoz I knew u didn't do anything intentionally……I saved bcoz I know u have the makings of a great doctor in u ………had ur mistake come out then it wud affect ur reputation badly………I know how much u value ur work……..i am sorry to have interfered……….i just meant to help u out Dr Armaan…………but I guess I was wrong……..it always happens with me……..i try to help and it backfires………today was no exception……..i am sorry ………"



Why cudnt he forget it………why did her words keep ringing in his ears……..no woman had ever talked to him like that………the pain in her voice was so clearly noticeable……..why did he feel bad for her………..was he feeling things he had never felt………



"Dr Armaan get  a grip" He told him self angrily………u cannot let a woman affect u……..they why was she invading his thoughts………why cudnt he get her tear strained face out of his head……..



"I will say sorry" Nooooo he thought………I cant say sorry to her…….she helped me but still no I wont say nything………banging his glass on the table unable to find a solution to his confusing thoughts he dropped on his bed………



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He saw her standing in front of him like everyday awaiting his orders…….but there was something different about her today……….her eyes did not glitter……..there wasn't any sparkle in them…….or was he imagining  because he was guilty……….shaking his head feeling sure he was going mad he assigned her ,her duties………….he gave her proper ones……..trying to make up ……..he didn't why but he felt bad for her…….she accepted them quietly………

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The next few days Armaan noticed drastic changes in Riddhima………she no longer was keen to be around him,talk to him……….he didn't understand why………he wasn't liking it……….at first he tried to ignore but her indifference was taking a toll on him…….whenever she wasn't around he found himself thinking about her………no he cant do this he thought……..if she is keeping distance so will he……….but her nature was attaracting him towards her………her kind,golden heart……….full of love for everyone………..the way she treated her patients………everyone on the floor wud ask him for her………all adored her………..but he was firm with himself……….he tried to wash away any thoughts about her that entered his mind………he wasn't going to allow her to stir something in him which he had shyed away from………no he couldn't……….he started being more cold to her than ever…….trying to ignore her……….but he cudnt be rude to her……..



Riddhima found a different Armaan after tat incident………he had stopped being rude to her……..she found him more pleasant and polite………but he was still very cold………but the more she saw him the feeling for him inside her grew……….he was a master at work she knew……….she felt that there was more to his nature……..maybe circumstances made him like that……..she found it even more difficult to avoid him………he was always invading her thoughts………it was giving her headaches………it is not love she told herself firmly………u hardly know him……..how can u start to fall for him…………..



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He looked at the clock on the table……….Deshpande would be coming any time for his final answers…………it had been over a month since Despande had asked to start thinking about this………he had thought and thought……



"Shanshank…….still think……..will this plan work?"



Ofcourse it wud he thought……….i have to take this decision………its for the good of sanjeevni………he thought………the trustees want my answer………they want me to hand over sanjeevni to my descender……..but how can I ?



I know ultimately the day will come when it has to be passed over…….but……what has to be done has to be done…..



He sighed as he thought about his thoughts going through his mind for the last month……..how I wanted Anjali to be the one……….she was fit and capable enough………had she not married that fool………now I cant give it to her……….if she gets it then that fool ……….as her husband will be attached too………no I cannot………he counted his fingers thinking abt the next name that had come………Rahul……….he was his collegues son……….Anjali and he would have made a fine combination……..how he had wanted their union……..but even Rahul  dissappointed him……..he chooe that idiot……..he smirked as he took her name………Muskaan……….where that girl……….her capability………and where was Rahul……..no match………but still………..both his hopes had disappointed him………..



"Riddhima" Putting down one finger yet again…….



She was too soft………she couldn't shoulder such a great responsibility……..he could have handed it to both……..Anjali and Ridz but there was no way he would have Atul interfering………never he thought………and



There was one main reason why he didn't want Riddhima………but rite now he would have to put it aside………As long as no one knew it was fine………no one will ever know………it was buried deep in him…….and next to him Padma was the only one who had known……….



But it has to be Riddhima now………How would she do it alone…….no she cant he gritted……….there was no way he could give her all rights alone……….no he would have to  put his plan in action immediately………wat if Riddhima supposedly fell in love with a toad tomorrow………that would ruin everything………..no he couldn't allow that to happen…………



"I will go according to my plan……….immediately………I cant allow my hard work of so many years to go into some idiot's hands…….."



Picking up the phone he ordered…….



"Send Dr Armaan in immediately……."



He looked over as Armaan entered………nervous and worried…..



"Dr Armaan……..i have called u here today for very special and important reason………Listen to me carefully……."



Armaan braced himself for the worst……..



Shanshank sighed and continued……



"Dr Armaan………will u marry my daughter Riddhima?"

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Jia

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