Tuesday, 11 August 2020

part 2 & 3 : Khushiyon ka Intezaar

Part 2 

I was sitting in the caf coffee day waiting for the person namely Armaan Mallik to come. The name itself shows positivity don't know what to believe the famous saying says 'don't judge the book by its cover'. His name may give positivity but he can be totally opposite too. After waiting for half an hour finally someone came to the table other than the waiter.

 "Hi I am Armaan mallik and you must be riddhima, riddhima gupta right?"

 The moment I saw him I went to flashback, he was in my school infact we were in the same batch and most importantly he was my first crush. I can't believe he is the same guy. He is still a charmer, he is looking much handsome than before. Is this a sign from my destiny that everything would now be alright? Will I get the much awaited happiness in my life?

 'riddhima calm down you know if you are happy surely something bad is gonna happen so don't raise your hopes high'.

"Hello riddhima aap kaha kho gayi hai" Armaan asked.

Riddhima came back to reality and said "huh kuch bhi toh nahiin bas vo umm coffe lenge aap". I asked nervously. May be he hasn't recognised me and its ok because I was never popular in school.

He smiled seeing my nervousness and then we ordered two cups of coffee. After the waiter left taking our order for some snacks and two cups of coffee there was silence all over again. I had prepared a single question which will give me all my answers. The question was "do you believe in spreading happiness?" A yes to it will give me a satisfaction or rather hope that I'll smile and be happy in my new life.

I had decided to ask only this question as I didn't wanted to know anything else, my main priority is to know if he would keep me happy or not. a no would shatter all my dreams and last ray of hope but it will warn me that I shouldn't expect anything , I shouldn't dream anything.

I was so lost in thinking that I didn't realise the waiter brought our order. I heard him saying 'thank you' to the waiter.

After the waiter left he looked at me and smiled and asked me "have you done just bachelors or did masters too".

"I have done MBA and currently working in ABC (you can imagine any company not naming any specific one) Company"

"Oh that's good so would you like to continue your job after marriage?"

"If you and your family don't mind I would like to continue it" I replied with a smile on my face.

I saw him smiling at my answer I don't know whether he liked my answer or not, I mean I don't know what he was expecting from me but I was honest from my side. If he and his family doesn't mind I would love to continue working but if they have objections I don't know how am I gonna react hope they have no objections.

He asked his question and now is my turn to ask him a question, but I have no courage to ask him. Again for one minute silence prevailed between us, none of us spoke and the situation was getting awkward.

I guess he was waiting for me to speak something but I lack courage how am I supposed to tell him this. Finally he broke the silence and what he said shocked me completely. 

"You want to ask something then please feel free to ask me because we are here to decide our future" he said.

Hearing him I thought 'nothing happens according to my wish no matter how much I pray to god he never listens to me'. Finally I gathered some courage to ask him and I was about to ask him when his phone started ringing.

He looked at the caller and then excused himself and went outside to talk. May be it was something personal and he didn't wanted to talk in front of me. I waited for him to return back for next three to four minutes. In the meantime I was sipping my coffee and munching few snacks. In between I was also trying to gather some courage so that I can ask my question.

Finally I saw him walking towards the table. He sat on his seat and sipped his coffee which had arrived during his absence. Before I could ask him a question he asked me a question.

"Do you believe in controlling or interfering in other's life?"  His question completely took me off guard.

I don't know what actually he wants to know, but I'll be honest with my answer. I don't know why this question was kind of giving me a negative vibe.

However ignoring everything I replied him "controlling ya interfering ka haq sirf unka hota hai jinhe hum yeh haq dete hain or yeh haq hum sirf unhe dete hain jinhe hum apna mante hain kyunki hum jante hain ki jisse hum yeh haq de rahe hain vo hamara bura nahiin sochega or agar hum yeh haq kissi ko na de toh vo insaan chahkar bhi apki life main interfere ya control nahiin kar sakta".

After finishing it I saw he was smilingly sipping his coffee. He asked two questions and now I am supposed to ask him but again he spoke.

"Uumm riddhima I have to go somewhere can we meet again tomorrow incase you want to ask something" he said.

All the courage that I had mustered up went in drain but if I look from another side this could be destiny's hint that I shouldn't ask him this question at this moment. May be this is not a good time to ask him. I saw him looking at me with a hopeful eyes, I smiled in return.

"Yeah sure" I said unsure of what my destiny wants from me because I know whatever happens it won't be in my favour.

He finished his coffe and after paying the bill he left though I wanted to pay for my cup of coffee but he refused saying he would pay. Finally I gave up and let him pay the bill.

After he left I too stood up and started walking when I heard rahul and muskaan's voice. I turned and looked at them. They were giving me an expression of 'what is going on' and I gulped seeing those expressions.

Part 3

After he left I too stood up and started walking when I heard rahul and muskaan's voice. I turned and looked at them. They were giving me an expression of 'what is going on' and I gulped seeing those expressions. Seeing them I knew thousands of questions are waiting for me. I saw them walking towards me and I smiled at them. We all sat down on the same table where Armaan and me were sitting a minute ago.

I was just staring at both of them when muskaan said "what are you waiting for we want to know who that guy was". Hearing her I closed my eyes and after few seconds I again opened it.

I sighed and said "papa wants me to marry him so". I stopped midway to notice their expressions and as expected they were shocked hearing this.

"So what" muskaan asked impatiently.

"So I just came here to meet him" I said while trying to smile.

"You are saying no to this marriage right" rahul asked me.

 I sighed and said "since how long you guys know me? If you know me then you would know my answer too"

"Don't do this" came an instant answer from muskaan.

I wasn't shocked with their behaviour because it was expected, I know them very well and their behaviour too so I knew something like this would come up, but still I wasn't prepared for it.

"You might have other options too just think and find a way" rahul said. at this comment I felt like laughing.

"Rahul since when my destiny started giving me options? Do I ever have any options? Then why would it be different this time?" I asked rahul.

Before we could talk my phone started ringing and when I checked it was from my house. I picked it up and one of the servants told me that papa is coming back home now and wants me to be at home.

I sighed because I knew my destiny or rather my father has decided my answer even before I could clearly think on it with a peace of mind.

After cutting the call I told rahul and muskaan about papa wanting to meet me so I had to leave now. They reluctantly agreed but also said that I should think once again. I smiled at them or rather at the irony of my life and left from there.

I reached home and found papa sitting at the dining table with a coffee mug. I slowly walked towards him and stood behind him silently. I know he wouldn't like me talking so I kept quiet and waited for him to speak.

When he left my presence, without turning back he said "Armaan has said yes for the marriage and marriage would happen by the end of this week".

I stood there stunned by the end of this week was he serious? I thought he would say within a month. My mind started working negatively, was he doing this because he wants me to leave this house as fast as possible? Yeah this is the only reason for my sudden marriage I guess otherwise why a father would rush for his daughter's marriage.

Next thing which came in my mind was that if this marriage is so sudden will there be functions of the marriage or will I have a court marriage?

I didn't had to wait for long for my answer as he said " on Friday morning be ready by 9:00 am as we would have to reach court by 10"

Saying that he stood up and without even seeing my reaction to this news walked away. The tears which I was controlling till now started flowing down my cheeks.

I ran towards my room as quick as possible. I shut the door once I entered my room. I sat on my bed with my legs cuddled up to my chest and my back was resting on the bed post.

After few seconds of crying I realised that I was CRYING and I shouldn't be crying, because whenever I cry something bad happens.

I tried to console myself that I shouldn't cry otherwise something worst would happen, but I just couldn't stop myself from crying.

I looked upwards and prayed to god "please ab kuch bura mat karna I won't be able to handle it please"

To control my crying I slept for an hour or two and after waking up I felt like writing my diary as that's the only way I can pour my emotions out.

Dear Diary,

Aaj ka din boht ajeeb tha! pehli baar laga ki shayad koi hai jisse meri parwaah hai. Rahul muskaan are my only friend's or rather best friend but still I can't share everything that I feel with them. I do trust them but I am scared. Scared of my destiny whenever I am close to someone they are brutally taken away from me and by sharing what my heart feels will bring them much closer to me than they already are. This isn't good the moment it happens I know my destiny would snatch them away and I am in no state to lose them as they are the only one with whom I smile or laugh for a while. Pata hai diary sometimes I feel kash childhood days vapas aa jaye where I was unknown to the terms such as happiness, sadness, destiny and its cruel games. Bas har baar ki tarah pata nahiin iss baar abhi what have I done that I don't receive happiness? I so wanted ki shaadi traditional way main ho and I get to wear my mother's marriage dress though I doubt papa mujhe kabhi pehne dete but shayad ek umeed thi ki shayad papa de dete ab aisa kuch nahiin hoga because traditional shaadi nahiin hogi jaise I wanted I have to go for a court marriage as decided by my father. Traditional shaadi hoti toh jaise muskaan kehti hai Armaan chup chup kea ate mujhse milne sab mujhe tease karte or yahi moments hamari zindagi ke best moments hote. But i guess destiny definitely has different plans. kya mujhe kabhi khushiyaan milengi? I highly doubt that mien aaj royi hoon toh pakka kuch toh bura hoga I just hope kuch bura na ho.


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